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Shattered [Kakashi x OC] - Chapter 30: Open Wounds is now up!!

Another Shattered update!! Go show it some love guys <3

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they were such good friends.

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not reading wips feels anti-fanfiction to me. and i don't mean that in a "so you're a bad person if you don't read them" kinda way. do what you want. but i also feel, that you are completely missing the point. with fanfiction you're supposed to come along for the ride. the epic highs and lows of highschool football. the comment sections. the conversations. the theories. the "sorry i didn't update last week i was abducted by aliens and then my cat got stuck in a tree." LIKE. if you just want a story that's fully finished and polished go to a bookstore. fanfic is an EXPERIENCE. and ALSO. participating in the process is part of the way you make fanfic writing worth while. it's part of how you thank authors. like why would anyone write fanfiction if no one was going to interact with them until it was done? it again feels like a way that fanfiction is being eaten by consumer culture. you're waiting for your product. but this is supposed to be a club. you don't turn up to drama club like "where's my play bitch?" NO ma'am. we're supposed to paint these cardboard trees together. ok. i may have lost control of this metaphor. BUT YOU GET IT.

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Hi there! What is your headcanon for Kakashi when he is crushing on s/o and how he'd let them know?

Kakashi crushing on his S/O and so on and so fourth

See this is interesting because I feel like Kakashi would go through hell and high water for his future S/O to NOT find out how he feels. Especially younger Kakashi, who is all work and no play and probably thinks that this whole crush thing is clearly super dumb.

I think there's lots of watching when he thinks they're unaware, checking in on them at random times of day (or, if they're coworkers, when he most definitely should be doing something else) and not much else. I think Kakashi tends to be very hands off with his partners during the longing stage. Which tends to be a rather long stage.

Kakashi cannot will not and should not be pushed to do something in the general way, but romantically? the man is ice cold right up until the ball leaves his court. Once things are out of his control he's a bit of a mess and it's almost a little pathetic - in a cute way - to watch him trip over his words. But this is an incredibly hard thing to do.

Confessing? It'd be so casual that they may not even realize it happened until they're agreeing to go to dinner with him. Kakashi is smooth 99% of the time, and makes a sport out of taking people aback. He's going to ask his S/O to dinner and they're not even going to realize what they're saying yes to until he tells them when he's picking them up. It's a KO, no winning, you end up with a wink as he wonders off and wondering what you've signed up for.

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Your honor they are hot

Ahsoka and Kakashi from Shattered [Kakashi x OC] - on Wattpad

I was feeling up to drawing Kakashi and Ahsoka striking a cool, menacing pose back in their Anbu days.

Love my scary babies <3

Go show Shattered some love!!

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I'm so proud of myself for this redo of this little comic strip I made for SHATTERED based off YOUR LIE IN APRIL more than two years ago. This is truly the first time that I can see the progress I have made truly makes me feel so accomplished.

Thank you all who have supported Shattered [Kakashi x OC] over the years! I really appreciate you guys <3.

Here's the old version!

Go read Shattered guys!

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Shattered [Kakashi x OC] - Chapter 29: Turbulent Waters is finally up!!!

After the looooong wait I'm so happy to finally share with you guys the chapter that has sat in my drafts for almost two years haha.

If you haven't read the story in a while I suggest starting from Chapter 27 to get a refresher on what's been happening this past arc.

Enjoy! <3

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the darkling said i have loved and lost and i can bear it no longer, i will close my heart to anyone who is not like me, love is weakness, love is heartache, the joy of loving them is not worth the pain of losing them and i would spare her from this pain even if she hates me for it

and alina said i have loved him and i will lose him but not today, i have sacrificed everything but i will not sacrifice him, not again, i will bring him back to me no matter the cost, even if i have to let him go in the end

and mal said i have loved her my whole life but i don’t know who i am without her, i want a life of my own even if it means i have to leave her, but i will go trusting that i will be able to find my way back to her as i always have

and genya said i have loved him and i do not regret saving him but it came at a terrible cost, i have wandered underground in the dark with only the sound of his heartbeat guiding the way, i have survived unimaginable horrors and i am strong enough to survive losing him too

and david said i have loved her without knowing how to show it but i would like to try, i know metal and she is stronger than steel and more beautiful than rubies or emeralds, i have never known anyone braver and i regret leaving her side before, but i will do it just once more if it means i can save her

and wylan said i have loved him even knowing it might never be anything more, i left him the first time but i’m not leaving now, i want to hear about his day and i want to tell him about mine

and jesper said i have loved him all while hiding a part of myself but i will hide no longer, i do not know where this journey will lead us but i would like to find out, i have spent my life gambling and i will take a gamble on this

and nina said i have loved him even as he hates me, i have condemned him to save him and i will not rest until i am able to free him

and matthias said i have loved her despite a lifetime at war against her people, i should have known better than to trust her but i let myself anyway, she betrayed me and i should hate her but it’s not just hatred that i feel when i dream of her in the night

and inej said i have loved him as his shadow, close enough to be near but never touching, i want more for us and i will not settle for less, i will have him completely or not at all and i will not wait, i will live my own life with the freedom he gave me and we will meet again one day when i choose to return

and kaz said i have loved her when i could not love myself, i do not believe in saints but i believe in her, i have lost my brother and i would do anything to make sure she doesn’t have to suffer the same, i have given everything so she could have her freedom and i would rather watch her walk away than ever hold her back, i will wait for her and i will miss her every moment she’s not beside me, but i will try to make myself a better man by the time she returns

and sankta neyar said i have loved and lost and i will gladly do it again, i once closed my heart but no longer, i will endure the pain of losing my husband by cherishing the memories of the life we shared, may you all find a love that brings you joy that will outlive the pain, my love is my strength and my universe, i have lived for hundreds of years and what i have learned is this: there is only love, it is the only thing that matters and it is enough

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the reason why i love writing kakashi fanfiction and why i strongly believe that he would be a good boyfriend and husband -despite his trauma- is because i think that kakashi is pure of heart.

i don’t think that kakashi would ever judge anyone based on their appearance, gender, religion, etc. i think that when kakashi loves someone romantically, i think he would fall in love with their personality. the way they look is just a bonus. that’s why i think that when you ask kakashi what his ideal type is, he wouldn’t give you an answer. he’ll just say someone with a good personality. fat, skinny, chubby, average, kakashi loves it all.

when it comes to religion, i am convinced that kakashi would take time out of his day to learn about your religion. he would read about the customs, the practices, the history and he would be very accommodating towards you. he might not be religious himself (might not even follow a religion) but he will respect what you believe in.

i also think that kakashi wouldn’t give up on you when learns about your mental health. he would be very patient with you and would help you in any way possible. however, that doesnt mean he’ll alway himself to be walked all over. kakashi knows when to put his foot down and will be blunt about certain things. he will even recommend you seek professional help as he also has some mental illness and it can be exhausting for him to take care of himself while also supporting you. yet, he will still be by your side. he just needs you to see the importance and benefits of seeking help.

there are so many reasons why kakashi is just such a wonderful character and why so many of us are emotionally attached to him but it’s 11:32 pm right now and i’m emotionally drained and tired so i can’t really list all of the reasons on why is so well (deservedly) loved.

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this sequence doesn’t need any embellishment, but i still think about it constantly.  

i’m thinking about yamato, who, for the first time here, uses his jutsu for his own interests, against the people who trained him to use it only for theirs.

thinking about the fact that kakashi’s arms are still cut up and bleeding from wounds yamato gave him, and yet here he is, breaking law after law, risking his entire life to save someone who two hours ago was trying his best to assassinate him.

thinking about the fact that kakashi comes to the foundation against the hokage’s orders, that he breaks into this facility knowing full well that it amounts to treason, that he deliberately orders yugao away before he does anything illegal, not just so she can get help, but so she can’t be implicated in the choice he’s made.  

thinking about the fact that self-preservation and concern about potential future consequences are things that don’t even register in kakashi’s mind, not when there’s an immediate ethical choice to be made.  in the future, he might be arrested for what he’s about to do.  he might be executed, even.  but all the nebulous, potential future consequences in the world can’t affect his decision, because right now, if he lets danzo do something to yamato, he’s done something wrong.

[it’s like what he says many years later in the manga: to know what is right and choose to ignore it is the act of a coward.]

thinking about how badly danzo wants kakashi dead.  kakashi is the kid he couldn’t ensnare, the one he tried to exploit by preying on the pain of minato’s death but whose spirit was ultimately too strong to be made into another of danzo’s lapdogs.  kakashi foiled all of danzo’s plans three years ago and now he’s foiling all of them again; he can’t be intimidated, he can’t be broken or brought to heel, even lost and hurting and alone as he is - at the most critical moments, he still always does what’s right, not what he’s told.  nothing danzo does can change that.  there’s something guiding kakashi that danzo can’t touch, some kind of moral magnetic north inside him that can’t be cowed by any of danzo’s usual machinations.  kakashi will not be led.  that look he gives danzo when the smoke clears - it’s all fight.  that’s somebody who’s prepared to die for a principle, and danzo doesn’t know what to do with people like that.  he has no power over them.

[thinking, incidentally, about the fact that danzo must have hated kakashi’s father, and that he must hate kakashi even more, because kakashi is the version of sakumo who refuses to recant and who repeatedly decides not to die, despite how badly he wishes he could or thinks he should.]

thinking about kakashi, outnumbered and crouched there with yamato knocked to the ground behind him, preparing to fight his way through every single person who shows up to stop them from reaching the exit, including danzo himself.

thinking about how kakashi is doing all this for someone he barely knows, who tried to kill him, who thought that death was a well-deserved punishment and who fully expected to be forsaken, forgotten, and abandoned to his fate.

thinking about what that must feel like for yamato, who never in a thousand years believed that anyone would come for him.

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I just found out Ahsoka shares the same birthday with Jūgo!

Really?! That's cool haha

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Hellooo! After some research I am back with the MBTI that MOST suits Ahsoka is....drumroll please.... ESFP!!

ESFPs tend to be outgoing, friendly and accepting. Exuberant lovers of life, people, and material comforts. Enjoy working with others to make things happen. Bring common sense and a realistic approach to their work, and make work fun. Flexible and spontaneous, adapt readily to new people and environments. Learn best by trying a new skill with other people.

While I think this is the MBTI that most suits Ahsoka, this does not mean she will not make decisions that go against the stereotype of this personality type. People are rarely black and white, meaning that they do not fit into one category, so do not expect her to religiously stick to this prototype since this only shows an overall glimpse to most of her personality.

Also her personality contrasts nicely with Kakashi's who I've heard has been categorized as an INTP.

If you had to choose, what would be Ashoka’s MBTI?

Ooooooh that’s a veryyy good question that I hadn't thought about. I’m going to have to do a bit more research into each of the personality types to see which one she fits in, but as soon as I figure it out, I will get back to you! <3

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If you had to choose, what would be Ashoka’s MBTI?

Ooooooh that’s a veryyy good question that I hadn't thought about. I’m going to have to do a bit more research into each of the personality types to see which one she fits in, but as soon as I figure it out, I will get back to you! <3

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Yes, Ahsoka!

Haha I don't think she'd be good at calligraphy. Her talents lie more on the performing arts rather than the visual ones, like singing, acting, and playing instruments.

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This a question I just randomly thought of while reading your fic but does she do calligraphy?

Hellooo

By her do you mean Ahsoka?