tomydarlinghee

[tomydarlinghee]

today, i came home from school and helped my dad with house chores.

as i watched him wash away the dirt, i thought about how everything requires effort in this life.

if you want something to be beautiful, effort must be put in.

i used to resent that, and maybe i still do.

but i think now i understand it’s the effort behind it that makes it so beautiful.

maybe if outcomes could be achieved with little effort, the beauty in it would lessen.

after all, that’s life — just us trying to do our best despite it all. just us pouring in effort time and time again.

and perhaps that’s what makes life so beautiful, that people try (despite).

[tomydarlinghee]

on days where i feel too much

or days where i feel nothing at all

in all pockets of time

you are with me

and my heart

that has cracks

love leaks out

but not to you

to a bottomless abyss instead

[tomydarlinghee]

my heart is so happy whenever i give love and i think i have to thank you for letting me have so much love to give, in all forms 🫂🤍

[tomydarlinghee]

my 1 january diary entry 📖 🍊

today i went out with my friend, we sat in a cafe and music was blasting from the radio, i thought of you. i thought of how you always appreciated all diverse types of musics and i’d always see you with your earpiece in :”)

my friend and i talked about men, and how different they were from us in the form of shallow friendships and casual spews. and i thought of how in a world of boys, you’re such a gentleman. about your gentle masculinity, your tender heart that sets you apart from the rest.

as i was walking home i witnessed a mother and daughter walking together under the rain, and in their love i saw you.

in everything lovely i see you. in everything i do, you are in my thoughts.

[tomydarlinghee]

my heart aches and spills all over with love for you

[tomydarlinghee]

my dearest you are so achingly beautiful

[tomydarlinghee]

everyday i am overwhelmed with love for heeseung, he is truly my saving grace because everytime i think love cannot get any better, he proves me wrong. he saves me from myself everyday with his little words, and i just adore him in all ways that he’s him. i love him so much, the scintillating glare in his eyes when he’s on stage, the tender soft stare at engenes, the way he loves so fully and wholly never half heartedly oh my i think i’m falling deeper everyday

[tomydarlinghee]

i love heeseung so dearly, he’s so precious to me he fills the void in my heart and love just spills all over the thought of him makes my heart ache ever so profoundly he is the unexplainable pain the enigmatic bliss i love him and his orange peel smiles his soothing voice his affluent wise words he’s just my darling dearest bambi boy ham prince and i’m so so so in love with him perhaps it’s ineffable, in a world tied together by envy and tinted by greed, he is my constant refuge that reminds me love is worth it. everytime.

[tomydarlinghee]

the difference between precious and important。

i think with you i realised what it means to really have someone so precious to you, instead of importance. at first glance, the two words seem to echo similar meanings, almost congruent that i can’t tell them apart in the dark. but now i think i finally understand — that something precious to you hurts you overtime.

i used to love with expectations, i wanted wanted and wanted for myself to benefit from this love. and i desperately tried to find comfort in every crook, every cranny of the soul of every boy i’ve loved before. sometimes i did, but it was always with scrutiny.

with you it’s just different — i only pray for your happiness. you’re not important to me in the way that i hang onto you for my own benefit. you’re precious to me in a way that i’d keep you in the safest crevice of my dark soul. and loving you hurts in some ways i never thought love could.

when someone is precious to you, every little thing hurts and that’s okay. it hurts because you’re in love. and when you’re head over heels — you fall in love with the pang of pain too, tugging at your heartstrings.

[tomydarlinghee]

he is so devastatingly handsome i literally felt my breath caught in my throat, he really can make a person so breathless my effortlessly gorgeous boy i love him a little too much (it’s unhealthy)

[tomydarlinghee]

never took love to be achingly beautiful until a deep pain swells in my chest everytime i look at you, i love you so dearly it sometimes hurts me

[tomydarlinghee]

when that one particular boy comes to mind everytime a taylor swift love song blasts in your earpiece…♡

[tomydarlinghee]

i simply adore him and his way with words so much 🥺🤍 he really meant it when he said he’s reading more books to convey his feelings to engenes better! heeseung always speaks so prettily, and this message truly made my week better :’) i’ve been having a hard time lately but to know there’s someone who’s silently rooting for me from afar (just as i am rooting for him), and who believes in my light (just as i finitely believe in his).

to my dearest bambi boy who’s soul shines brighter than the sun, i love you so dearly. (i once heard a story of a girl who swallowed the sun to shine brightly and perhaps it’s reminiscent of me and my desire to be bright. so thank you for akining my light to a golden hour it hurts less now)

[tomydarlinghee]

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this is a spam blog to spill my love for my favourite boy in this universe, lee heeseung 💌🤍

i hope you enjoy browsing, let’s keep this a safe space for all!

love always 🪻