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General Information

Full Name: Song Yewon. Nickname(s): Sunshine. Age: 25. Birthday: October 2nd, 1990. Ethnicity: Asian. Nationality: South Korean. Gender: Cisgender female. Pronoun(s): She/her. Romantic Orientation: Biromantic. Sexual Orientation: Bisexual. Birth Order: Only child. Home Town: Jeju-do, South Korea. Current Residence: Seoul, South Korea. Religion: Raised Christian, currently non-religious. Occupation: Main Vocalist for JEWEL, lyricist for TKO ENT., host of idol television show. Financial Status: Upper-middle.

Physical Traits

Body Build: Tall, slender. Skin: Light, clear. Hair: Currently dark brown hair cut just below shoulder blades with bangs. Fashion: She’s a pretty fashionable person, and has a style that’s in between casual and dressy depending on her schedule.  Most of her outfits are more neutral colors, but she’ll occasionally branch out.  Here is a lookbook based on her style. Notable Physical Traits: She has her ears pierced, and people often comment on her long legs and square jawline.

Mental and Physical

Overall Health: Well, but often exhausted. Life Philosophy: Hard work will be rewarded in the end. Life Goal: To become one of the nation’s most loved idols. Describe Voice: Light lyric soprano, has a vocal range of E3-B5, almost never strains. Speech Patterns: Speaks in a Seoul accent but slips into a Jeju dialect when very excited or with close friends, is very enthusiastic no matter what she’s talking about, usually speaks in a formal manner unless she is close to the other person. Habits: Working herself into exhaustion, skipping meals, forgetting to sleep. Daily Routines: Wake up, make breakfast, walk the dogs, go to work, work for longer than necessary, come home, walk the dogs, go to sleep, repeat. Likes: Dogs, vanilla-flavored coffee, candles, sunny afternoons, pianos, wine, ballads, love songs, working. Dislikes: Taking breaks, bugs, humidity, rainy days, sleeping for more than six hours, laziness. Motivations: Knowing that she won’t get anywhere by sitting around, wanting to make sure that TKO and JEWEL both have a positive image, making her mother and Rian proud. Hobbies: Singing, writing lyrics, hosting, working, playing with her dogs, hanging out with Rian. Skills: Amazing singer, charismatic personality, talented songwriter, easily adaptable. Vices: Working too much, drinking one too many glasses of wine on the weekend, skipping means. Fear(s): Losing everything she has worked for, JEWEL disbanding, Rian’s health deteriorating. Phobia(s), if applicable: N/A. Mental Illness(es): OCD, diagnosed at age fifteen. Other Illness(es): N/A. Physical Disability(ies): N/A. Other: N/A.

Relationships 

Parent(s): Yewon is very close with her mother and fully supports her financially.  Growing up, her mother was her main support system and she is the reason that the idol entered the industry in the first place.  If it wasn’t for her mother moving them to Seoul, she would have never become a professional singer. Siblings: N/A. Family: Her late maternal grandmother helped raise her until she passed away when Yewon was nine.  Her grandmother is responsible for the young woman’s work ethic, and still inspires her to work hard to this day. Notable Relationships: Her groupmate, Zhang Rian, is the closest thing she has to a sibling.  The two are practically attached at the hip, and have been since their debut with DIVAZ.  They live together by choice, and although work makes it difficult for them to be around each other, they cherish every moment spent together.  She is also very close with Kim Sunnie, who she views as a younger sister figure.  The two have been friends since meeting in 2007, and share many traits that make it easy for them to be around each other.  She is very protective of Sunnie and shows nothing but support for her. Friends: As she is a very friendly person and a generous sunbae, it is easy for Yewon to befriend people.  Some of her closest friends are Rian, Sunnie, Joowon, Sujeong, Minjung, and Bomi.  Rivals/Enemies: The only people that Yewon truly hates are the previous members of DIVAZ, with a main focus on their leader.  Their reckless actions almost cost her years of hard work and dedication, and she still has a difficult time keeping a pleasant face when they are brought up in conversation.  If possible, she would probably engage in a physical fight with them. Pets: She has two dogs, one named Macaron (who belongs to Rian), and another named Meringue.  They are like her children, and she will do anything in the world for them. Other: N/A.

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“I’ll just have to help you scrub them clean, then. We can make a day of it. Cleaning, dancing, singing; it’ll be a blast,” Yewon decided with a nod of her head.  She really did want to help her friend, and a silly lease wouldn’t get in the way of that.  It wasn’t very often that the pair had the opportunity to hang out, especially away from the company building, and the idol was dead-set on making sure they had time to spend together.   “It comes with the fame, I suppose.  I’d be lying if I said I wasn’t used to it.”  She knew by now that, no matter how successful she got, people would still associate her with a failed group.  Her name would always be tainted by DIVAZ, just like the company.  It was something that she had come to terms with years ago, but it was still difficult to deal with.  “TKO’s just trying to stay relevant, ride on the recent success.  It makes sense to debut groups while we have a positive image, and hopefully it’ll stay that way.  And, unfortunately, that means debuting people who aren’t quite ready for it yet.  Which means more work for you.”  It wasn’t necessarily fair for the PR team to have to deal with unruly rookies, but at the same time, she could understand the want to debut people earlier rather than later on.  While everyone was still wrapped up in the success of L:OVELESS, they wanted to spit out more groups with a positive image that would hold onto their name, rather than DIVAZ.  “Here’s hoping.  They’re a cute, talented group of girls, so I doubt they would fail, but they’re still girls -- it’ll be difficult to gain as much attention as ACT.6 did with their debut.”

“I’m afraid I can’t paint under this new lease… Or repaint. I think baking soda should work to get it off, I just haven’t had the chance to try it yet. I just keep covering it when someone comes by.” Minjung nodded, a humored smile on her face at her friend’s constant praise towards Leon. She thought that she was obnoxious with it, but considering Yewon didn’t see him nearly as much as she did, she felt a little better. Besides, praise towards him was praise towards her, in a way. He was her work, inside and out, and she was going to take what credit that she could, damn it. “People love to dwell on the negatives more than the positives. They’ll love you to death but they love ripping you apart even more.” Of course, she was sure that she was just preaching to the choir at this point. They both had been at this for about the same amount of time, with Yewon having actual experience in the spotlight as well– if she didn’t already have a grasp on this by now, Minjung would’ve been slightly worried. “I wouldn’t have to if people thought a little more– considering everything that’s happened, you’d think there’d be a little more effort to not debut complete firecrackers.” She only shrugged in response. There were a lot of questions that she had regarding the way that things were handled before her arrival to the company, but she held them to herself, unthought of for the most part. As easy as it was to think she was right at all times, she knew that was far from the case, and it was better to keep shut about what wasn’t her business. “Everything seems to be on the right track again regarding groups. Or fingers crossed, knock on wood– whatever it is. I don’t see them completely tanking.”

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it wasn’t easy to befriend all of the trainees at tko, but there were always a select few that stood out to yewon.  ones that sought her out, or were expected to debut soon, or were friends with other debuted idols.  it just so happens that haneul fit under each of those categories.  with the upcoming belles debut taking up a lot of company attention, the names of the confirmed members were growing more and more popular in the building.  it also helped that rian was rather close with the trainee, giving her a reason to really memorize the girl’s face.  and just right now, standing before her, was the very same face.

yewon wasn’t necessarily a private person, so she wasn’t surprised to find someone standing in the studio doorway.  she welcomed the vistor with a bright smile, nodding her head for her to speak.  the poor thing looked like a deer in headlights, but the idol waited patiently for her to find her voice. “hello! you don’t have to go anywhere, i’m not very busy.  is there something i could help you with?”

shy shy shy – syw&phn

AS a trainee haneul had many questions and whenever she meet a sunbae of hers the conversation either went awkward or her bombarding questions while being awkward. there were rare times, like when she was around rian, but most of the time she just wanted to ask for tips or help in one of her projects. it was probably annoying and she didn’t do it to everyone. (if she meet sunnie she would probably never even talk, the same went with kyungwoo, too many rumors had made the girl cautious and paranoid about them). but yewon was one of the few that haneul wouldn’t mind asking for help. and knowing the others reputation of writing over twenty five songs, she had to seek her out. that was what she had done and that was why she was there. with sweaty hands, and stiff shoulders in front of the other. wondering how she could possibly start a conversation without being too tense, overwhelming and needy. it didn’t help that yewon was probably one of her favorite celebrity and that she admired her deeply. yeah, that was definitely not helping right now. after hesitating two times she bowed down ninety degrees before saying, voice shaky and too soft. “h-hi sunbae.. are you busy?  i can leave.”

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maybe it had to do with the fact that the two of them had both experienced the industry at a young age (bomi with acting, yewon with training), but she felt a certain form of responsibility for the girl.  it was almost a maternal instinct, wanting to check up on her every chance she got and making sure she was well-fed and healthy.  she did her best to keep the younger smiling and happy, and gave out advice every time she felt it was necessary.  maybe she wasn’t the best sunbae in the world, but she tried, and when it came to bomi, she tried extra hard.

yewon broke out into a fit of giggles at the trainee’s cute attitude.  she had always been such a sucker for aegyo, and bomi was certainly a pro at it.  “i do like it.  maybe a little too much.  you know it’s my only weakness.”  she gave a light poke to the girl’s side, not bothering to hold back her laughter.  the mood that she had walked in on seemed to change completely, and she was glad that the kid was smiling again.

“which is exactly why i picked it!”  there were a lot of habits that the two shared, and skipping meals to work seemed to be one of them.  by treating her to some lunch, yewon not only made sure the younger ate, but also kept herself fed.  it was a win-win for the both of them.  “i’m glad i caught you before you started sweating from any dance practice.  i was worried you would smell,” she wrinkled her nose as she teased, pulling the younger out the door.

✘ up and down.

yewon was the kind of sunbae that everybody needed in their life. somebody who seemed to understand almost everything bomi was going through and usually knew exactly what to say and what to do. there was something about being with her that calmed her down. she was usually the first person she went to for advice because she went through it all. a sort of life mentor that was appreciated especially in this harsh industry.

upon hearing the elder’s words, bomi smiled even widely before purposely acting more cute, puffing up her cheeks as she leaned into the other’s embrace. “yeah, but it never hurts to act even more cute. i know you like it.” the last part of her sentence came out in an almost teasing manner as she looked up at the taller artist, beaming with a silly grin. it was as if her mood from a few moments ago had completely disappeared. but no, there was a portion of her heart that was still aching, but she knew she would have to get used to if. if she ever debuted, she would have to get better at hiding it anyway.

“ooohh you know how much i love jjajangmyun! that sounds great to me!” the female doesn’t remember the last time she’s actually eaten. this morning, all she had was a bagel. when it came to practicing, she never really noticed she was hungry anyway. “let’s go!”

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“what a buzzkill,” yewon slipped into a pout, disappointed that her only eyes on the outside refused to talk.  in every definition of the word, she was an utter workaholic.  being forced to take a day off, even if she knew it was for her own good, was a travesty for her.  she watched as the pups swarmed the new visitor, greeting him with enthusiasm.  at least she had someone to talk to, even if he wouldn’t spill about the going-ons of the company.  “thank you for caring, oppa, but i’m really fine.  my manager is just being overly cautious.”  still, she stood patiently as he felt her skin for any abnormal warmth.

even if she refused to admit that she was sick, it was nice to know that someone had gone out of their way to check up on her.  usually, she and rian just took care of one another when they felt under the weather, but with her best friend busy with work, she had wondered if anyone else would actually worry.  a small part of her was touched knowing that joowon went out of his way to make sure she was still alive.  she let out a quick laugh as the dogs yipped with excitement, turning back to her spot on the couch, “they’ve eaten and went out twice today.  they’re just acting needy because it’s been so long since you’ve come over.”

the idol couldn’t help but smile as she watched him prepare her food.  although he could be distant at times, joowon really was a great friend.  she couldn’t think of many people who would go out of their way like this for a friend.  “hopefully.  if i can, i want to go back to work as soon as possible.”  she let out a soft hum as her gaze shifted to the box left by the door, currently being sniffed by macaron and meringue, “alright, i’ll give that a shot.  thank you again for all of this.  you really didn’t have to, so it means a lot.  i’ll have to treat you to a meal when i’m better.”

“please don’t make me talk about work on my only free day of the week.”  joowon winces, slipping out of his shoes as he steps inside. “i was told that you were sick and alone, so i brought you porridge, and to check that you’re not dead. do you have a fever?” he reaches out, placing a hand over her forehead. there’s a brief pause from his side as he confirms that no, she doesn’t have a fever, and steps away to place the bag of porridge on the table. 

sick. both of them are, in their own ways. but what he’s sure is the cause of it is mutual. in the entertainment industry, most either succeed or die trying. still, he doesn’t make it obvious that he chose to spend his overdue day off with her instead of being alone like he prefers to. joowon crouches down, greeting her dogs with running his fingers through their fur. “you didn’t forget to feed them while you were sick, did you?” he asks as her dogs lap at his fingers, getting up slowly in an attempt to avoid accidentally pushing them off his lap.

“are you only taking today off?” he asks as he grabs the plastic bowl of abalone porridge and pouring it into a pot before setting it on the stove. “there’s a box of chinese herbal medicine by the door so take one after you eat, okay? make sure you finish the whole box, it was expensive.” 

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Yewon really didn’t know how her friend did it.  It was one thing to look after yourself, but a child as well?  And on your own?  She had nothing but the utmost respect for Minjung and her abilities.  Even if she herself was considered successful, it was nothing compared to the every day life of the other woman.  There was a big difference between hosting a scripted television show and doing everything possible to make sure another human being was healthy and taken care of.  “That just showcases his artistic abilities.  Maybe I can come over sometime next month and we can give the place a new paint job.”  Even if the promise to help wasn’t set in stone, she really did want to lend a hand.  As someone who could not stand taking a day off, it would be nice to hang out with Minjung and be productive when her schedule was empty.  The idol moved to set the gift aside, feeling just a little pleased with herself for being able to convince her.  “Please, Rian and I could find a way to cure cancer with our voices and people would still talk about DIVAZ.  But I am excited for our tenth year. If we don’t have a comeback by then, at least we’ll have some special stages.”  She appreciated that the other still supported her career, even if they had ended up in two very different places.  It was nice to know that her childhood friend was still around and that their dynamic hadn’t changed very much. It just showed that, through it all, the two of them never let their lives change who they were.  “Listen, most people think it’s your job to rip our heads off.  I might know the difference, but a lot of other people don’t.”  She nodded her head in agreement, pursing her lips slightly, “It’s something new that we haven’t done before.  I feel like a lot of people will enjoy the new image.  Plus, with you behind them, they’re sure to succeed.”

Minjung was more than appreciative of the support that she received from her friend, even if it only came once in a blue moon due to their schedules always clashing. It was one thing to prefer handling every responsibility on her own and preferring it that way, but when this responsibility was a living, breathing human being, a whole life to tend to and not fuck up in the process, she wasn’t sure how she’d managed to do it by herself for this long, with many more years to come. Any sort of kind words and actions that she’d get, she’d gladly take, even if it was as minor as one more toy that she didn’t have to pay for out of pocket. “The crayon marks all down the hallway says otherwise. But I’ll let him know it was a late birthday gift.” Accepting defeat, she wore a smile on her face and nodded towards the kitchen table for Yewon to set the gift at.“Ten years since your debut will be coming up next year. I imagine there’ll be something big for the two of you to celebrate it, maybe distract people tempted to bring up the other DIVAZ members in the same breath.” All simply an assumption, of course, but she didn’t see the issue with pure speculation as a curious supporter rather than a company official. “I never said I hadn’t talked to any of the boys,” she corrected, one finger raised in protest.  “I said that I haven’t decapitated anyone. There is in fact a difference, despite what other people may think.” It didn’t take very long for Minjung to earn her coldhearted reputation around the company, and she wasn’t going to fight it either– to an extent it wasn’t wrong, and if that was what would get people to listen to her, then perfect. “I think they’ll be good. But whether the public will be favorable to them or not is another story entirely. I’m afraid the chaos never passes on my end.”

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Maybe Yewon had been a little too excited to fill the role of ‘close friend who might as well be an aunt’, but when you grew up without any siblings around, it was difficult to blame her.  She had always adored children, and it bled into the way that she treated everyone younger than her.  Now that she had a small kid running around her life every once in a while, she couldn’t help herself when it came to buying him toys and clothing and snacks.  “He’s such a good kid, though!  You know he deserves the extra toys.”  Her prejudice had a lot to do with that opinion, but she was talking to the child’s mother, so she didn’t have any doubts that she would agree.  “Just make sure he knows it’s from me!  It can be an early birthday present or something if I really need a reason.”  She couldn’t help but laugh at her friend’s optimism.  There was always the nagging feeling in the pit of her stomach that maybe Minjung felt resentment toward her for actually reaching debut, but when they were hanging out like this, her mind was usually put at ease.  “I hope so.  I don’t mind letting the others have the spotlight for a while, they really did earn it, but I still miss promoting regularly. It’s just not the same doing the occasional special stage.”  With a small hum, she leaned her head back to rest on the couch, “That must be a new record!  I feel like you’re always having some kind of talk with the ACT.6 boys.  You know, I don’t think they’re as bad as everyone seems to think, but I guess you’d know better than me.”  Leaning her head to look at her friend, she smirked, “Let’s just hope that the new group isn’t too much of a handful.  I think you’ve dealt with enough chaos for one year.”

Minjung could understand Yewon’s desire to leave her gift. It was easy to want to spoil someone else’s kid rotten, but now that she was the one dealing with the toys making noise at every given hour or tripping over cars in the middle of the night, her perspective on that quickly changed. “His grandmother will get him more than enough Super Wings toys once she finds out. She’ll raid the factory for him. My apartment will become a Super Wings emporium until he moves on to the next big show.” The serious look on her face softened up as a half smirk crossed her lips, knowing that there was no convincing Yewon otherwise this time. “But if you insist, I can leave it for him to open tomorrow when I get off.” If all else failed, she could always hide the batteries if the nuisance got too much to bear. “Calm before the storm, it sounds like. Cherish that.” Minjung nodded in response. Maybe it was a bit hopeful, it was no secret that JEWEL tended to be put on the backburner more often these days, but everything happened with good reason and surely their proper return was somewhere in the horizon. “I’ve been decapitation free for about a week now. Pretty easy with only four kids in the spotlight for the time being. The trainees have been relatively easy to handle, girls and all. It’s been a lot of running around trying to secure shows for them to go on once they debut, but it’s a good kind of chaos.”

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The idol put on a pout that she hoped would be convincing enough, holding out the airplane doll to her friend.  “But didn’t you say he’s moving on from Pororo to Super Wings?  He needs a new toy to reflect his new interest,” she shook the toy a little as if to emphasize her words.  A small voice in the back of her head decided to leave the toy hidden somewhere in the apartment if Minjung didn’t crack. Yewon is almost certain that once she has a child, nobody will be able to stop her from spoiling them to death.  But she isn’t even close to having a kid of her own -- she doesn’t even have a partner yet --, so she just has to deal with spoiling her friend’s child instead.  It helps that Leon is the cutest little kid she knows.  Besides, she’s known Minjung longer than she’s known Rian, and that definitely counts for something.  Maybe their relationship wasn’t as linear, but it’s been almost, what, sixteen years since they met?  God, the pair were really getting old.  She watched as her friend buried herself in the couch, a small laugh forming at the sight.  She knew she should probably head home to get some rest as well, but catching up seemed much more interesting than sleep.  “Everything’s great, and I say that both as a person and an idol.  Things are a little slow, but the show is something steady that takes up my time.  I wouldn’t mind singing every now and then, but I really can’t complain.  How about you?  Rip off any heads recently?”

“Please, this boy does not need any more toys than he already has. Save your gifts, really. Send them off to a child who’s actually in need.” Minjung knew that her insistence would only fall upon deaf ears, but it wouldn’t stop her from trying, anyway. Turning away her friend’s kindness wasn’t her true intention, though there was still a part of her that felt a little low when in Yewon’s presence. Their journeys started out the same, yet ended completely different with Yewon as a star and Minjung as a mother, and it would be a lie for her to say that she wasn’t the tiniest bit bitter. She was able to put aside those feelings for the sake of rekindling a decade and a half old friendship, and truly, it was a relief to find such a comforting, familiar face at TKO. Leon being sound asleep left the two with the perfect opportunity to wind down and catch up after what felt like months of being out of touch. With a wistful sigh, Minjung leaned her head back against the couch cushions, eyes shut briefly as she attempted to gain a wink of rest after such a draining day. “What have you been up to lately? Everything good? I ask as a friend, not a rep.”

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her bright expression faltered slightly as the younger looked up with what seemed to be tears gathering in her eyes.  she was given only a second to worry before the trainee was springing to her feet with a smile that she was more than familiar with.  it hurt to catch just a glimpse of the stress that bomi was probably feeling, knowing all too well what it felt like to hide struggles with a smile.  but if the girl was anything like herself, she would appreciate it if yewon didn’t pull any attention to the brief moment of weakness that she had interrupted.

instead of letting her mind be plagued with fret, she simply extended an arm to wrap the younger in an embrace.  and if she gave a squeeze that was just a little too tight for a little too long, then it was merely coincidence.  “oh, don’t try to butter me up.  i’m already planning on treating you today, you don’t need to act extra cute.”

if anything, seeing the girl bounce back so quickly only made her feel worse.  how often did she feel this way, that she could so easily mask it by now?  the idol was just going to have to spoil her to make up for any negative feelings she might be having.  “i was thinking something simple like jjajangmyun.  what do you say?”

✘ up and down.

bomi wasn’t much of a crier. the only time she believed it was okay to cry was in front of a camera when it was part of her role. other than that, she never liked how she looked when she cried, and she just hated feeling so pathetic. hypocritical of herself because she would always encourage others to cry as a way to express themselves, but she was overly harsh on herself. she had always been harsh on herself.

she was on the verge of tears when she was interrupted by what sounded like a knock. slowly looking up, she couldn’t help but let a smile take over her face at the person she saw. “exactly the person i was looking forward to see.” upon hearing the elder’s words she made her way off the ground, dusting off her clothes from the dust and debris.

her eyes lit up at the sound of lunch. “lunch? hmm, what are we having today?” almost instinctively, she latched onto the taller figure, almost putting all her weight onto her. she was a clingy teenager, and yewon was probably aware of this already.

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✨ @tkojoowon

yewon was sick; sick of sitting around her apartment, that is.  so what if she had woken up with a sore throat and a slight fever?  she could still walk and talk, the only two requirements necessary for her schedule today.  give her a few pain killers and a bottle of water and she would be set.  there was absolutely no reason for her manager to have placed her under house arrest.  and yet, here she was, curled up on the coach in a pathetic ball of misery as she waited for the hours to tick by.

she might as well be watching paint dry at this rate, doomed to a new life of suffering that included only the comfort of her doughy cushion and the warmth of her dogs curled up by her side.  in the mere two hours since her manager had left, she already put together two of rian’s lego sets and re-watched an old episode of sunnie’s last drama, day and night.  was this what it felt like to be a coach potato?  how could anyone live such a horrible, dissatisfying life?

a single knock at the door was more than enough to make the singer spring up from her position, racing the two mutts as they yelped out in excitement.  she didn’t care who could possibly be visiting her right now.  all that mattered was the fact that someone was actually here, freeing her from the depressing cage that was boredom.  without a second to waste, she pulled open the front door with a grin already fixed on her features.  the momentary shock of just who was standing outside of her apartment faded as relief chose to take its place.  “oppa, it’s so good to see you!  please, come inside!  talk to me about work, i’m practically dying right now.”

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today was one of those weird, schedule-less days that left yewon feeling like she was floating in limbo. to make matters worse, rian did have something interesting going on, so it wasn’t like the two could spend the day together, filling their time with random activities. there was a reason why the woman always kept her schedule overflowing; without something to do, she felt utterly useless. desperate for something – anything – she decided that a walk was the best option.

it didn’t take long for her to wander her way toward the company buildings, a habit that she just couldn’t kick. even when she didn’t have to work, she subconsciously wanted to work. instead of taking a turn for the studios, she forced herself to trudge toward the trainee building. if she had to take a guess, she would assume that one of her very favorite trainees would be there right now, working just as hard as yewon wished she could.

just as she had expected, she found bomi not ten minutes later, slumped down on the practice room floor like a cute but somewhat pathetic fairy. a simple knock on the door announced her arrival, poking her head inside to flash a smile in the younger’s direction. “bomi,” she practically sang her words, “i’ve come to take you out to lunch. get off the floor before you catch any germs.”

✘ up and down.

this wasn’t a good day. perhaps bomi should have realized that as soon as she woke up in the morning with a ruthless cough and sore throat. the air conditioning in the vocal trainee dorm had been cranking all night long against her own will, and this was the consequence. she was never great with the cold, a curse that came along with her spring-like name, so having cold air blow out into her room all night was not ideal.

taking a sip of the hot, green tea she had made for herself, she slowly slid down the practice room wall, letting out a groan when she finally reached the floor. practice wasn’t going the way she would have liked, and she was just feeling awful. she dipped her head down between her knees, letting out one short yet loud scream. all she wanted was for her voice to come out like it always did and to be able to sing. to be able to practice. 

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“Well, you’re wasting precious energy by worrying about it.  You should focus on more important things, not about whether or not some teenage boys are going to act out.”  Her tone had lost its usual bubbliness, her words sounding a bit concerned.  There were moments when she felt like she really was Sunnie’s older sister, looking out for her in every aspect that she could.  She honestly only wanted the best for the girl, and that often involved trying to get her to be a little more accepting of others.  “Maybe they will mess up eventually, but for now, we should focus on our own work and do our best to make sure that we can survive even if something goes wrong.”

For the most part, Yewon didn’t mind her lack of promotions.  There was plenty more to do with her time.  She was a permanent host for a television show, not a feat that many idols could say they had. She worked on lyrics when she had nothing else to do, and if she was lucky, someone would be interested in using them.  Now and then, she would appear on stage for singing competition shows, either with or without Rian by her side.  Over all, she managed to stay in the spotlight while not technically being in the spotlight, so she couldn’t complain.  “Well, I appreciate that.  I won’t lie and say I like the fact that we don’t promote often, but I’m okay with it.  I’ve been around long enough to give someone else a chance to shine.”  She ended the sentence with a sweet, reassuring smile, not wanting the younger to worry about her.  The new distraction was very welcome, and she nodded her head as she waited for the song to play, “I’m all ears.”

“They’re still jackasses, they just haven’t gotten caught– yet.” Sunnie pointed a finger in Yewon’s direction, putting extra emphasis on the yet. Unlike her elder, she didn’t have a lot of faith in the group or their members, and refused to stay hopeful when all the signs were pointing otherwise. She might have only been a trainee when DIVAZ sued the company, but the entire incident stuck with her, as if she was a DIVA herself. Since then, the burden of pulling the company out of their ditch had basically been on her shoulders, and anyone or anything that attempted to get in the way of that was on her death list. “I’m not giving someone the benefit of the doubt when I know they’re going to fuck up anyway. Give it a year and they’re going to run this place into the ground.”

Yewon had a point, even if she didn’t want to admit it out loud. There was no denying that L:OVELESS had better sales and attention than JEWEL did as of late, but it still wasn’t fair– and Sunnie was never the kind of person to be all for fairness. The industry was cutthroat and they were competition, even if they also happened to be two of her biggest role models. “I’m not! I’m just saying. After everything you two have been through, you deserve a little more attention than what you get. You spend so much time working on these songs and don’t even get the chance to use them.” She shot Yewon one last look of sympathy before returning her attention to the computer, making a few clicks before looking back at Yewon. “Listen to this for me?”

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“now, you know it wouldn’t be fair for me to pick a favorite... but you are definitely a contender,” the elder teased, doing her absolute best to hide her smile.  how was she supposed to stay focused when her junior was acting so adorable?  it was truly unfair.  but even with threat of a cute dongsaeng, her work ethic was strong enough to withstand the feeble attempts of attack.  “aren’t you on a diet?  how would it look if your sunbae went out and spoiled you with ice cream when you were supposed to be eating rabbit food?”

❝ aren’t I your favorite?? ❞ she’s been laying it on a little thick, perhaps shamelessly as she could, just to get a little bit of the older womans attention. it’s not a secret that she adores the other and since she’s known for her particular brand of ridiculousness…well, lets just say she’s not afraid to show it. perhaps that’s obvious in the pouting she’s allowing to mar her otherwise beautiful features.     ❝ so let me skip out this one time and we can go get ice cream or something…don’t we deserve it? ❞ 

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  sunnyewon: to my dearest sunshine, i am so glad to have been given the chance to watch         you grow.  i still see you as my tiniest dongsaeng, following me around set all those             years ago. i’m immensely proud of the young woman you have grown to be, and                     hope that you never stop shining brightly.  i love you with all of my heart,                                         my precious baby.  xoxo  #happysunnieday

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