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Utena truly said what if Eurydice knew from the start that Orpheus would look back. She knows that this is how the story must end. Orpheus remains optimistically oblivious as he trudges forward. Eurydice waits for him to look back. Look back already, as other so-called "heroes" would. He does not look back. He climbs the crags and steps of the Underworld even as Hades accosts him, leads him down and down and down back to the depths. She wants him to look back, look back and end this spiraling journey of cliffs and chasms. That is how the story ends, after all. Is he purposefully denying fate, or does he truly not know what is to come? All stories have a certain end. He does not look back. She begins to ask him to look back, to beg in woven myth to let it be done already. She throws herself off a cliff, Look back, look back, watch me fall and know that it is done. He casts his head aside as he grasps her arm in his hand. He does not look back. He reaches the precipice, where the story must end even as all else has failed. He is shown a future (a fantasy) without sorrow, without her. He does not look back. Forward, forward. He thinks himself a hero. "Look back," a blade pierces his chest, "look back at your killer. Let this story end, as it should, as it will, for you are no prince." He does not look back. Forward, forward, as rock gives way to dirt. He collapses at the maw of Hades, dewkissed grass at his fingertips. He does not look back. Eurydice steps into sunlight.

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"stress" by yoan capote - made of bronze and concrete

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Been awhile hasn't it

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Happy kitty 🐈😺

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From the time I considered changing my lineart approach but decided to stick to the style

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The Constellations of Eorzea

The Bole - Heaven of Earth, The World Tree The Balance - Heaven of Fire, Azeyma The Ewer - Heaven of Water, The Scholar’s Vessel The Spire - Heaven of Levin, The Tower of Byregot The Arrow - Heaven of Wind, Llymlaen The Spear - Heaven of Ice, Halone

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Since the whole thing with NaNoWriMo has gone down, I've noticed that one of their former sponsors, Ellipsus, has cut contact with NaNoWriMo because they do not support their stance on AI; I didn't know what Ellipsus was, but upon further research I've found that they are a writing platform that works a lot like Google Docs and Microsoft Word, only with a heavier leaning on the story-writing aspect and connecting with other writers - and they also completely denounce any use of AI, both in the writing process itself and in the use of their platform. I really appreciate that.

Since this is the case (and since I've noticed Google has begun implementing more AI into their software), I've decided to give Ellipsus a try to see if it's a good alternative to Google Docs (my main writing platform). It's completely free and so far, I've found it simple to use (although it is pretty minimal in its features), and I really like the look of it.

I figured I'd spread the word about this platform in case any of you writers would want to give it a try, and if you do, let me know how you like it!

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I feel like at some point somebody should do an adaptation of Hamlet involving a zombie outbreak as a major part of the plot, if only because "something is rotten in the state of Denmark" as the tagline is too good an opportunity to pass up.

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Chai tea bag + lil but of brown sugar + apple cider packet + 16 oz. mug of hot but not quite boiling water

it will not Fix You but like. maybe. maybe.

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"use chatgpt" that's the devil talking. buy four caffeinated drinks and pull an all nighter. this is the way.

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i love living in western washington. i can literally just get on the ferry

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🐝  *  ―  𝐂𝐀𝐑𝐑𝐃 𝐓𝐄𝐌𝐏𝐋𝐀𝐓𝐄 𝟎𝟐𝟔: 𝐅𝐀𝐈𝐑𝐘𝐓𝐀𝐋𝐄 𝐆𝐎𝐍𝐄 𝐁𝐀𝐃. ( new year, new carrd page. basically made this thing in an hour after working a whole day on my personal version for this; also tried using styles for the first time to make it easier when adding / changing things so you won't have to change each thing individually if you e.g. switch the colors. anyway, you can find the preview for this here. it's a multimuse template with a landing page, a navigation page, a rules page, a muse page with five sectioned-off pages for different types of media, and a connection page. due to the number of elements used this template requires at least a pro lite account. if you want to upgrade feel free to use my referral code KB4W13V3 because it helps me out. )

―  HOW TO USE

please don’t claim this as your own, and don’t delete the credit.  you can change it’s size or color but it should stay where it is.

of course, you can edit all the colors, sizes, fonts, etc. however you like.

to get this template please click here.  it’s on a pay-what-you-want basis, so it is possible to get it for free if you set the amount to 0. ( if you’d like to leave a little tip, i'd very much appreciate it, though. )

when you first open this template, it might look a little weird because carrd deletes the images i’ve used so there will only be empty spacers of sorts that may look a little out of place.  just upload images and this will fix itself.

actual image sizes don't matter since carrd scales them to fit but you can see examples of the image sizes i’ve used in the demo to get an idea for the dimensions.  or just try your own and play around with the settings to get the desired outcome.

if you have any questions on how to edit it, just send me a message, and i'll try to explain it to you.

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It's so weird talking to people who's view of "here's the way life is for everyone" is shattered as soon as they talk to someone with disabilities (physical, mental illness, any). Like you'll say you'll have a problem and instead of helping you they'll argue with you about how you're not actually facing that problem. Like,

Me: Hey, I'm really struggling to find a job and a part of it is my resume. I was depressed & psychotic during highschool so I didn't do anything to gain skills or achievements to put on my resume. I also don't have anyone to put as a reference. What can I do?

Them: You can add your skills, hobbies, clubs you're in, and different volunteer work you've done! You can also get your teacher as a reference.

Me: I already know what to put on a resume, my issue is that I don't have things that I can use. Also, I'm in my mid 20s so I don't know if I can put my highschool teacher as a reference.

Them: Well if you're a part of a church or an activity group, you could add that. Also, think of any projects you've worked on in the past.

Me: I already know you can put these things on a resume. I'm not looking for suggests of things I've already done, I'm looking for what I can do now if I haven't done anything.

Them: There's no way you didn't do anything during highschool?? What about some odd jobs you definitely did for extra money, like babysitting or mowing the lawn?

Me: I spent all of highschool either in modified classes or in bed doing nothing - not even hobbies, what about that do you not understand?

And then you talk to someone who's also disabled and they're like "Here's a bunch of jobs you can do from home that don't pay much but look good on a resume, here's some free online courses that also look good on a resume, here's how you can be making small amounts of money in the meantime, here's some things you can put besides a professional reference, and here are your rights if your future employer tries to take advantage of your disability - which you probably shouldn't tell them about unless you need accommodations."

And suddenly my will to continue trying returns!

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FINAL FANTASY XIV 1.0 ARCHIVE

In honor of FFXIV: A Realm Reborn's 10th Anniversary and this year's Rising event, comes the public release of my years-long passion project to create a 1.0 Archive of the original 2010 release of the game. This 1,500 page archive contains a full annotated transcript of the original 1.0 MSQ, the 1.x GCQ (End of an Era storyline), full Class and Job questlines, Side Quests, and Open World NPC Dialogue and Newspaper articles.

FFXIV 1.0's continued existence on the internet means so much to me, and this project is possible only thanks to monumental efforts from Gamerescape, ChrysalisWiki, dedicated 1.0 Youtubers, and long-time loremonger AnonyMoose. Thank you all! It is my hope that this archive provides one more accessible source from which to read and enjoy the game that we celebrate every year at the Rising.

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How to Transfer Vertex Groups to Another Skeleton for Mashups 📝 XIV Mod Guide

So when you're doing a hair mashup, you're gonna have a bunch of vertex groups that don't do anything after joining onto another skeleton, because the bones don't exist anymore. This is a quick guide on how to rename your vertex groups to match your hair skeleton, then join it onto that skeleton. So your hair weights work! Woo! The UV part is only necessary when working with non-XIV models. All models exported from TexTools will have correctly named UVs.

Keyboard shortcuts used:

DEL - delete menu will pop up

CTRL + left click - select multiple meshes (always select the mesh you are merging to last, it will be yellow)

Default bones in every hair skeleton:

j_kao - base head bone (all bones branch from this)

j_kubi - neck area

j_kami_a - first ponytail/long hair bone

j_kami_b - second ponytail/long hair bone

j_kami_f_l - hair on left side of head

j_kami_f_r - hair on right side of head

Naming conventions for bones in extra skeletons: (h0001 used as an example)

j_ex_h0001_ke_f - front of hair

j_ex_h0001_ke_b - back of hair (similar to j_kami_a)

j_ex_h0001_ke_l - hair on left side of head (but custom)

j_ex_h0001_ke_r - hair on right side of head (but custom)

j_ex_h0001_ke_u - usually small random sections, like a little ponytail or tuff of hair somewhere

I think there are more types, but I live in the M Viera hair section, so these are the most common ones I see. Remember to update the Metadata in TexTools or Penumbra to reflect the skeleton you used before importing the mesh.