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Bill holding the ladder for Johnny when he first puts up the flag at Jalo and very clearly just staring up at his arse.

I've been like absently compiling a list of the top ten homoerotic moments in SAS RH, and it has got a little out of hand. Thus far, main candidates:

Eoin's frankly pornographic introductory shot

Jock/Pat cigarette (sluttiest moment of season 2??)

The Eoin/Paddy tent scene bcos please that long exhale that Eoin does? R rated

The cut from Bill Fraser's slack-jawed stare to Jock McDiarmid doing a shirtless flex lmfao

The shower scene. fellas is it gay to tell your best mate that his mate has had a hideous parachuting accident while he showers naked in the desert? is it gay to let your gaze drag for just a second too long over his--

Jim/Pat hug at the start of season 2 (it's giving wholesome slutty)

Bill Stirling unbuttoning his shirt only to reveal a cross lmfao

Johnny and Bill helplessly checking out Jim's enormous biceps in the middle of a mission

Bill Stirling vs Paddy in prison (you know there's an x-rated cut of this somewhere)

And honestly cinematic scene of all time: Paddy and Augustin Jordan openly fucking wrestling in the desert

Honourable mentions: Bill Fraser and Paddy's church spat; the chess scene; Mike Sadler + everyone; whatever AGB and Bill Stirling had going on

Please reblog with additions because I know there are like six thousand more

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Again The time where RL Paddy Mayne hurt me even more than the series did

For me one of the best the most painful and the GAYEST scene in SAS rouge heroes was when David told Paddy

" You need to forget about Eoin Mcgonigal"

That Knife David pulled obviously cut Paddy deep, so hurt he couldn't hide his shaky voice.

But in Real life (Based on Book by Ben Macintyre)

That situation was even more deeper, to men open up about their true feelings

I will let yall read it by yourself

Ahhhhhhhhhhh

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What Sorrow This - Chapter Nine

“I want us to talk,” Paddy tells him, looking Eoin in the eye. “Maybe when we get to Cairo, it will be a good time.”

“Yes,” Eoin says, still stunned. “Cairo. Cairo would be a good time.”

Read Chapter Nine on AO3.

(I'm off for a long weekend in Athens, so Chapter Ten when I get back!)

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It's my birthday today and I got this book about Eoin and Ambrose, which I've wanted for ages. I've only read about 10 pages so far and I already feel like I've learnt SO MUCH.

McGonigal brothers fic incoming, basically.

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What Sorrow This - Chapter Eight

“Oh my god, it's Paddy,” Johnny shouts, banging on the side of the jeep in his delight.

“Mate,” Reg says, looking at Eoin. He blinks hard. Then, as if anything else would be too much right now, says, “Mate,” again.

In which there are reunions and everyone really thinks Eoin has earnt a nap.

Read Chapter Eight on AO3

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I am deep in my Bill Fraser feelings and:

1) I'm miffed that there doesn't seem to be a biography of him out there, like there is of everyone else.

2) Learning about what happened to him AFTER the war, we need to write a fix it. Eoin would never let any of this stand.

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Me, writing: have I said "Eoin smiled" too often.

Eoin's 2.25 episodes of smiles: No, not enough actually.

SAS ROGUE HEROES | eoin + smiling

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What Sorrow This - Chapter Seven

“Will you sing us something?” Augustine asks. “I promise we will enjoy your Percy French. His name, at least, is promising.”

“No,” says Eoin. “I'm not fucking Vera Lynn, here to entertain the troops.”

“We wish,” Reg says. Then frowns when Dave laughs at him. “What? She's pretty.”

In which the Free French arrive and... another development occurs.

Read Chapter 7 on AO3.

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" YOU.... "

Have you ever heard deeper, yearner , shakier "YOU" than this? Cause im not...

Like man it's taken whole heart and soul for Eoin to say this word alone while holding back tears

The worst part is THIS all happened in Paddy's head

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Happy pride month to insane bisexuals ❤️

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To add, there need to be some days with zero (0) Event per day in between. One (1) Event per day for too many days in a row and I am Also Stressed.

i can handle one (1) Event™ per day. whether it be a phone call, an appointment, trip to the grocery store, play date with a friend, etc. only one, that's it. any more than that and i am Stressed

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What Sorrow This - Chapter Six

“You’re wearing an SAS uniform,” says the man.

“Because I am in the SAS,” Eoin agrees, cautiously. “I didn’t realise we were that well known, yet.”

The man smiles. “Perhaps not yet, but you see, I invented the SAS and that uniform, so they’re as familiar to me as my own hands.”

In which it turns out that Eoin is catnip to spies.

Read Chapter Six on AO3.

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The BBC: carefully implying that Paddy is gay but not too much.

Paddy Mayne: wandering around doing the Greatest Generation version of flagging.

Recently discovered that in the 1940s, it was common for gay men to wear a signet ring on their little finger as a way of flagging their sexuality.

Catch me not going insane about this.

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I was gonna gif this scene, but Paddy’s shaky breaths trying so hard not to cry can’t be captured in gif form 😢

SAS Rogue Heroes: S01, E05

| “Whatever is the cause of your pain, you have my deepest sympathy.”

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Last night as I was falling asleep, I told myself the story of AFAB Eoin who is already married to Paddy, and who dresses up as a man in order to join the SAS.

Except, crucially, the more time Eoin spends as a man, the more he realises that actually maybe he just is a man.

Which explains a lot for Paddy, who has literally never been attracted to a woman, except for his wife.

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What Sorrow This - Chapter 5

Stirling looks at his watch and says, “Where's Lewes and Fraser?”

“They're not back yet,” Eoin says, trying not to let any worry creep in.

Lewes's and Bill's teams travelled out together and they're meant to be coming back together, too. They're not late late, but they're definitely passed due.

It occurs to him, which he should have thought of before, that he cannot lose Bill to the desert. He wouldn’t want to at any time, but if the universe is determined to keep making him wait and wait for Paddy, then he needs Bill by his side.

Read Chapter 5 on AO3.