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Andrew and Neil for yah -> mainly because I reread that the foxhole court and I couldn’t stop myself from sketching my two faves. Especially because I’ve figured out how to properly use my digital sketch. As you can properly tell from comparing this one to the first Neil I did haha.

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my piece for AFTG “forget me not” zine i did some time ago~

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Unspoken

Andrew Minyard was not good with words.

Actually, scratch that. Andrew Minyard was very good with words. Cutting remarks and biting insults and sarcastic responses. He was very good at all of those. It was the simpler words he had problems with.

Words like love and relationship and trust.

“Hey,” Neil said, knocking Andrew’s shoulder with his own. They were on the roof, as they usually were this time of night. “What are you thinking?”

I’ll miss you when I graduate. I wish you could come with me. I don’t want to lose this.

Instead, Andrew took a long drag of his cigarette. Instead, Andrew shrugged too tight shoulders. Instead, Andrew wrapped a hand around the back of Neil’s neck and brought him in for a cigarette laced kiss. It was the only thing he knew how to say right now.

When he pulled back, Neil was grinning. “Is that what you were thinking?” Andrew shoved him back with a hand to his face and took another drag of his cigarette.

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“I don’t know how to say words.”

Bee raised a brow at him. “No? I’d say you have a gift with words, Andrew. I’ve never head someone describe things as succinctly and as to the point as you do.”

“That’s not what I mean.” Andrew shook his head. He didn’t even know how to say this to Bee. He sighed and rubbed his face. Played with the edge of an armband. Jiggled a leg. Bee watched him patiently, waiting for him to get his thoughts in order.

“I’m graduating soon.” Bee nodded. “Neil is not.” She nodded again. “I don’t know how to say words.”

“Ah,” Bee said, finally getting it. “You would like to express some things to Neil, but you don’t know how to put them into words. Is that it?”

Andrew gave a tight nod.

He tried to show the words physically. He could feel them, when they were alone, and it was dark, and they were tangled together in sheets with warm breaths and gentle hands. He tried to say so much in those moments, because he couldn’t say it out loud.

A kiss behind Neil’s ear. I want you. A finger lightly trailing a scar. You’re perfect. A hand on a jaw, foreheads touching, breaths mingling. I love you.

Was it enough?

“I’m worried,” Andrew told Bee. “For when I’m gone, and Neil is here. We’ll have to communicate via phone calls and skype and…” Bee waited patiently again. “I just want to be able to say it out loud when we’re not in the same place. I’m worried it’ll be different.” I’m worried he won’t want me anymore.

“Hmmm,” Bee nodded and made a note of something. “Well, there are a lot of other ways for you to say things to him. I think Neil probably knows that speaking your emotions and feelings out loud is not something you claim to be proficient in. And I think he would understand that, even when you’ve left PSU. But let’s talk about some ways you can express what you’re feeling without having to put it into words out loud.”

Keep reading

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“Help me,”

“Let me,”

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anyway i’ve been thinking about a ballet au

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what if

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🦊

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we’re taking over the world

finally finished this 8 months later /finger guns

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It’s over. You’re going to be okay. We’ve got you.

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here’s one of the many scenes from the books (specifically the king’s men) that i have planned

☕~ ko-fi

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Anyone else get whiplash reading forever fallen and going from wholesome family content to murder from one paragraph to the next?

What about when we had wholesome family content AND murder in the same! Scene! At the park!

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pride month is tomorrow so i wanna wish a happy pride to everyone in the closet—i love you, i know it’s hard, and believe me: you will get there someday

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this part killed me a little bit

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celebration prizes: alec lightwood for @theldestcurses

“Alec keeps sending me annoying photos. Lots of captions like ‘Wish you were here, except not really’.”

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Back to Palmetto. 

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I had so many thoughts about Malec in RSOM because I just finished it few days ago but now what I can thinking is only bat Max(´；//ω//；`)

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A quick messy drawing where Andrew has stolen Neil’s jacket. (Though tbh, Neil probably likes to see him wearing it.)