tiredjournstud

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[tiredjournstud]

Stolen Dream

Ever since I was young, I really dreamt about being a college student, I always read pocket books and watch drama related to college students or university students. I really admire the concept of being able to travel alone going to your dream school, meeting new people and being able to pursue the course that I really wanted.

At the age of 13, I was grade 8 that time, I always ask my sister who is currently a sophomore psychology student that time. She told me that her dream school is University of the Philippines and Polytechnic University of the P, but she finished her study and got her diploma at University of Caloocan City for the reason that it is the nearest school here in Caloocan where we are currently residing.

So growing up, Like her, I really dreamt about going to the prestigious university like PUP and meet new people. So i did enough preparations in order for me to passed and study in PUP. At first I thought the examination would be difficult and I would probably fail. But even though I have second thoughts and I'm scared on what might happen, I remain focus on my goal and told myself that even if I fail at least I tried. And when the result came, I was shocked, I cried for about 30 minutes and thanked God for his guidance.

At that time, I'm so excited to finally start my college in my dream school but unfortunately I am not able to pursue my dream course which is Psychology. I asked God several times to put me in the course where he wanted me to take. And then suddenly I have the chance to take Journalism. I know it wasn't in my option, I never imagine myself taking communication courses since I am an introvert and barely talk to other people. But I kept in my mind that at least I'm in PUP, my dream University.

However, the biggest plot twist in our lives came. The government advice the public to stay at home due to the threat of getting infected by the Covid-19 virus.

We are unable to go to school, meet other people in person and to study, get stressed and bond with my classmates in the mode or set-up that we used to know which is the physical set-up.

Being a college student during this pandemic is really tough. We are forced to study because we are afraid of getting late from our batch. Only few of us are capable of using desktop because most of students are not fortunate enough to buy new gadgets which can be used during online classes. What makes it way more difficult is the environment of the professors and students, most of us were surrounded with people so we are distracted by the noise that our surrounding have made.

During these days, the number of students who has been mentally ill arise for about 90 percent. Most of them stated different reason like family and financial problems. Hence, being able to finish college during this pandemic is quite difficult.

I personally have experienced having anxiety. It's very difficult for me to do school related stuff and work in order to provide the needs of my family at the same time. I tried to stop my study for awhile and study since we are currently in online mode of set-up but luckily I have friends and family who pushes me to finish what I've started. They told me that God put me here for a reason and He will help me to finish it.

Even though pandemic steal the most precious part of my dream which is to become a normal college student, meet new friends in person, I am still grateful because at least in the past two years of studying here in my dream school, I can say that finishing this course is possible with the help of my friends, family and most especially God.