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The side couple Freya & Meiji from Deep Night The Series are getting their own spin-off. Even though Deep Night just finished airing last Thursday, they started filming their spin-off today! It’s called ‘Deep Love’.

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thanks to @wen-kexing-apologist 's tags on this post I have a bit more to say

This? This is catching. It's reactive

這是你第一次主動抓住我

I originally translated this as "this is the first time you took the initiative to catch me" but now that I'm thinking about it I wouldn't even use catch, because someone else has to initiate something for you to catch so it's reactive

There is absolutely nothing reactive about the verb 抓住. You use 抓住 for something you have to go out and get yourself

A better translation would be "this is the first time you took the initiative to grab me" to emphasize that Qian made the conscious decision and took action

(@abstractelysium FYI)

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thanks to @wen-kexing-apologist 's tags on this post I have a bit more to say

This? This is catching. It's reactive

這是你第一次主動抓住我

I originally translated this as "this is the first time you took the initiative to catch me" but now that I'm thinking about it I wouldn't even use catch, because someone else has to initiate something for you to catch so it's reactive

There is absolutely nothing reactive about the verb 抓住. You use 抓住 for something you have to go out and get yourself

A better translation would be "this is the first time you took the initiative to grab me" to emphasize that Qian made the conscious decision and took action

(@abstractelysium FYI)

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Qian smiling because of Yuan [for @thisonelikesaliens]

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If you would, if you're willing... and of course, with my eternal gratitude either way...

Is there any additional nuance to what Yuan says after Qian catches his wrist? We got... sparse dialogue between their alley conversation in ep 10 and the love scene in 11, so I'm wondering if there's anything more to it than the subtitles gave us.

And thank you so much for all the work you've already done for this fandom! 💜

Are you referring to this line?

The original is 這是你第一次主動抓住我

I'd actually translate that as "this is the first time you took the initiative to catch me"

主動 = proactive, taking initiative

seems like the subs emphasized "first time" instead of Qian actively making that choice

(also, 抓住 = catch, seize, hold on to. I hear that and I'm immediately thinking of 抓住幸福 aka holding onto happiness/whatever makes you happy, so I see this as Qian actively choosing his own happiness, but that's just me. And there's also a sense of urgency when you use 抓住, like if you don't act at this moment you'll miss out on something important)

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only boo is running some kind of save-the-mosquitoes campaign and now this?

"cute" and "cockroach" in the same sentence? WHAT IS GOING ON IN BL LAND?

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i finished the novel my stand in is based on. bring on the toxic mess!

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new confused math meme just dropped

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+bonus

Only Boo Episode 4

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I felt like I was in a dream...

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@userdramas​ event 16: fools

JoeMing & 'Fools' by Troye Sivan ↪ My Stand-In (2024)

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funniest fanart by theaya1108

San Pang: Wei Qian, what's that on your neck?

Qian: !!! Uh, this...erm...BOXING! YES I GOT INJURED FROM BOXING!!

Bao: Er Ge, what happened to your neck?

Yuan: Oh, this? (pulling down his shirt) Do you really want to know?

Bao: Ummmmm...not anymore...

Yuan: Look, Xiao Bao, Da Ge gave me this necklace of strawberries*! (pulling down his shirt more) There's more inside!

Bao: Er Ge, I don't want to know...

Yuan: Da Ge was so cute he even practiced! I named it the Chain of QianYuan**~~

Bao: AHHHHHH I DON'T WANT TO LISTEN MY EARS ARE BLEEDING

Qian: WEI ZHI YUAN! 😡

*euphemism of hickeys = strawberries. planting strawberries = planting hickeys

**謙遠之鏈 = QianYuan's chain/necklace, which sounds the same as 謙遠之戀 QianYuan's Love

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Unknown Episode 11 [for @thisonelikesaliens]

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Unknown Episode 11

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Devotion.

I just want, or rather need, to write about this scene, because it stuck in my head for the last seven days. And because of the wonderful @lurkingshan I decided to post it...

This scene is the culmination, the end of the years that Qian has forbidden himself to feel joy or love. Romantic love that doesn't demand, that doesn't require him to be in control, to take care, to be the big brother. So far he has not allowed the depth of his feelings for Yuan to surface. He has kept them locked away, kept control of them. He knows they were there, but couldn’t or didn’t dare to face them, to name them. And he would have continued to do so if Yuan hadn't finally told him what he actually wants from him. It wasn't enough for him to tell Qian that he loves him, that it was his own problem, not Qian's, that he was content if the person he loved was happy. The talk with San Pang and the staircase talk were the first steps, Qian is finally able and willing to face those emotions, but couldn’t make up his mind. Still couldn't name those feelings.

Everything is too much for him. He is overwhelmed by the decision he has to make and the possible outcome of that. He could lose Yuan, if they don't work out in the end. If those boundaries are finally crossed, there is no going back to where they were. So Qian needed to hear that Yuan doesn't want him as a brother. Every time Yuan told Qian he can take care of him, he is there for him and holds up the world together with him, it was as a brother. In Qian’s mind, he said that as a brother. All Qian brought Yuan was suffering and sadness and abandonment, because he fell in love with him.

In his mind, Yuan shouldn’t love him as something else than a brother, because that would harm both of them. Because loving Qian isn’t a good thing to do. Qian knows that Yuan loves him but hasn't understood, or rather wanted to understand, the extent of his feelings. Yuan wants to be his partner. He wants him to be able to rely on him, to be Qian's rock, no matter what life brings, he wants to be there for him. And not just for the moment, but for the rest of his life. And not just as a brother Qian has to take care of, but as a lover, the one person who puts Qian first.

He wants to be Qian's partner, he wants to protect him and take the burden off his shoulders. He wants Qian not to have to deal with everything on his own, but to open up to him, to share his worries and hardships with him. And Qian finally understands what it means when Yuan tells him that he can summarize his life in two words: Wei Qian. Yuan puts Qian above himself, he would run to the end of the world for him if he had to, he would fight against the rest of the world if he had to, he will protect him, he will take care of him and love him no matter what the world holds. And finally Qian understands that it's good, that Yuan won't just leave him once he opens up, because he loves everything about him, his dark sides and his light ones. Yuan can take care of him to the end, can love him to the end. And Qian surrenders. He's always in fucking control, no matter what, he has to control everything, even his heart. But at some point, all resistance breaks. He just had to understand.

And when they get into the bedroom, Qian is beaming. The lightning focusses on his face, this delighted face. He is like pudding under Yuan’s kisses, touches, breathes. In that moment he exists only out of his emotions. There is nothing more and nothing more is needed in this situation. He has never looked so weightless before and has certainly never felt like this.

We know what Yuan imagines at night, or at least we have a pretty good idea. We have witnessed countless moments when his love and affection for Qian literally leaked out of his face, while Qian tried to suppress his feelings with a petrified expression. But finally, he can feel them. He allows himself to give in. He allows Yuan to take care of his world, to let him feel how much he loves and desires him. The power of emotions and sensations are depicted on Qian’s face. He has his eyes closed, tasting every single moment, savouring every single touch. Blissfully.

Yuan's presence is Qian's entire focus. Just as Qian is Yuan's entire focus. And he makes sure that Qian feels good, that he forgets everything, all problems and responsibilities, illnesses and losses, for the moment. He takes care of his world. This one thing he wanted to do for so long, he is finally able to do.

(Well, there is an edited version out now with this whole scene as one without the flashbacks, but I saw the other one first and I loved it, so I stick to it.) The whole scene is repeatedly interrupted by scenes from the past and it is always Yuan. I was also a bit irritated by the time jumps at first, I get why people are annoyed by this, but it makes sense. We know that Qian is Yuan's whole world, the centre around which he has revolved for years and for which he would do anything. We see scenes that led to where they are now. Their shared history. Their shared memories. The sequences speed up and at some point it's just Yuan’s face at its core. Yuan. Yuan. Yuan.

And you can understand, without needing to be told, that Yuan is also Qian's whole world. He is the centre, the heart that gives his own life warmth, with whom he can let himself fall, who knows him better than anyone else, who was always there, even when he physically wasn't, the only one who could tell him to do things he didn’t want to do, the one he can’t fucking live without. And Qian surrenders. The feelings he couldn't allow for so long are now boiling out and we have these close-ups of his face and see how he's longed for it. How touch starved this boy was.

I don't need a close-up of Yuan to know that he's enjoying every single second. Would it have been nice? Sure, but I think narratively, that's the way they wanted and needed to go. And I love this whole scene. It's aesthetic, it advances the story, it's intimate and it's fitting for the show. Because Qian always was Yuan’s world and Yuan is Qian’s whole world.

I just wanted or needed to say I love this scene, its buildup, its pace, its hecticness and this disconnected feeling. It's Qian's scene. It's what we've all been dying for, for Qian to finally give in. And when the emotions overwhelm you, then it becomes hectic, then nothing hangs together and thoughts can't be grasped, can't be put in order. You jump from moment to moment, starting at one point and ending at a completely different one. It's Qian's scene. It's not Yuan's. We've had enough scenes to see Yuan's love and devotion, now it's time for Qian. We are, like Yuan, experiencing Qian in his first moment of absolute devotion. Without time, without place, without anger or fear. He doesn't think about the past or worry about the future, because for the first time he lives in the present. Yuan gives him this security that he can let his guard down, give up the control. I don't think Qian has ever felt as safe, secure, and loved as he does in this moment. And I love it so fucking much! Perhaps I just ignore my little dissappointement in them rushing this whole thing, because I watch those scenes with a narrator in my mind and he is giving me so much more in those scenes than the actual scene shows. But I understand everyone who is dissapointed with this scene and editing.

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I have no plans for a trip down memory lane. Don't be like that. You know it's hard to find a bosom friend in this line of work. You're a kindred spirit of sorts.

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The dialogue in the last two gifs could also be taken to mean:

If everything goes well/is alright, let me know. Then I won't/shouldn't let you know if something happens/goes wrong.