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I wonder what happened between Maritte and Silka after the gamemakers incident.. The fact that Maritte just killed that gamemaker without question? Making fun of Silka for chasing a dream of winning? Considering joining Maysilee and Haymitch?

I don‘t know this sort of talk and behaviour is very rebellious.

Before my reread I wondered if Silka might have actually killed Maritte for this behaviour, to prove to the capitol that she did not agree with her actions and she then cried under the tree from guilt.

But no. It was the squirrels. Silka had to watch Maritte die the same way Haymitch had to watch Ampert go. It was probably even worse for Silka. She was there for the start of it. And she‘d KNOW Maritte was targeted, the mutts ignoring Silka.

Maybe seeing that, she lost faith. Maybe, seeing that, her belief in the glory of the capitol was shaken. But she had to continue. If she didn‘t hunt Haymitch and Wellie like the good little career she was conditioned and bred to be… she could be next.

She finds their tree. But she doesn‘t try to find a way to force them out. She doesn‘t throw an axe at them. She just collapses. And cries.

And then Haymitch drops the chocolate. And she disappears in the morning. Was she considering not killing them? For just a moment? It could just be that she wanted to give them the chance to come down so she could kill them (like she ultimately did) but maybe… she needed a moment to clear her head, clear out the conflicting emotions. I think she was tired of the killing.

She finds her way back and Wellie lifts the darts and Silka‘s training kicks in.

Haymitch returns and shouts at her. And she is defensive about killing Wellie. „She was trying to kill me!“ The unspoken continuation here is „I wouldn‘t have done it if she hadn‘t threatened me.“

But Haymitch‘s eyes are filled with rage and horror, and she‘s holding the head of a helpless starving girl. So she reverts. To what she was trained for. What her mindset has been this entire time. It‘s easier. It‘s safer. It‘s familiar. She is going to win these games for the glory of the capitol. Like she always said she would.

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We saw very few glimpses of her but I kind of fell in love with Maritte.

Because yeah, she was a carreer. She's from District 4, of course she was. She stuck with careers and got her hands on a trident and killed with abandon. She didn't join the newcomers, never would have, never would have even considered it. She killed the newcomers, probably many of them. She went into the games to win, to go home, and she was playing like it. She was going to win.

But she knew who the real enemy was. She knew it, and she never forgot it.

The story is about implicit submission, and for the most part she submitted. She played the careers game. Worked the career angle. Played for the capitol and to the capitol the way a good little tribute should.

But she knew who the real enemy was. And when she saw those gamemakers and had that chance, when it mattered, she remembered who the real enemy was- and she didn't hesitate.

Maritte wielded that trident like air. Haymitch remarked on it. She could have killed him, if she wanted to in that moment. Or Maysilee. Or even Silka, if she'd wanted to. If she'd meant to hit Haymitch she would have. But she didn't. She saw the gamemakers, saw the capitol in them, remembered the real enemy. Remembered who put her there in the first place. Remembered who made her a murderer and decided to make that label one she could wear with some measure of pride instead of guilt.

She threw her trident and she didn't miss.

She probably guessed it wouldn't be televised. Guessed or knew, but she didn't care either way. It wasn't meant for rebellion so much as revenge, but either way it still felt better than killing other kids

And when the squirrels tore her apart, the punishment for her crime, one she must have known immediately was coming. A punishment she likely dreaded in the few hours of the rest of her life, I think she died with hatred in her heart and fear in her head, but she died knowing who the enemy really is.

Maritte knew the enemy.

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we got silka and panaches casting now we just need maritte

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Since being diagnosed with cancer my husband has become very willing to step into arguments at his workplace and elsewhere because “nobody wants to be seen yelling at the guy with brain cancer” and so far his success rate is shockingly high.

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there should be more options than suffering via employment and suffering via unemployment

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Sniffing the spiked bracelets someone gave me to tell if they're real leather with a coating or just plastic all the way through like a truffle hog for faggotry

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I mustn't

Lest I forget the lesson passed on by our forefathers

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“me time” and it’s just lay in bed reading fanfiction for hours

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i had a dream that phil proposed to dan during a sponsor segment of a video and then they joked about tax benefits. a lot of people were trying to interview them, trying to trick them into admitting if they were ironically or unironically engaged. dan would talk about how they invented love and then in the same sentence emphasize that they are coworkers. we were busy trying to find non-blurry photos of the ring. also they were both wearing dresses the whole time.

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dragon city spon is worth it for the slumber party vibes of it all

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“me when i lie” is the funniest way to call someone a liar the internet has cooked up thus far

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idk what it says about me or them that this was the first thing that came to my mind

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one time my mom and i were talking about autism and she said if i got it from anyone i got it from my dad, a man who has been buying and sorting pokemon cards for several months straight and likes to memorize license plates and then quiz my mom on them. and then she remembered that my father is not actually biologically related to me (#childofdivorce) and lost her shit laughing. i got that proxy autism

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