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25th-28th November 2024

In those days, not much occurred.

I got my credit card and a haircut. Went to DecoFurn and got some couches that my mom bought. I will share a picture later on, but she got two one-seater couches and 1 two-seater in a dark grey color scheme.

I got the Apple One subscription and started watching Apple TV+. The show Tiny World is so cute. I love watching it.

Watched a lot of YouTube as well. Kind of unhealthy but yes. Also found out Dr. Disrespect is moving over to Rumble. Considering the controversy around him it just shows something. That things take time and we should be patient regardless of how many rejections. I am sure there was a time where he thought not much can go on.

But look now, he got himself a deal with Rumble.

As of writing this, I have been hesitant to put out something but here I am. I have been thinking about the concept of my faith.

On one side, I think it is kind of pretentious. On the other side, I think it is important as well as you should have something to have that help you cope and have morals.

I think I am going to believe.

Dear Lord be with me.

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28-November 2024

07:58 Good morning to you all. I haven't been posting because of one simple reason. I relapsed. I know I am not supposed to, but I did.

And it wasn't for one thing. It was for more than one vice.

I watched TV, I listened to music and drank soda.

That is unhealthy and consuming all of them made me feel lethargic and unable to study and go on.

However, this morning I woke up and said to myself I will not be relapsing and starting from the beginning.

I will be posting later on today of all that actually happened but just thought I would share this, so I know what took place between 25th - 27th November 2024.

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Monday 25 November 2024

Shift at work: On Leave

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23-November-2024

Dear Tumblr,

I am writing this a day late because yesterday was exhausting and quite a bit happened.

Woke up early to get a haircut. Before heading out, I cleaned my room.

It must be because of this is pay-week because there was a lot of people at the barber. Like a lot. I lost patience because my mom wanted to go do her shopping.

We went to Lentegeur to do the shopping. I was sweating through and through. Man, it was horrible.

Then went back home.

After coming back home and packed all the groceries into the house, we left again. This time it was to give pastor tithes.

Sister Shona's mother passed in the week. On Wednesday.

She was 93.

After the visit we left to go to Watergate Mall. Made a wrong turn and then had to drive up Samora Machel and then take the proper turn again. We went to Brights Hardware where we bought Panels for walls and some DIY things.

The toilet isn't fixed and might need more work.

After all that, I was exhausted.

I know I am not supposed, but I switched on the television. I need to fight this addiction of television and social media.

I want to replace those vices with reading and academics.

I fell asleep and just went to bed.

No studying happened.

Which is a really bad start to my studies.

However, day 2 will be better because I must earn everything and not just buy it.

So, as such, that iPhone and whatever else, I need to get will only be bought after getting accepted.

See you later for Day 2's entry.

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22-Nov-2024

This is day or to be more specific - Day 0. This is going to mark my journey achieving all my goals.

Goal 1 - Getting accepted into my dream university before 2030.

Goal 2 - Getting my driver's license.

Goal 3 - Purchase a brand-new car.

Goal 4 - Get a tattoo of an owl on forearm.

Goal 5 - Read 50 books

To achieve the above, I need to make a plan and stick with it.

Disclaimer - I am 24 years old and, in my country, achieving Goal 1 is kind of a stretch.

Before I continue, I would like to preface that the decisions I made, were my decisions and the consequences I accept. Regardless of, if someone advised, that was still my decision I made and the consequences I face alone. I blame nobody else but myself for the mistakes and problems I occurred.

I accept full responsibility.

Let us start from the beginning. Earlier this year, in 2024, I enrolled back into the University of the Western Cape (UWC). Bad move.

There is nothing wrong with the university. I was the problem. I was what you would call a readmitted student. That is a student that was readmitted to a university after failing and the university forced out due to not passing their curriculum. I enrolled in 2020 and failed with the 2020 and 2021 academic year. I just didn't care; my focus was on another university and studying something else.

At UWC, I studied B Admin. That is Bachelor of Administration. A degree that has a focus on Politics, Public Administration and Management. And after doing it, I realized that the social sciences like politics and industrial psychology were not for me. It is theory heavy and didn't have a lot of complexity and nuance as STEM degrees did.

I wanted to change degree programs but couldn't because:

If you want change within a faculty they look at your marks in the year.

If you change outside a faculty, they look at your marks as you are a new entrant. That being a matriculant. So me changing to something in the science faculty where I didn't have physics, biology was going to be a problem.

So, in 2022 - they declined my entry into UWC as I failed twice. I didn't feel bad. Was just concerned about what am I going to study as studying and academics form a big identity of me.

I applied again in 2024 got enrolled and realized that this wasn't for me. Every morning, I walked up to the lecture room bored out of my mind and wondering why I even came here.

That was when I decided this: I will study physics and biology from scratch and then apply to my dream university. You might think that is daft. It kind of is. However, I don't mind. I am more than happy doing that. Even though, I might not get accepted, I would like to achieve the marks that would guarantee me admission. I think knowing I did my best in getting there will be fine.

Early this morning, I asked the receptionist at my dream university, and she replied that only students in matric this year qualify for guaranteed admission, but I can still apply.

If I don't get in, I won't be mad. I will try to be positive and just do my best.

Although, as I get older, I am seeing just getting the degree as the goal rather than making a full career out of it. If that happens, I think my chances of being struck by lightning seems more plausible.

However, miracles can happen and there is a God out there. I am not that religious, but I do believe it is possible I can genuinely get accepted before the age of 30 at my dream university and then make a career out of it.

This Tumblr account will document my daily activity of what I do and how I will get there.