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03/02

Almost restless weekends of the first quarter of 2025.

January, we had meetings and preparation for the ICON and CLP

February, ICON, CLPT, and Evangelization Training.

March, SCOM 101, meeting and coordination with CFC leaders and start of CLP...

Tiring yet fulfilling... Praise God for the fire in my service. Bless me and I will bless others too.

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02/11/25

Epic Tuesday.

Paalis ka na at biglang lumakas ang ulan.

Sadyang babanggain ng isang van dahil hindi ako nag follow ng traffic rule.

Tigil na ang ulan pag dating mo sa trabaho

Pumasok ng basa ang pwet ng pantalon dahil butas ang kapote ko.

Na misunderstood ang chat ng ka-trabaho na "patay si sir ****". Kinabahan na akala patay na nga pero pag tingin sa table niya andun nakaharap sa PC niya.

Take note 7:30am palang at ang dami ng nangyari, let's see ano pa meron today.

Pero thank you Lord pa din at buhay pa kahit may taong willing pumatay dahil sa hindi ko pag sunod sa traffic rule.

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Sa pag pasok ng taong 2025, nakatanaw sa malayo at nag darasal na sana ay pagpalain at gabayan ako ng Diyos ako at aking pamilya at dumating na ang lalaking aking makakasama sa habang buhay.

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366/366 reflecting on 2024 God's blessings and faithfulness. I was blessed and grateful for all the things that happened. New job as year 2024 enters, new workmates, new opportunities for learning and active participation in community's activities. Thankful for the blessings that God gave to my siblings, good health, and financial capacity to provide in each day of the year. Thank you, Lord. may You continue to bless us in 2025.

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11/24/24

I attended a retreat, which is Ablaze Weekend Reatreat. It was a wonderful two days spiritual nourishment where I learned and realized that exhaustion and burned out really do exist in serving. Sharing of the attendees were admittance of tiredness and burned out in serving. They want to stop serving in the community and leave. But in four sessions that the reatreat have made me realize that We are embraced by the Father, Save by the Son, and Empowered by the Holy Spirit. And God wants us to Set the world on fire.

In the four sessions, struck me the most is the third session...Empowered by the Holy Spirit, which suddenly come into my mind this phrases "We Catholics we pray to God the Father, God the Son, but we always forget the Holy Spirit. It was mentioned during the talk that Holy Spiriy brings God's desire, Holy Spirit brings fire, and the Holy Spirit brings love. We know that God the Father, God the Son and Holy Spirit are united as one as the holy trinity it made me realize that praying to the Holy Spirit would give us the fire to passionately serve God. When we serve or we are called to serve, we should always ask God to give us and send us the Holy Spirit because good decisions and the right mindset come from the Holy Spirit.

In all my service, I admitt that at some point, I feel tired , especially if I look to the imperfections of others. But a reminder from a tito, sabi niya "kay Lord ka nag se-serve hindi sa kanila. Wag kang umalis sa community dahil lang ayaw mo sa ibang tao o hindi mo gusto ang ugali niya. We are not perfect, all of us have imperfections.

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08/29/24

Ang weird, last time I was on fire to serve and even thinking of searching in pero ngayon I feel dry, parang ayaw ko na mag serve. Ayoko makita o makasama ang ilang tao na nasa community. I feel tired of being with them and adjusting for them. Lord, sorry if I feel this way, I made a promise to serve you, but having this kind of feeling, hindi ko maintindihan, Lord. I feel empty and exhausted.

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07/14/24

Dear Lord,

Today, we had our household meeting sa bahay. During sharing, there is a questions, and it goes some what like this. What is your pearl of great price? What are you willing to do for Him? I answered the number one that my pearl of great price is my family even though may patents already passed still my pearl of great price is my siblings. I answered the 1st question very simple but in question number two. I shared that the things I prayed, that I will follow You whatever Your will. I still pray for married life, but if there is no one that is for me, I will serve You through the community of SFC and later serve in the church as a cathechist. I shared that I am thinking of taking a theology class, and tita commented that it looks like there is someone going for a search in. I told them the maximum age in entering the convent is 35, so I still have a lot of time to pray for my vocation. Yes Lord, actually, I am having a hard time deciding what shall I choose. I want married life, but those people showing interest are not in the standard I have set. I am praying and asking You, Lord, please give me clarity of mind, clarity of heart. Let me understand things that You are making in my life. Guide me, Lord, in my decisions in life. Help me, Lord, in my vocation, help me to choose what shall I pursue. Whenever I choose what vocation to fulfill, may it be done for You. Lead me, Lord, align me to Your plan.

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07/05/24

Hi Lord, it's been a tiring day. Lord muntik na ko maaksidente kanina pero thank you kase you help me to control yung manibela kahit medyo mahaba yung pag sway ng motor ko kanina. Akala ko talaga Lord aksidente ang aabutin ko. Lord, I prayed for those reckless drivers sa kalsada na sana maisip nila yung aksidente na pwedeng mangyare dahil sa kapabayaan nila. Give them knowledge and guide them, Lord, most especially those jeepney drivers. Madami sa kanila ang naghahabol ng pasahero at ng kita. I prayed, Lord God na hindi sila mag cause ng kahit na anong aksidente lalo ngayon na madulas ang kalsada. Ganun din Lord, guide me din Lord na maging safe sa pag mamaneho ko, always give me presence of mind and give me patience. Make me safe, Lord, in my day to day driving. Ikaw na Lord ang manguna sa bawat pag mamaneho ko.

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07/05/24

Hi Lord, it's been a tiring day. Lord muntik na ko maaksidente kanina pero thank you kase you help me to control yung manibela kahit medyo mahaba yung pag sway ng motor ko kanina. Akala ko talaga Lord aksidente ang aabutin ko. Lord, I prayed for those reckless drivers sa kalsada na sana maisip nila yung aksidente na pwedeng mangyare dahil sa kapabayaan nila. Give them knowledge and guide them, Lord, most especially those jeepney drivers. Madami sa kanila ang naghahabol ng pasahero at ng kita. I prayed, Lord God na hindi sila mag cause ng kahit na anong aksidente lalo ngayon na madulas ang kalsada. Ganun din Lord, guide me din Lord na maging safe sa pag mamaneho ko, always give me presence of mind and give me patience. Make me safe, Lord, in my day to day driving. Ikaw na Lord ang manguna sa bawat pag mamaneho ko.

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07/01/24

Hello Lord, the month of July has started, Lord hindi energetic ang unang araw ng July. It feels gloomy and plain, though I'd worked very well today it's just I don't feel very well. Lord, naalala ko sabi ni ate kath mag journal daw ako, pwede ko isulat yung maliliit na bagay na ng yari sa araw ko. Kaso hindi ko alam pano ko ikukwento Sayo lalo yung mga ganitong araw na parang exhausted na umaga pa lang...

Lord, naguguluhan ako I want to serve You pero hindi ko makita kung paano. May gusto akong gawin pero hindi ko alam kung ano. I want new things in my life. Lord, I ask You to lead me to Your plans. Lord, open my eyes and allow me to see what You want me to become. Teach me to love and accept all Your providence.

Sapat ba ang service ko sa SFC, pakiramdam ko kulang. Pakiramdam ko may mas mabibigay pa ako. Pero paano Lord? Help me to understand Your plans

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Just randomly scrolling into Facebook, seeing those guys na sinubukan pumasok sa buhay ko. I've been thinking, what if I allow them to enter and be part of my life? Before, I did not allow them dahil sa set standards ko, may trabaho, with bachelor's degree, mabait, at marami pang iba. Seeing them in the road of success make me think, what if isa sa kanila ang hinayaan kong maging part ng buhay ko? Marahil may anak na kami at may sariling pamilya. But looking to these guys, yes, they already have kids with descent and nice jobs, but still, they are not married with their partner. At the end of reflecting, wala akong dapat pag sisihan. 🙂

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Hi Lord, good morning. Yes, it still a good morning. Kahapon, at the end of the retreat, I thought na alam ko na saan Mo ko tinatawag. Then suddenly this morning, I received this call for my MV application na hindi ako pwede mag proceed sa training dahil hindi ko na meet yung requirements. Okay lang Lord, medyo malungkot kase nag hahanap ako ng service and I thought through MV I can serve You. Okay lang Lord, Ikaw ang nakakaalam which service ako dapat mag serve Sayo. Thank you pa din Lord kase yesterday during the crossroads retreat it made me reflect on what should I do in life. What vocation do I have and I know it's not in single blessedness nor religious life. I surrender this to you Lord, thank you sa guidance and love. I love you Lord.😘

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Okay na ko sa buhay mag isa...kailangan ko ng masanay na ako na lang talaga to. Laban ko to at kakayanin ko. Kasama ko ang Diyos mawala man ang lahat sa buhay ko.

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Lord, lagi akong nag darasal na sana dumating na ang tamang lalaki na makakasama kong bubuo ng pamilya. Parati kong ipinagdarasal na gusto kong magkaroon ng sariling pamilya. Gusto kong maging successful sa trabaho, sa buhay. Gusto kong maging masaya...Lord lagi nalang yung gusto ko pero di ko alam kung ano ang gusto Mo. Hindi Kita tinanong ano nga ba ang gusto mo. Oo sinasabi ko sa dasal ko na kung ano ang nais Mo tatanggapin ko pero sa tuwing wala at hindi ko natatanggap ang gusto ko nag tatampo ako. Nag tatanong hanggang kelan ko ba hihingin ang mga bagay na dinarasal ko. Selfish ako Lord, hindi ko naisip na ikaw ang dapat manguna at hindi ako. Hindi ang gusto ko kundi ang gusto mo. Lord, I pray na bigyan Mo ako ng tiwala na ang nais Mo ay higit kesa sa nais ko. Na ang nais Mo ang manguna sa buhay ko. Ikaw Lord ang manguna, Ikaw Lord ang mag lead sa buhay ko. Kung anong bokasyon ang nakalaan sa akin Panginoon. Pero, Lord tanong ano nga ba talaga ang gusto Mo?

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Lord, lagi akong nag darasal na sana dumating na ang tamang lalaki na makakasama kong bubuo ng pamilya. Parati kong ipinagdarasal na gusto kong magkaroon ng sariling pamilya. Gusto kong maging successful sa trabaho, sa buhay. Gusto kong maging masaya...Lord lagi nalang yung gusto ko pero di ko alam kung ano ang gusto Mo. Hindi Kita tinanong ano nga ba ang gusto mo. Oo sinasabi ko sa dasal ko na kung ano ang nais Mo tatanggapin ko pero sa tuwing wala at hindi ko natatanggap ang gusto ko nag tatampo ako. Nag tatanong hanggang kelan ko ba hihingin ang mga bagay na dinarasal ko. Selfish ako Lord, hindi ko naisip na ikaw ang dapat manguna at hindi ako. Hindi ang gusto ko kundi ang gusto mo. Lord, I pray na bigyan Mo ako ng tiwala na ang nais Mo ay higit kesa sa nais ko. Na ang nais Mo ang manguna sa buhay ko. Ikaw Lord ang manguna, Ikaw Lord ang mag lead sa buhay ko. Kung anong bokasyon ang nakalaan sa akin Panginoon. Pero, Lord tanong ano nga ba talaga ang gusto Mo?

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01.07.24

Hi Lord,

It's Jam again, it's been a while since last time I wrote you a letter. Lord, now is the year 2024, and yeah, I know you know. Di ko pa din alam what is your plan for me. I've been praying for quite a while now, but there hasn't been an answer. At times, it makes me frustrated and impatient. Living alone with no one to talk to, carrying all the struggles, burdens, and even small success all by myself is kind of hard. Lord, I am grateful for all the blessing You've given me. But also I would like to ask for the thing that I am longing for. I am praying to you to have a family, a husband, and kids. A family that will praise and worship you. Lord, in your right timing, time when I am ready, ikaw Lord ang nakakaalam kung kelan. I trust and surrender to you this prayer. I am looking forward to the fulfilment of your will in my life. I trust you, in Jesus' name, I pray. Amen

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12/21/23 I had my surgery, though not too serious condition but the surgery took almost 2 hours and 1 hour in the recovery area. I processed all the papers before hand. After my stay in the recovery I settle the remaining bill after that I went off the hospital and bought all the prescribed medicine and went home. It make me feel proud of myself handling my struggle all by myself. Thank you Lord for the strenght.