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pt 1. clingy binghe

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phainon probably dreams about being choked out by mydeis thighs like that’s exactly where he wants his head thanks

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A very shy maned wolf stopping for a visit at a monastery in Brazil for a bite to eat provided by monks. Because of their super long legs, they walk more like giraffes than typical canines. Maned wolves pose no threat to humans. 

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To love Mydei is to be unable to forget him.

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Before reading the TGCF novel, I think my expectation (based on background info absorbed via osmosis on Tumblr) was Oblivious™ Xie Lian and Secretly Pining Hua Cheng (trying to act cool but failing type thing). Maybe sth more similar to MDZS.

That would've been great too. But wow the actual story was NOT what I expected.

Hua Cheng was not acting cool. He was actually cool, as in calm and collected. He was just so sure about his feelings, and it truly didn't matter if Xie Lian ever reciprocated. He was happy just to be around and showed it candidly. He never actually hides his feelings per se, but tempers them so that Xie Lian would feel more comfortable. I mean, he did have a panic attack in the cave of ten thousand Xie Lians, but honestly who wouldn't. That's his soul laid bare, his ernest prayer in the depths of despair, clinging on to the only thing that's keeping him in existence. But, other than that, he was pretty normal actually. He knows how he feels, and he'll take it as far as Xie Lian wants to.

Now. Xie Lian. Xie Lian's response was a surprise to me. I did not expect to see him having a full-blown gay awakening, gay panic and gay acceptance journey, especially one occurring quite so early in the story. And boy was he NOT oblivious. Inexperienced? Yes. He had absolutely no idea what was going on with himself. But he was keenly aware of it the whole time, noticed every single thing he felt, emotionally and physically. And then processed it so normally i.e. initially by hoping for instant death, but later on just completely rolling with it, basking in it even. So much so that by the time we get the cave, he already knows what he feels and what he wants and who San Lang is to him. He panics only because he's afraid San Lang will run off without letting him explain.

And I just love that. I loved seeing a relationship developing so naturally, so easily over time, just blossoming, really.

What's difficult is everything around them, not them.

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phaidei got me crazy ngl

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stop twinkifying hunky men you're being homophobic to me specifically

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”kevin” this “khaos” that

his real name is clearly Yearnmaster 3000

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He is my silly little boi and I want to bite in his silly little shoulder (affectionate 🩷)

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☔☔☔

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❓️❓️❓️

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uhhh lalalal

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bros….