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BPD culture is purposely triggering yourself when you feel empty/numb, so at least you'll feel something.

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Actually upon further inspection that shit really hurted my feelings

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date idea: u tell me exactly how u feel about me in specific detail until my brain calms down and stops thinking u hate me

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Thanks for hanging out with me! Was I cool? did you like me? What do you think of me in detail? Do you hate me?

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professionally diagnosed with people treated me like absolute shit so now I'm mentally fucked for life disorder

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I dont want him to suffer, but i dont want to lose him. Fuck cancer. This fucking sucks and i am so sad. I dont want him to be scared. This is so hard.

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I find it fascinating that people who choose not to have children are generally assumed to feel really strongly about not having children (or even to feel really strongly against children, anyone’s children, in general). I am probably not going to have children, not because I REALLY REALLY HATE the idea of having children, but because I don’t really really love it. Out of all the major decisions I will make in my life, this one is the only irreversible one. I can sell a house, quit a job, divorce a spouse, whatever. I cannot unhave a child. I cannot opt out of being a parent once I become a parent. I can’t even take a step back for the sake of self-care or whatever, or else my child will suffer.

So for me, having children is fuck yes or not at all. The default will be to remain childfree. Having children should be an opt-in decision, not an opt-out one. Until/unless I develop really strong feelings about wanting to have children, I won’t have them, even if that means I never end up having them at all.

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i would like to stop making realizations about my childhood now. i think i've learned enough, thanks.

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