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#ACOTAR FANDOM. Where do u stand on „A throne of Glas“? I could buy all 8 books at once for 50€ but I have checked goodreads and the reviews are pretty mixed. Is it as good as ACOTAR? I am a student and don’t have a truckload of money to spend..

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02 October 2019 // been finding some A+ study spots lately. Today I’m at the public library which I’ve never been to in the three years I’ve been attending my university. It’s tucked away in the woods and has soooo many windows. The natural light is amazing and it doesn’t make you feel all cooped up like the school’s library does.

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the temperature hit 27 degrees f (-3 celsius) today so i’m bundled up in my room with thick socks and cozy blankets, trying to accept the fact that this is the new reality for the next 5 months 🌨

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13.3.2019// At Zweigbibliothek der Humboldt Universität, revising my notes on the poetry festival in Frankfurt am Main. I was there in the weekend, hearing a lot of inspiring discussions about genre definitions, the new media, and formats of poetry ( long poems, prose poems, slam poetry, song poetry, performative poetry etc). I could see in person all the poets of the Berlin scene I’ve been reading and I was amazed by their lectures and readings. You can read a report of the festival here ( only in German ).

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university is just. it's you, your laptop and your water bottle against the world

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look not to spoil the ending but you’re going to recover and be happy

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02.08.19 || study session in the library 📚📚

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I really want to enjoy neurology, I really do, but...

Too much anatomy

and oh gosh I really need to start studying again

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Friday, April 14 (2017)

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if you’re reading this right now.. i truly hope something good happens to you soon

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adult life is truly just thinking “I NEED TO CLEAN” while dealing with the 17 other things that have a hard deadline

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Finishing up some readings in a tiny Parisian style coffee shop ☕️

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07.04.17

getting my workspace nice and tidy for a productive day of math studies! hopefully will get topic 1 fully revised today.

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focus on YOUR studies. YOUR grades. YOUR hobbies. YOUR job. YOUR life.

Comparing yourself to others can not only cause a distraction, but also damage your mental health.

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good morning! back at it! really struggling with this essay! ya girl is heading back to her argument to make sure she actually knows what she’s doing / (i haven’t posted this yet but this is definitely an) edit: as it turns out, i didn’t know what i was doing but i do now. cheers to tuesday am and fresh coffee

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in college there are only two moods:

1. i can do this! after outlining everything i need to do, it doesn’t seem so bad. in fact it’s very methodical and easy to follow and i can do it.

2. oh my god its happening. its the end for me. i might as well be dead. everything is due now. i was put on this earth to suffer. i have two essays due in 45 seconds and all ive eaten today is half a goldfish cracker. i can only feel pain

also these moods go back and forth every hour 

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my profs’ advice/comments on impostor syndrome –

“i’ll tell you how i’ve learned to deal with this sort of thing. i didn’t develop a sense of joy in my academic study until i realized that what really matters is the work itself. it’s not about trying to impress anybody or trying to earn a specific grade. it’s all about loving the work, the reading, the writing, the critical conversation. and i think you do love those things, and you do enjoy your academic work when you can get out of your own way about it. now, where i’m at in my career, i have to think about what gets me up in the morning, and that’s not publishing 20 articles a year or seeking external approval. what it is, is writing, reading, and teaching about what I love, my own little academic world that i’ve created.” – prof c

 “i wrote shitty papers in college, and i still got a phd. you’re not supposed to know everything yet! you’re still learning! you know what, write that on a post-it and stick it on your laptop. you don’t have to know it all yet. you don’t have to be perfect.” – prof s

“while i can assure you that you should not feel like an imposter, i can also confess that the syndrome is common at all levels of academia – so you should not think yourself abnormal to be experiencing it.” (x)

“i hate to say/write this, but it’s sort of true: that you having these impostor-syndrome reactions, these worries about disappointing those you respect … to me, that sort of signals that you do have traits common to many successful academics! even people who have masses of success behind them – and, come to think of it, particularly the people who have a lot of cred *and* outside affirmation of it – suffer from impostor syndrome *if* (and the if is important) they genuinely care about the quality of their work. so: if it’s possible to think of these feelings as symptomatic of a characteristic many good academics share, then please do.                                                                                          (…) the important thing is this: how counterproductive it can be for self-sabotaging people to think of themselves as being ‘born’ to do something. it makes any possibility of missing the mark immediately existential. academic work is something one chooses because one has a strong interest in a certain field of study, an ability to study and produce credible work (as judged by ‘authorities’ in said field), and a social possibility to choose to proceed in that direction. sometimes, i, at least, find it helpful to remind myself of the simple facts of this.                       (…) i do think it’s important to put the activating gesture of entering grad school very firmly in your own hands. you are choosing this. you are choosing it because you want it, others have said that you are capable, and you have the practical possibility of choosing it. this is enough. the work will be enough without the existential heft, and the existential heft will not make the work better.” – s

 from my lit teacher’s wife, an english prof at ucb who graduated from yale – ”yes—i feel like this often—and so does every person i’m close to in academia, and every graduate student ever. the key is to just feel the fear and do it anyway, especially when ‘do it’ means ‘write.’”