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My experience’s with @boosvhs on twitter/Alastair.

CW: toxic relationship, grooming, C.P

This is something that has bothered me for years, but with so many people finally speaking out about their experiences, and reflecting for so long, I felt empowered enough to finally tell this story.

I am a transgender MTF content creator, and back in 2020-2021, When I was 11, and they were 16, They got into a relationship with me.

If it wasn’t obvious, A SIXTEEN year old should not be dating a ELEVEN year old. In this time that we were dating they had me send them pictures of me in feminine clothing, such as exposing dresses, panties, my moms women’s swimsuits, to them it was like a kink, and they also had me send them images of my legs shaven to look like a cis woman’s legs.

They would tell me “Hey, there’s something on the floor, go pick it up” So I would unknowingly bend over and they’d look at my ass. At the time I did not realize how disgusting this was and by the time that I did realize, it was too late.

I’m disgusted with the amount of stuff they did to me was, how they tricked me into doing so many sexual things at a young age, and how they had me sneak my phone at night to talk to them, and when I was caught in the middle of the night they would just yell through my phone to get my mom angrier and then hang up.

I never realized how truly horrific this situation is, and while typing it now it makes even me realize how gross it was. They had me pay for a Minecraft server and other things with the little money I had at the time from just doing chores and begging my parents for extra money, while they had a job.

Close to the end of the relationship, they would just completely stop talking to me and would ignore me in voice calls and make me think they were mad at me, but then when I would be so upset I left they would make me feel bad right after for leaving the call.

Also during this time I was unaware that I was just ONE of their partners, and that they had around 3 more at the same time. They had me lie to my mom about who they were, where they were, and their age, and at the time I didn’t realize why, but now I do.

They knew the school that I went to, and that’s what scared me for so many years, but I only realized this year that I’m in a completely different position, and that I can actually speak out against them finally.

It’s been so long since the relationship, and I have a very bad memory anyways, so that’s all I can remember only off the top of my head, if they hadn’t had me delete my old discord account (Which I now realize was to basically get rid of evidence) I could even include screenshots in this and even more evidence.

This is genuinely disgusting and I’m glad I can finally speak out about it. Because even if this relationship has been over for 3-4 years, It still affects me and haunts me to this day, knowing they have access to me doing sexual things as a child, and I have no power.

The only people I can remember from this experience are @boosvhs, @kandicl0uds, @PandaOfFire, @willoshi, and @Zuli_owo .

Thank you for reading about this.