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coming across a silent blog on our side of the internet always feels so wrong.

you were here once at the same time i was. maybe you even scrolled past my posts.

where are you now? what happened? why did you post one morning and vanish the next?

was this disorder finally too much for you? did you find the post you needed to convince you to recover? did your parents find out? your boyfriend? your wife?

where are you now? a hospital, crying your eyes out? your bed, sleeping peacefully? a grave?

do you ever think of us? i’m sure you do. or maybe you blocked this part of your history out, determined to never repeat it.

i wonder if you will return. or maybe this is the end, in the morbid way or not.

maybe i’ll walk past you on the streets some day. maybe sizing eachother up, twisted illness still penetrating our every thought. maybe we’ll rush past eachother in a hurry to get to work. maybe I’ll visit your grave some day.

nonetheless i hope the best for you, even though i know that optimistic future isn’t reality for most.

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My nutritionist has me send her pictures of everything I eat in a day and it’s really putting into perspective how many cookies I eat. Yesterday was 9…

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"BMI is dumb"

I say as if my self worth doesn't depend on being underweight

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I’m seeing a dietitian now. She’s nice.

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I’m struggling to survive bro

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The fact that there are hospitals that can turn me away because I’m not Indian is racist. When I moved here there was an urgent care that accepted all people but it closed last year and opened as a native urgent care which means, both the hospital/ hospital er and the only walk in clinic takes members of the tribe only. I found this out because I took my baby to be weighed and they said no because we’re not native. I don’t give a fuck if they want native only casinos, restaurants, stores, etc. but hospitals? Medical facilities? Especially the only hospital for 23 miles? The only walk in clinic for 30? That’s fucking insane. Living example of racism.

So fucking ready to move out of this town. It’s full of nothing but gang violence between tribes and drugs. I hate that my husband wanted to move here just to live close to his stupid friend.

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Bro is only 1 month old and his feet are massive 😭

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Why do I have to remind grown men that they can walk away from a game if it’s upsetting them? I legit don’t understand why they sit there and scream at a screen when they can walk away? Please explain it to me.

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New goal is to work on my fiber intake. I need like 30gs a day

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My number one food hack is plain Greek yogurt.

Mayo? No. Sub Greek yo

Heavy cream? No. Sub Greek yo

Sour cream? No. Sub Greek yo

High protein and low cal. Also very versatile.

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I very badly want to see the face of some of these tumblr users

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I can’t hit my protein goal to save my life bro

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The sad reality that I am now a mother and can’t say “I’m gonna kill myself” to every small inconvenience

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I fucking hate video games 😐

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Shopping for cute lingerie for when I reach my goals