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“Nobody has that many things wrong with them.”

Actually, lots of people do. I just happen to have an audience and refuse to shut up about it because medical neglect meant I almost died in silence, so I am adamant to survive as loudly and as annoyingly as possible to make sure no one else goes what I go through and hopefully know they’re not alone.

Also it’s called comorbidities and the knock on effect of being told I was “just anxious” for thirty odd years while my body was allowed to crumble. Had I been correctly diagnosed a lot sooner and given adequate medical care, a lot of the things wrong with me might never have happened.

As it is, I was slapped with an anxiety label for the longest time and allowed to deteriorate until it almost killed me. I am now living with the consequences of that.

And if you truly can’t relate or think it impossible: Be thankful your medical experiences to date have sheltered you from that.

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Oh in case anyone wanted to know Sam owns Blåhaj btw. Two.

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Tom about Luke: a cute cutesy little so cute :))

Tom about Sam: AN IDIOT A STUPID IDIOT >:[

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still screeching incoherently about their Instagram story

Tom calling Luke little and cute, Luke calling Sam most passionate kisser, Sam calling AJ best haircut, and AJ confusion king as usual

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When do I tell people that Tom calling Luke tiny and cute is also an insult and that he's (gently, I'm sure) making fun of him(/a bitthem)?

(I'm pulling a Tom telling Sam how to pronounce limoncello...is it still funny when I do it?)

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SFTH Incorrect Quotes (DND Edition)

In honor of me finally finishing the DND streams

Ashen: Maybe the real treasure was the memories we made along the way.

Daemys: I almost died.

Ashen: That was my favorite memory.

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Falmouth: Do it scared. Do it vaguely uncomfortable. Do it mysteriously damp.

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Lucas: Why would you think any of this was a good idea?!?

Daemys: Probably because I’m a dangerous criminal with a long history of violence.

Daemys: I don’t know how you keep forgetting that.

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Ashen: I’ve only had Ellory for a day and a half but if anything happened to her I would kill everyone in this room and then myself

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Daemys: We all have our demons

Lucas, grabbing Ashen: This one’s mine!

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Windsmuth: What scares you the most?

Lucus: Monsters.

Ashen: Ellory getting hurt.

Daemys: The unstoppable marching of time that is slowly guiding us all towards an inevitable death.

Falmouth: Daemys.

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Lucus: I love murder mysteries.

Ashen, trying to impress him: I’ve been a suspect in four murder cases.

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Ashen: What do you want for breakfast?

Falmouth, dehydrated: I WISH TO DEVOUR THE UNBORN.

Ashen:

Lucas: He wants eggs.

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Ashen: “Become a parent,” they said

Ellory: AHHH PUT OUT THE FIRE

Falmouth: GET THE ANTI-FLAMETHROWER

Daemys: IT’S CALLED A FIRE EXTINGUISHER YOU IDIOT

*Explosion noises, screams increase in volume*

Ashen: “It’ll be fun,” they said

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campbell bain. reblog if you agree

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Hija!! Do yk which of the guys had the most characters with sad, tragic or bad endings? Asking for an edit >:))

Hmmmm I’m not sure! It’s pretty even I think? Idk let’s see :D

SFTH SPOILERS BELOW (also long-ish post so be aware of that I guess)

All of them have a kind of messed up time in habberdashery (Luke’s child character not the wife) (Tom wasn’t there though)

Lost in your eyes Tom and Sam have a tragic love story

Long John’s I haven’t watched in a little bit but Luke killing his brother (I think) was pretty messed up, Tom’s character dies and AJ holds him as he does.

Jockey is VERY messed up, Sam’s probably the one with the most tragic stuff.

AJ’s character in hare says she’s had a tough life, then Jimmy the Hare dies in her arms

Midnight mystery ends with Scottish Batman being in the middle of dying (I think) and Robin like kills someone or something??? The ending confuses me a little

Cube has Bubba and Jeremiah which like, Bubba loses his legs and Jeremiah has to deal with that, then yk, Jeremiah DIES in Bubbas ARMS and everything, so those two (I could ramble about Bubbamiah for the rest of this post but I won’t lol)

Bus is kinda tragic with the whole thing of Arthur BD getting imprisoned inside the vagina cage (…yeah. that’s a Sentence alright.) and then dying from the acidity

NIGEL IS SOOOOO MESSED UP AND I LOVE IT Andrew being imprisoned and his uncle not even caring or looking for him for two weeks!? Nigel getting him hooked on cocaine (and also doing whatever he did consensually with Andrew tied to the chair- even if it was consensual it might have been the drugs or the Stockholm syndrome… which is REALLY dark.)

Caravan has Jericho (Tom) who is terminally ill and dying of some disease and he has dreams of being an actor and then gets replaced with no remorse.

Stegosaurus is SOOOOO dark and i think that Chip and Cliff could both be said to have tragic backstories- even that French guy actually if you look at it from his point of view. So Sam and Tom, and AJ as chip if you include that part as well.

Lefternmost window is kind of dark but not really tragic, cause it’s all resolved in the end but you could say Tom’s Scottish character who was shot in the throat maybe

Neighbours you could argue it’s tragic for every character, really. Johnny and Janae mostly, though Annabelle dies and idk if she did much wrong. Definetly Johnny and Janae.

Milkman you can say Peter, Toby (the boy in the room) and The other kid (AJ) and also probably Mr Steven, plus Hank (the Texan bartender) all of them have pretty tragic stuff happen.

Beetroots Sam is pretty tragic, all of the stuff that happens in that. Justin’s parents died in a fire so maybe also him.

The evil make a wish kid you could say Luke’s character as the father, cause, well, his son is evil and also died and kills his mother. (And blew up every petting zoo in the entire world)

Priscilla is pretty dark too so probably Priscilla, she goes through a lot

Circus you could definitely say Watson, he kills a bunch of people cause he’s in love with Sherlock and goes crazy and becomes a creepy clown (hi if you’re reading this and don’t know the fandom, welcome! Everything is so normal)

Murders in space would definitely be Mary, with working on the whole time penetration/dilution thing her whole life only to have to fade away to save the world.

I’d need to rewatch Hugh and moist and magical for the specifics but characters from those two are not having a good time

JIMMY DOESNT KNOW HOW TO USE A DOOR AND NO ONE WILL SHOW HIM (also Clancy did doohicky’s wife but who cares about that when there’s Jimmy)

Alexa and Janusz from Ballet are both pretty tragic but again I’d probably need to rewatch it to have more details

OK SO

adding all of this up here’s an extremely rough tally just based on this

AJ llllllll (8)

Luke llllllll (8)

Sam llllllllllll (12)

Tom llllllllll (11)

So Sam, but Tom’s close (although I think Sam has more like main characters?? But I’m not sure)

I hope this helps!!! :D can’t wait to see the edit if you make one

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Thanks so much for the tag!

This is difficult... hmm... probably...

Milkman

Ballet on the Battlefield

The Cardboard Stegosaurus

Caesar and Juliet

Beetroots and Murder

Favourite game: Book game/Change

@youling-the-ghost, @generalidiocy, @jupiterfangs

No pressure if you don't want to :)

SFTH Tag Game!

List your top 5 favourite improvised plays and your favourite short hand game and tag anyone you want! /nf

Mine:

Beetroots and Murder

All Eyes On Nigel

The Milkman

BUS

Oh My God, Is This A Joke?

Favourite game: Party Quirks or Genre

Tags! /nf

@i-may-be-an-emu @rubber-glovs @letsbesharkfriends @leftenmost-window

And open tags!

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More hand-written fanfiction! (ft. a bubbamiah fic that I impulsively started working on during class and I feel bad for because I'll have to abandon it so that I can finally finish chapter 3 of To be in Love)

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okay i'm like 99% sure that the Kaiser's advisor, the one who organized the event, is actually just a time traveller -see all the suspicious remarks about "in the past i think they..." and "the first world war" - but one who did not pay attention to when he was going and thus forgot to do any reasearch, and who is now actively introducing future German slang to the 10s'

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reblog to bonk the person you reblogged it from with a hollow cardboard tube

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Shout-out to all the awesome sfth fan editors out there, you guys are awesome <3

(I'm yet to be upset by anyone in the fandom, I love you all, just wanted to show some edit appreciation)

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My Top Ten Favourite SFTH Plays (vaguely ranked, but it changes a lot). Also, idk how to put things under a cut intentionally so you folks might have to sit through this, sorry about that /gen, the autism has overtaken me tonight /hj

10. The Midnight Mystery

I mean, Scottish Batman is too iconic to not be included on this list

9. OMG, Is This A Joke?

This one is iconic, I've gone off it slightly recently but that's probably because I've watched it too many times lol

8. Lost In Your Eyes

Plot centered around romance that I don't dislike? That's a win. Love the adventure here too, and no deaths either! (/s)

7. Priscilla's Final Petal

SFTH is really good at horror, I wish they did it more often. Yet another traumatized child to add to the collection

6. The Cardboard Stegosaurus

I mean, this one is a difficult watch but it's so beautifully done. BBC News is my favourite character

5. Wine Under The Bridge

This is where it gets tricky now. The top five order changes a lot... Troll Son is adorable and the whole play is hilarious 🐐🐐

4. The Unrelenting Aubergine

I laughed so much watching this one when it aired. Beautiful love story, iconic characters and comedy, overall wonderful

3. The Mystery Of The Midnight Circus

Senile Sherlock Holmes is a fantastic concept, and the whole thing is bloody hilarious! Easy to understand as well, given that I know very little of ACD Holmes

2. The Excited Chinchilla

Sci-fi is my favourite genre, and this was such a good example of it! Idk what my favourite part is, but the chinchilla puppeteering Roy/Gary is engrained in my brain

1. Inside the Mysterious Cube

I mean, I know it's a popular one but that's cause it's good! I love sci-fi so this was perfect, bubbamiah is beautifully heartbreaking, and I love the cube characters too!

Well done if you made it to the end, sorry for the ramble, just needed somewhere to put my autism /hj

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I would like to see more people talk about how jobs treat disabled employees.

I used to prep, wash dishes, and cook at mellow mushroom. I had chronic pain that wasn't NEARLY as bad as it is today, but it was still very debilitating. I told my employer "i cannot stand more than 4 to 6 hours. I CANNOT do shifts longer than this due to my illness." And even though i made my boundaries VERY clear, everyday i worked it was 8 hours at the least and 10 or 12 at the most. I would go up to my manager and say "look i really need to leave, my shift is over, my chronic pain is killing me." And he'd say "we really need to here, you HAVE to push through." And so i did, and after one, ONE month of that job my crps got incredibly worse to the point where i could no longer walk my dog around the block which was .5 miles. I quit, and that was FOUR years ago, and ever since that day I HAVE BEEN BEDRIDDEN AND HAVE TO USE A WHEELCHAIR. It is my biggest regret in life.

My best friend who has seen my whole journey has recently developed undiagnosed chronic pain, and she is in the EXACT same scenario i was 4 years ago. Busting her ass at a pizza place with extreme pain that hurts her so much she tells me "im in so much pain i don't even feel like a person." She doesn't feel LUCID. And her manager and coworkers are saying the same thing "if you don't help us you will let us down, we'll be in the shit."

That job thats hurting you isn't fucking worth it. I promise you no money is worth losing all your physical abilities and never getting them back. Your coworkers and boss do not give a shit about you, so don't you dare suffer for them. They will never understand your struggle and they will never try. They truly think being understaffed is worse than whatever pain you experience. They would rather you permanently damage yourself than inconvenience them. FUCK THEM. DON'T FUCKING DO IT!

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I'm going to be yelling into the void and probably hit the wrong audience with this one but I hope people on here and in general realize that when you advocate, say you support and care about disabled people, that means the ones who are disabled and ways you don't like or the ones that are not conventionally attractive or have a traits that aren't exactly "likeable" or "cute" and include the people you dislike too.

Don't mock someone who's a shitty person on tiktok for having a stutter then turn around and say that the person you know in real life who has one is cute.

You can't mock someone for being a bad person for having bad hygiene for literally whatever reason and act like the friends who have the same issues don't notice. The person you think is weird for hyperfixating on something that "doesn't matter" to you knows that people already think that and you vocalizing your opinion does next to nothing.

Most people who use mobility aids, myself included know it's probably a bit irritating to be moved around, or have to wait for someone to move a bit slower or take up a bit more space, or a lot more space.

Someone who's high needs autistic already thinks they're a burden for asking for or needing more help. Out there there's probably someone who has "bad teeth" or is isn't conventionally attractive and knows about their issues more than you do.

When it comes to activism and caring about others there isn't a line you can draw in the sand for it. There is no possible way you can pick and choose which people have rights or not based on your personal preference for them.

Just because you dislike someone for whatever petty or legitimate reason they have doesn't give you the excuse to treat them like a villain for something they have no way of controlling.