tooobservantbear

[tooobservantbear]

what is anger if not hate without direction

and all my anger is really the last piece of the person i used to be

[tooobservantbear]

i want to be able to relate to love

[tooobservantbear]

also can the little girl inside me finally grow up please? i cant handle her pain anymore

[tooobservantbear]

saw a wholesome child-parent interaction today. day ruined.

[tooobservantbear]

bruh fuck this shit my brain and serotonin are going no contact again

[tooobservantbear]

has anyone noticed that when you're drunk, the voices in your head get quieter and you can hear the music clearer or is it just me?

[tooobservantbear]

bro isnt it magnificent that we developed cameras so awesome that we can film bears in such clear pictures that we can feel as if we were next to them? bro i want to befriend a bear its important for my mental health

[tooobservantbear]

who. who am i supposed to call when my depression is acting up again. sure i have like one friend. but i wouldnt want to disrupt their maybe up to this point pleasant evening.

[tooobservantbear]

really hard looking in the mirror and seeing parts of your dead father...

[tooobservantbear]

it is not an evil thing to look at yourself with kindness. your life was never meant to be a punishment

[tooobservantbear]

i miss the part of my childhood when the concept of future didnt exist

[tooobservantbear]

not only did i kill the girl i used to be, but i miss her

[tooobservantbear]

ya know, my problem with spiritual and religious stuff is that i would never know if its the “good” power givin me an opportunity or the “bad” power tempting me...

[tooobservantbear]

i need a vacation from myself

[tooobservantbear]

okay so after 7 years of therapy and 2 years after my alcoholism phase, for the first time i’ve had emotions during therapy. and my therapist suggested, i should allow myself to have emotions. and i gotta say. not a fan.

[tooobservantbear]

other people are in happy relationships and i’m just tryin to survive...