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so true

Since it's mid-august it's time for a reminder for the DIY folks or those who like to cosplay

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they should make a job application process that doesn't feel like a deep and fundamental rejection of your humanity or right to dignity and respect

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Non online people: I love Harry Potter! I use Chat GPT to write my emails ;) Come find me on X, I'll send you my ai-generated spotify playlist! I'm thinking about buying some cryptocurrencies, do you know which ones are good? Me taking 500 points of psychic damage trying not to turn into a unskippable cutscene: Haha, conversations are so fun.

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Reminder that you are loved

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hard lime difficult time indeed

When you thought it would be easy peasy lemon squeezy but it turns out to be difficult difficult lemon difficult.

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inkskinned’s posts always get me

everyone says you can always restart. that your future isn't forgotten, just sort of misplaced. they name actors and singers and authors who started at 46, 59. they cite chappell roan's 10 years. they tell you to push and push, that some day you'll open a door and the truth will be behind it.

but what if you aren't a celebrity in sheep's clothing. what if you're just a normal person. most people aren't exceptionally talented or else talent wouldn't be exceptional - right? what if you're just another median person; not ever startlingly bad nor terrifyingly good.

you put the shopping carts back and you walk your dog and you write poems on the internet. you have grown a plant or two; killed a few others. you did okay, overall, and you've been okay most of your life. not valedictorian, but you were a smart kid. you had some hard knocks, but you got up again. your life is just - average. you probably will never sing onstage at coachella. most of the time you are at peace with that - someone needs to drive the speed limit. life isn't about extraordinary circumstances, it's just about building a life you love and figuring out how to live in it.

but you would like to feel as if you'd found "the answer." everyone else seems to have some kind of talent they are born nesting in - and meanwhile you just exist. is that why you cycle through crafts and hobbies and activities like a roulette wheel? are you waiting for the moment where it turns out - all this time, you've been a visionary. a genius. all this time, you were special. even you: someone who has-never-been.

crawling up your throat: something bitter and savage. not quite a feeling of wasted potential. after all, you need to first have potential in order to waste it.

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thanks, i hate it

so it turns out that time actually does go by faster as you get older. just like how adults told me it would when i was younger. pisses me off