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down with found family. UP with FOUND DIVORCE!!!!!!!!!!!!!

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You say Hesh dying to save Logan, and I raise you with Logan dying to save Hesh from Rorke, or Hesh having to kill Logan because the brainwashing is too far gone for him to be saved, and Hesh's last act of vengeance is killing Rorke 🥰

STOPPP I’ve been marinating a fic idea about Hesh and Logan both trying to take one another out but end up dying alongside each other in the process 😭

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I’m curious about smthn

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“No beta we die like Elias” oh okay so you’re gonna GUT ME!!!! 💔

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autistic folks when their routine gets disrupted, and they don't get alone time when they're supposed to get alone time

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Surprised I don’t have a “💀” anon yet given the whole… thing… with the Ghosts.

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ITS MY BIRTHDAYYY

(10/03 if anbyomes wondering cause ik katar womt get to this LMAOAOA)

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Happy birthday!!!

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God he’d literally be insufferable about it too. His worst kept secret that he somehow expects to be able to have a grand reveal for. Drama queen.

I think a "true evil" Fed! Logan would like to romance Keegan mostly because he enjoys the idea of a forbidden romance and then also the previously mentioned advantage that is "Having a little freak who will do whatever you ask." thing. But mostly the forbidden romance bit.

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Bros about to hit the dougie or something idk

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Thinking about Merrick being like a mentor type to Hesh post beach

Hesh would be the most insufferable person to be around. He’s depressed, irritable and angry as fuck, has rage episodes and just generally having the worst fucking time with his dad being dead, his brother missing and experiencing god knows what, and his country still being ran into the fucking ground, all at the hands of The Worst Guy Ever.

I think he’d butt heads with Merrick a lot for a while, the two both being quite hotheaded/reactive in general, but after allat…? Kick and Keegan have to diffuse many arguments and fights because Hesh is struggling not to fall off the deep end and with Merrick now being their commanding officer, he just isn’t taking any of the BS regardless. Hesh has to learn how to handle himself he decides, especially considering they may never get Logan back. That they still have a mission regardless of how anyone feels.

So Merrick sucks it up. He lets Hesh get away with some of those smartass remarks, tries to quell his own argumentative nature, cuts him some slack in the emotionally and psychologically fucked up department, etc etc. But that doesn’t mean he doesn’t try to redirect the younger man’s energy.

Hesh is ever observant, despite being so wound up and ready to pop at any moment if necessary, that he notices Merrick slowly easing up on him. So he asks why. Maybe Hesh mouths off to him one day, and instead of Merrick arguing back, raising his voice about learning a lesson in respect or needing an attitude adjustment, he lets it slide. Gives him that stern look, tells him to walk away, whatever.

Hesh is all confused because honestly, he knows he’s acting a fool. How could he not? Nobody expects him to be having an even remotely okay time, and he knows he’s always one slight inconvenience away from bursting everyone’s bubble.

So why is Merrick of all people letting him get away with some of this behavior all a sudden? Why is he responding so differently? It almost makes him more upset. Hesh is so pent up that arguing and fighting and going on missions to shoot people’s heads off just fuels his fire, the chaos almost feels comfortable because it matches how he feels inside. It’s a distraction from missing his people so bad that he can’t even breathe sometimes.

When Merrick explains, in his own stiff way, that he’s trying to help, that he knows the old man would hate to see his son like this, that he knows yelling back doesn’t help, won’t help them find Logan anymore than they’re already trying, it clicks a bit for Hesh.

If Merrick can reel it in a little, maybe he can. Maybe he doesn’t need to slam doors and raise his voice at people and cry himself to sleep most nights because Merricks there to talk, if he wants. He’s there to go to the shooting range with him and let him waste a dozen rounds when he’s upset, there to let him rant or get his emotions out, there to not replace Elias, but to give him that older male guidance that he lost.

Why? Cause Merrick knows exactly what it feels like to have everybody you care about torn out from under you.

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I think a "true evil" Fed! Logan would like to romance Keegan mostly because he enjoys the idea of a forbidden romance and then also the previously mentioned advantage that is "Having a little freak who will do whatever you ask." thing. But mostly the forbidden romance bit.

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wdym you're going to hold me at gunpoint? What's next you caress me at gunpoint?? kiss me at gunpoint???

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on a dark & stormy night, there was a creature . & you’re never going to beleive what it did next

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Love how the second Hesh goes “Dad!” Elias whips his head around. He’s speaking to these guys and IMMEDIATELY exits the convo to go check on his boys and then send them on a deadly mission. Father of the year.

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ANOTHER thing I realized: Mosley and Baker went to storage to try to survive the scuttling as GC detonated the station. Right as the countdown hit one (or just a smidge before) some FedOps opened the other door into storage, and then the explosion goes off, which then gets the two sucked into space… however, the detonation itself didn’t harm them! So I think their plan to survive might have worked if not for the FedOps opening the other door.

Of course they would have likely only survived the detonation and prolly not a fall into the atmosphere and then a landing, but if they had survived in storage and LEO maybe the US could have sent up a rescue shuttle for them.

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Also fun fact: One of the first animals launched into space by the US which also safely returned was named Baker. Probably where specialist Baker got their name!