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Seriously, always believe in your own potential. You have so much power,talent and potential to reach the best you.

You will fail at a lot.

You will have to push yourself to limits you didn't realize you could endure.

Education is the biggest key to help unlock doors

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Hi.... I'm not the best with introductions but I figured it may be a great idea to really explain what the purpose of this whole blog really is.  Also, to remind myself of thoughts I had previously had.  This will give me the ability to store them somewhere, with the convivence of being able to readdress and expand on them at a better time and with more information.  

Too often, I find myself with a really exciting idea that makes me want to create something. Whether that be writing objectively in an experimental study, being able to express my self through written word and to work on my own personal writing abilities.   

In this technological age we live in, through social media to technology developing at warp speed,  information is literally flying all around us.  I often want to take all the information in to learn more but I feel that it has become very hard to really sifter through what is actually important and what is just plain old junk.  When it comes time to articulate this information,  I find that I understood the information but not in great detail to form statements with substance.  It’s not necessarily just to make conversation more effective but with more ease so I can get on to other things I want to do.   

In the past, I often felt I needed to always have someone around to make myself happy. I spent a lot of time believing I needed to be something I was not.  I spent so much time, picking at all the details of my social and physical self, I never mentally challenged myself.   I often found that I tried to take the easy path, trying to dodge anything too risky or challenging.  I watched myself throw fits and react emotionally to every situation. 

 In 2015, I met someone who really stopped me in my tracks and made question what exactly I was doing in my life.   With certain tools that were given to me by this person, unknowingly or knowing,  I began to challenge myself mentally in a way I have never done before.  But it wasn't a process that had a real clear ending. I started to find in my silence,  I could find me.  The true essence of me. Everything else around me was almost like a distraction that kept me from truly allowing me to know myself fully and completely. 

Discovering ABA also taught me a lot about human behavior and  what the fuctions of our interactions really mean.  Why we do what we do.  Sometimes there isnt always a clear answer, you can only go by measurements that are observable and one interactions and probes people and situations in the world.  I have found for me,  it tends to be easier to implement on others than applying it in your own life.  For me, I lacked emotional boundaries, suppressing my anger and frustrations and lacked a lot of important skills and information I needed to live a healthy and independent life.  It was always an easy crutch to blame your upbringing on the outcome of your life and I often found that I would place a shining light on others around me in my life because I enjoyed seeing them happy but it also took the focus off of myself.  I had many insecurities and doubts in myself that I didnt know exactly how to address, nor did I want to face my own harsh realities.  As you age though,  it becomes more apparent as you age and it gets harder to not look at the big gap of developmental progress you are making. 

WORK IN PROGRESS. TO BE CONTINUED.