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[tom-carstairs]

Dear Thomas,

I write to you from Paris. 

You have been here, haven’t you? Matthew told me so. 

They call this the city of love. I find that rather Ironic. For all the love in Paris makes me feel rather lonely. 

Did you feel the same way?

I have Matthew, so it’s not too difficult. I hope you too had a kindred spirit who made your stay in Paris bearable and memorable. 

I write to you wondering if you would do me a kindness. 

I do not wish to ask Christopher or Lucie about this and I am not in a position to ask for James’ assistance. So, I turn to you. 

Thomas. Will you please visit my home and check on Alastair? 

He has been taking care of my mother and when Alastair takes care of someone, he often forgets about himself. 

I wrote to him and he says everything is perfectly alright but I have a hard time trusting him. 

Not because he is untrustworthy, no. I trust my brother with my life. But Alastair has mastered the art of hiding his pain. 

Will you please check on him? Just so I know he is taking care of himself. It would mean the world to me if you would. 

I understand if you do not want to, Thomas. I completely understand. I know Alastair hasn’t been kind to you in the past. 

He once told me that people cannot grow if they are not willing to try. 

Alastair tries. Every day. 

Some days more than others, of course. 

He is growing. But I feel he needs someone to try with him. 

I am willing to be that person for as long as he will let me. But I am afraid Alastair needs more people around him - people who will try with him. 

Will you try with Alastair too? Will you, Thomas? 

You are well versed in growth after all. Please excuse me an ill attempt at comedy. It’s late in Paris and I am tired. 

If you do visit my brother and have anything to share, do write back to me. I have included the address of our current resident below. 

Thank you for reading this. Thank you for considering it - even if you decide not to follow through. 

I am not asking you this because you are kind. I do not wish to exploit your kindness. I am asking you because you are the least likely to be attacked by spears if you visit my brother.

Because despite what he thinks and says, I know Alastair wants kindness in his life. 

He sees you and what you bring to this world - just as I do. 

So, I hope you give him a chance - just as I did. 

Yours lovingly, 

Cordelia. 

For @youngreckless - happy birthday aashi 💖

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Dear Alec,

Your sister was complaining about the lack of colour and decor in my office. So, last week, I ordered some portraits and tapestries to brighten things up in here.

I hung most of them outside in the hall - so when people come inside the Inquisitor’s office, they are reminded of what we have been through and how much we have fought. 

I think nephilim as a race are often focused on the future - or prefer to live in the present. We overlook the past. Something I myself am quite guilty of. But I do not wish to do that anymore. 

When I look back at my past, there are many things I regret. One of the biggest is hurting the ones I love the most. 

And this includes you. 

I used to have a father who was embarrassed of me and thought less of me and wanted me to be different. 

I remember hating him and wondering how to make it stop. I remember loving him and wondering why that wasn’t enough. 

I need you to know that I never, ever wanted you to feel this way. 

I know you did - and for that I am sorry.

I cannot change the past. I can only hope for a better future.

In this future, I hope no part of you feels ashamed or guilty - because there is no part of me that isn’t proud of you. 

When Maryse was pregnant, we had a huge argument about what to name you. 

Maryse wanted a boy. I wanted a girl. 

But in the end, we decided it doesn’t matter. The sex. The name. None of it mattered. 

I promised Maryse that it doesn’t matter who you were because I was going to love you no matter what. 

Somewhere along the way, I broke my promise. 

I am sorry for that too.

I look at the man in the tapestry and I wonder how one of the greatest men to ever live is my son. 

You are my son. And I love you. 

I love you and I am proud of you. 

This letter isn’t an apology, Alec. It is a promise.

I promise that I will remind you of this love and pride as long as I live. 

I promise to make it right and do better. 

This promise I intend to keep. I swear by the angel. 

Please give my love and regards to Magnus and my little man. 

I hope to see you all in New York soon. But I cannot leave Idris right now. There is much tension here against downworlders and your Alliance. 

I keep fighting them. I keep fighting for you. 

I hope you keep fighting too, son.  Keep fighting for yourself and your future as you always have. 

Your courage gives me more strength than any rune or angel blood ever can. 

Love,

Dad.

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I hope you feel better <3 for the requests I will offer Alastair Carstairs but only if you are so inclined :) no pressure at all!!

thank you! i see you go for the soft underbelly.

I'd do anything for my baby boy.

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Modern day Alastair and Charles, from The Last Hours series by @cassandraclare 😊

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Pride Month is looking gay af.

Art credit to Tara Spruit.

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The Last Hours characters:

From the top, left to right:

Cordelia Carstairs, Lucie Herondale, Grace Blackthorn, Matthew Fairchild, James Herondale, Alastair Carstairs, Christopher Lightwood, and Thomas Lightwood

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I need Alastair's POV of his time in Paris with Thomas

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inspired by this post by @littlx-songbxrd

Afficher davantage

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What basically happened at the end of QOAAD

Tessa: we’re adopting.

Kit: oh that’s nice but I thought you were preg-

Jem: *slamming paperwork on the table* It’s you

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i think the saddest thing about alastairs story is that he’s like the worst possible combination of will and gideon. addict parent, abusive father, absent mother figure, being forced to push others away to protect loved ones, desperately trying to protect a younger sibling, all of those fit, not to mention all the trauma unique to his story

but alastair has never had a figure like charlotte and henry to take him in, never had a tessa or jem to stick by him even through his worst, he’s never had a sophie or cecily to help him through the guilt and remind him all he can do is move forward

he’s been through hell time and time again but unlike everyone we’ve ever seen in this series he’s been painfully alone the whole time

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(Chain of Iron spoiler)

At last! Sorry if this took so long to post.. I was undecided on the angle and perspective (and in the end obviously decided not to decide 😂) Enjoy!

Characters belong to @cassandraclare

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i’m sorry but the fact that alastair just went “do you wanna come to the louvre then” and thomas just went “all right” and they went is so hilarious to me

like maybe this is just me, cuz i need at least three days’ notice if my friends wanna do anything, but it almost just feels like:

alastair: hey you do wanna—

thomas: yes.

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low quality joshwood picnic by my covid second dose fried body at the suggestion of @anarmorofwords @foxglove-airmid

eugenia keeps undoing her elaborate hairstyles bc she likes when kamala plays with her hair and sophie doesn’t have the heart to be annoyed that her hard work is going to waste bc ✨young love✨

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F*cking finally!

No thoughts just Matthew as Howl

Tag list (Tell me if you want to be added or removed) @ohcoolnice @axoloteca @wraith-of-rroses @random-fandom-rambler @theshadowhunter

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I drew a quick drawing of Cordelia ❤️

(click closer for a better resolution)

Character belongs to @cassandraclare

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charles: let’s play two truths and a lie. i’ll go first. my eyes are blue, i want to be consul, and i had a secret relationship with alastair carstairs for two years.

matthew: pssh, you’re gonna have to try harder than that—

james: his eyes are green

matthew: what

james: his eyes are green

matthew: …

matthew: you WHAT—

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Matthew: if you don’t shut up, I swear to the angel, Alastair, I will ruin your happiness and—

Alastair: happiness? *turns to Cordelia* ... I’m happy?