I really am pathetic. I can't stop myself from pointlessly hurting myself. I'm too much of a coward to end it. I barely function as an adult or a member of society. She was right. She made the right choice. And I hope she can still have a happy life. I hope her new man is everything I wasn't. Because she despite the anger I drove myself to, she does deserve happiness.
Planting seeds in a garden I don't water then crying about a lack of plants is no way to live. I need to maintain and care as much as I say I do. I truly must change.