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wow

It’s been years since I logged in. Reflecting on all the changes that have occurred since then is surreal.

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Yes I am 😊

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I don’t use this Tumblr account anymore.

Weird to think how far back it was when I actually tried to follow other accounts and post things

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Keeping that last rant  I did for self reflection but don’t take it too seriously lol

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Venting Ignore lol

I’m no fun anymore. I used to say a lot of weird things, watch weird videos, play new video games, have a weird, snappy sense of humor, and feel okay about expressing that to other people. I’ve suppressed all of that to get taken seriously by academic or professional people, and because I had a couple bad experiences with some boring hipsters I misread. I barely even engage myself with anything I actually like, partially because of terrible time management, but also because I get the feeling that anything I’m interested in or feeling would lead to immediate social rejection by anyone.

Fuck everyone else and fuck their opinions. Fuck ‘em fuck ‘em fuck ‘em (if I say it three times that makes it happen).

My life is stagnant because this place and every place and person I see or go to is stagnant and I’ve let all of that condition my behavior. Fuck all of that.

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Gotta drive on a those socialist roads and read my socialist mail and call up the socialist police to enforce my capitalist private property rights. Liberaltarian ideology is something else indeed.

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The requirements for creating an Okcupid account are just fucking rude.

I should be able to put myself out there while keeping certain aspects of my sexuality private.

I don’t want to lie about my bisexuality, but if any man tried to hit on me I’d fucking lash out at them.

Is straight androgynous an oxymoron? Because I just want to use that to keep unwanted people men away and have the right people be able to search me.

I’d probably delete the account in the span of a day because I’d feel rejected so I might as well just do something.

Everyone there just seems closed off, and that just doesn’t help.

How do I talk about rejection without coming off as too antagonistic?

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Feel certain enough to say I’m bisexual, but I’m not sure what to do about it.

Sometimes, I’ve had a lower sex drive which I partly blame on somewhat higher blood sugars from diabetes, so that’s made it harder to make sense of. It might also be a mental health thing, so I’m not sure.

Most individual men are gross and overly masculine anyway so I’m not sure it’ll effect my day to day life. The right type would have to pop up and things would take a while just like when I thought I was straight.

In terms of being public about it, it just isn’t most people’s business.

It’s there but not a big point of emphasis for me personally, so I just dunno.

It also feels like another set of complications is just being added on when I have so much else to deal with, so maybe I’m just deemphasizing it’s importance due to stress. Hard to tell

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the collection

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Saw the Snowden movie and thought about a lot of campus liberals and activists I’ve met and worked with over the years. The topics of civil liberties, surveillance, drone strikes, and US imperialism among others are non-issues to them.

Meanwhile their enthusiastic support for Hillary Clinton and Democratic Party is often contrary to my beliefs, and excuses systemic oppression in practice.

So many of them do great work on the local level, but their environment combined with my field of study and personal issues is extremely draining. I hate to lump so many people into a single grouping but I’m going to have to stay the fuck away from most of these people.

I’m going to be doing some sort of public service for most of my life, so I need to seriously contemplate what’s important to me and where I’m best needed.

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Fuck Reddit

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Leaning towards androgyny and I’m starting to get suspicious of everyone.

Though, I guess it’s not like I wasn’t already lol

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I think I’m generally attracted to men, but it’s hard to tell because most of them are individually gross.

It’s just less mental effort to focus on women.

I don’t like focusing on my sexuality, and I have a hard time meeting people in general. I feel like I shouldn’t be picky, but I’m never around the people who would be interested in me so what’s the difference?

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what even is this website?

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I’m pretty uncomfortable with some of the things I’m attracted to.

It’s just disgusting when I’m not in the right mood.

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“No labels” rhetoric isolates people from their community, history and culture. It keeps people from being able to articulate themselves and ask for what they need.It promotes a false sense of unity that only serves to further the dominant classes in society. It is a lazy way of getting out of understanding and digesting complex issues.I dislike this rhetoric and approach.

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