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I hope that this tiny praying room will come to me as a one of my defenders in akhirah later. That i used to pray (re: mostly complain to God) about life etc. here. Though my complain is more than my prayer, i wish that it’ll save me from hellfire. O Rabb, on this holy jumuah, i ask you for your maghfiroh, i ask you for your love more than anything.

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Me and The Plan of (mine?)

When I was in school, I often heard advice that was related to the life timeline. Whether it has become a demand or how, teachers always ask about our plans in the future, both short term and long term. I know that we need to set plans to achieve our goals in the future. planning will help us achieve the goals we have set. and indeed it is not wrong if we prepare the plan in detail. i do have those kind of planning guys. but now i realized that ... beside always trying to achieve my goals with a really thick bundle of plans as a tool, i realized that I should obey God 's plan first.

The journey of my life up to now can be said not in accordance with the plans that I wrote during my childhood. so many things that made me down because my life is not going as i planned. I realized that all this time I felt I could do anything I wanted. the reality is not, i had so many limitations that i didn’t understand before. i was too naive so that i thought i could do anything i wanted.

I... didn’t understand God’s plan at that time. I didn’t understand that my life is in His hand. 

God has given us precious life, certainly not without purpose. So I believe that God gives way to each of His servants. we have a lot of roads that can be taken, but of course God will only show a good one and can be passed through. In other words, God will fully guide our step in this life. 

Whatever and however I am currently living, is the best according to God. therefore I will try to obey the plan that He has chosen for me. I will not curse myself just because my life is not in accordance with my plan. my plan is not His plan, so there is no reason for me to be sad because like I said earlier, God's plan must be good right?😊

Yogyakarta, January 10th, 2019