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this blog is on undefinite hiatus. all asks currently in the inbox will be deleted, and the inbox will be closed. i'm sorry for the inconvnience.

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Been with my bf for two years and have always enjoyed our sex life but I always thought it had to be like. Intense and fast paced in order to be enjoyable but last night we gave each other super sleepy, lazy blowjobs and it was the hottest thing I’ve ever experienced. I never knew sex could be so tender and sweet

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I masturbate every day and it makes me feel disgusting.

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Often i wish i was a woman, and a lesbian.

I am a straight man, and i hate this.

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I constantly sext with strangers online for any sort of sexual gartification. Ive never had a positive sexual experience offline and i dont think i ever will because i almost feel like ruined my idea of a relationship by getting into weird """relationships""" where i expose myself to weirdos who ive never met in real life so they can do god knows what with the photos.

I read stories online and hear things from friends about how nice and fun sex can be but everytime ive had sex its either been terrible or just unsatisfying and I'm starting to think that everyone is lying or there's something wrong with me.

And then everytime i try get of these shitty dating or hookup apps i ALWAYS redownload them cause i just wanna be held and i feel disgusting. And because of all of this whenever someone shows genuine interest i just get fucking bored, cause i guess ive ruined sex in my brain so mucb that i cant get off without there being some fucked up online power dynamic.

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vent confession. tw assault, transphobia, homophobia- no graphic descriptions i'm a trans guy. i've apparently been visibly queer since i was like 5 and it was a problem my entire k-12 even tho i didn't even come out until college. one of the worst things was in middle school, how some of the girls would treat me in the locker room. the older girls thought it was okay to push me around, and i had to remind them all the time that i was small but fierce; if they hit me, i would find the strength to hit them back twice as hard. i fought every time they tried to grope me, too, acting like it was some kind of friendly gesture even after i told them repeatedly i didn't want to be touched that way, in those places. the girls my age copied them and added it to their existing bullying repertoire. they would humiliate me and try to hurt me when their words distracted me. at the time, i thought i handled it well because i was never "truly" sexually assaulted, but those times stuck with me. i remember the mean things they said to me still, the half second of fear when my husband approaches me from behind while i'm undressing to this day.. but nobody wants to believe a bunch of little cis girls would do that to someone, so i can't talk about it to anyone. i can't bear to have my pain minimized and laughed at again...

I normally respond to these in the tags, but this one resonated with me in a way I can't truly describe. Nonny, there are people out there who CAN and WILL believe you, people who, if they DON'T, deserve to be cut out of your file, no matter who they are. You really have gone through something awful, but what happened to you is not uncommon, and there is no doubt about it that there are people who will believe you. This isn't an urge to go out and tell everybody, because at the end of the day, it's your choice who to tell, but I do promise you there are people who've been through the same and if people believe them, they'll believe you too. Stay safe, and I hope you'll be okay.

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PSA: If you don't want the animal that you have, maybe go about giving it away to someone who does instead of going through a grotesque botched euthanization of it yourself.

Addendum to the rules.

Apparently I had forgotten and it wasn't exactly common sense that describing serious abuse/harm/death you've enacted on an animal is very against what we're doing here.

To be safe, I've included humans in the new rule just in case.

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Addendum to the rules.

Apparently I had forgotten and it wasn't exactly common sense that describing serious abuse/harm/death you've enacted on an animal is very against what we're doing here.

To be safe, I've included humans in the new rule just in case.

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I’m dreadful at keeping secrets but we’re throwing a surprise party for my girlfriends birthday! The secret is killing me I want to tell someone. She’s the love of my life and it’s gonna be huge. I’ve been scheming with her best friends and brothers

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Incest tw ig?

So, this is literally probably nothing but. Anyway. A few years ago my sister came up behind me and kissed me on the neck while I was cooking. This is whatever, but whenever I read stories where people do that and it's seen as inherently romantic/sexual it really takes me out of the story because for some reason my intrusive thoughts really latched on to my sister doing that. She also (much more recently) made a joke about going on a date with me? Which like. Whatever she changed the subject immediately after. But like. Idk. I wish she wouldn't do stuff like that. Especially since multiple people have thought we were dating in the past whenever we go out together (I guess we don't look similar enough for people to realize we're related.) Anyway. Literally none of this would really be an issue if I didn't have intrusive thoughts. Anyway. This was all bothering me and I just needed to talk about it somewhere.

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I want to body swap with thomas the tank engine i am so down bad for it

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There was an art account that made sexualized powerpuff-girl fan art and a post that had unintentionally racist phrasing, so I sent them via anon two messages that were like “hey that’s not cool” and the fan art is still up, but they changed the phrasing, and didn’t address either anons I sent and made it so their ask box is no longer anon. Like how much white fear do you have? I asked on anon because as BIPOC I am not in a position of power and am often shut down when I express someone has done a racist act. Now they’ve just shut off a bunch people who could call them out and hold them accountable for future mistakes

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Sometimes I wonder if it’s just me and the same 4 people sending you anons

Sometimes I wonder that too, nonny. ❤️

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gay transgender sex anon back for the last time ever. um. guy i wanted got obsessed with an alter of his fav fictional character and then obsessed so hard and treated everyone but that alter so poorly that it caused that alter to go into dormancy. so. um. this is going really awesome dude. on a lighter note i got the worlds best boyfriend ^_^ my boyfriend robin my sweetie pie i love him hes got the worlds fattest ass and hes so nice to me and i love him so much. so it is indeed going really awesome ^_^!!!!!!!!!!!!!

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The more friends I see turn 21 and start drinking the more concerned I get. I’ve already lost too many people or their happiness. I don’t want to lose any more friends

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This may be too nsfw but...

I have found I have a problem where I cum REALLY fast. Like, in under a minute fast. This hasn't been a huge problem because the person I'm with is aspec so sex isn't important to them, but it's kind of concerning to me. When I was a teen, I assumed I would get more stamina with age, but that hasn't happened. This isn't a huge issue but like... It's just a bit embarrassing over all.

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I can’t remember if I submitted this or not so, if I did I am sorry

If I had a nickel for every time I went to a party and I fell for a girl named Sarah, I’d have three nickels! Which isn’t a lot but it’s that it happened three times.

They were all named Sarah 😭 why are there so many lesbians in my town named Sarah

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