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Happy Lover’s Day Taylor!!! I have been waiting for this album and it is hands down my absolute favorite of yours 😭🥰 me and the baby bump are so happy to share this special release day listening to the most intimate and warm album you’ve ever created. I’m currently 23 weeks pregnant and this may be your youngest Swiftie 😳 he’s the love of my life already and I can’t wait to play this album while I’m in labor and tell him bedtime stories of the 5 holes in the fence 😂😂 I love you so much Taylor and I am so proud to bring a child into this world with amazing people like you to look up to 💕

@taylorswift

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CAN WE TALK ABOUT HOW WE COULD POSSIBLY HEAR THIS SONG ACOUSTIC REAL SOON LIKE HEHSJSNWJ

My heart can’t HANDLE JT

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Look at you! You’re living perfectly fine without the person you thought you needed.

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This is as close as I’ll ever get to Taylor!!! But I’m so glad i got to see her tonight it made my dreams come true 💓😍😭

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TRIGGER WARNING ⚠️ ‼️

Taylor,

I attended your show on October 31st, 2015 in Tampa, Florida. It was by far the most amazing night of my life but before I had the most magical night with you, I had the worst night of my life. I was raped by my cousin in a hotel we were staying at since we travelled up to see you. I have been haunted and traumatized and I was so overwhelmed but I fought to still make it through the day and come see you. I didn’t press charges. I wanted the night to go away. But then you had your sexual assault case. And you won for us Taylor. You fought and you won for me and from the bottom of my heart I owe you my life. You inspired me to report me my sexual assault case and now I get to come see you August 14 (one year from your sexual assault case) in Tampa again 💓I hope I get to hug you and tell you in person what you’ve done for me but if not, I’m happy to at least get to sing and dance with you in the crowd 💜 thank you for always being there for me and helping me feel clean.

@taylorswift

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TRIGGER WARNING ⚠️ ‼️

Taylor,

I attended your show on October 31st, 2015 in Tampa, Florida. It was by far the most amazing night of my life but before I had the most magical night with you, I had the worst night of my life. I was raped by my cousin in a hotel we were staying at since we travelled up to see you. I have been haunted and traumatized and I was so overwhelmed but I fought to still make it through the day and come see you. I didn’t press charges. I wanted the night to go away. But then you had your sexual assault case. And you won for us Taylor. You fought and you won for me and from the bottom of my heart I owe you my life. You inspired me to report me my sexual assault case and now I get to come see you August 14 (one year from your sexual assault case) in Tampa again 💓I hope I get to hug you and tell you in person what you’ve done for me but if not, I’m happy to at least get to sing and dance with you in the crowd 💜 thank you for always being there for me and helping me feel clean.

@taylorswift

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please read 💜

TRIGGER WARNING ⚠️ ‼️

Taylor,

I attended your show on October 31st, 2015 in Tampa, Florida. It was by far the most amazing night of my life but before I had the most magical night with you, I had the worst night of my life. I was raped by my cousin in a hotel we were staying at since we travelled up to see you. I have been haunted and traumatized and I was so overwhelmed but I fought to still make it through the day and come see you. I didn’t press charges. I wanted the night to go away. But then you had your sexual assault case. And you won for us Taylor. You fought and you won for me and from the bottom of my heart I owe you my life. You inspired me to report me my sexual assault case and now I get to come see you August 14 (one year from your sexual assault case) in Tampa again 💓I hope I get to hug you and tell you in person what you’ve done for me but if not, I’m happy to at least get to sing and dance with you in the crowd 💜 thank you for always being there for me and helping me feel clean.

@taylorswift

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please read 💜

TRIGGER WARNING ⚠️ ‼️

Taylor,

I attended your show on October 31st, 2015 in Tampa, Florida. It was by far the most amazing night of my life but before I had the most magical night with you, I had the worst night of my life. I was raped by my cousin in a hotel we were staying at since we travelled up to see you. I have been haunted and traumatized and I was so overwhelmed but I fought to still make it through the day and come see you. I didn’t press charges. I wanted the night to go away. But then you had your sexual assault case. And you won for us Taylor. You fought and you won for me and from the bottom of my heart I owe you my life. You inspired me to report me my sexual assault case and now I get to come see you August 14 (one year from your sexual assault case) in Tampa again 💓I hope I get to hug you and tell you in person what you’ve done for me but if not, I’m happy to at least get to sing and dance with you in the crowd 💜 thank you for always being there for me and helping me feel clean.

@taylorswift

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please read 💜

TRIGGER WARNING ⚠️ ‼️

Taylor,

I attended your show on October 31st, 2015 in Tampa, Florida. It was by far the most amazing night of my life but before I had the most magical night with you, I had the worst night of my life. I was raped by my cousin in a hotel we were staying at since we travelled up to see you. I have been haunted and traumatized and I was so overwhelmed but I fought to still make it through the day and come see you. I didn’t press charges. I wanted the night to go away. But then you had your sexual assault case. And you won for us Taylor. You fought and you won for me and from the bottom of my heart I owe you my life. You inspired me to report me my sexual assault case and now I get to come see you August 14 (one year from your sexual assault case) in Tampa again 💓I hope I get to hug you and tell you in person what you’ve done for me but if not, I’m happy to at least get to sing and dance with you in the crowd 💜 thank you for always being there for me and helping me feel clean.

@taylorswift

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please read 💜

TRIGGER WARNING ⚠️ ‼️

Taylor,

I attended your show on October 31st, 2015 in Tampa, Florida. It was by far the most amazing night of my life but before I had the most magical night with you, I had the worst night of my life. I was raped by my cousin in a hotel we were staying at since we travelled up to see you. I have been haunted and traumatized and I was so overwhelmed but I fought to still make it through the day and come see you. I didn’t press charges. I wanted the night to go away. But then you had your sexual assault case. And you won for us Taylor. You fought and you won for me and from the bottom of my heart I owe you my life. You inspired me to report me my sexual assault case and now I get to come see you August 14 (one year from your sexual assault case) in Tampa again 💓I hope I get to hug you and tell you in person what you’ve done for me but if not, I’m happy to at least get to sing and dance with you in the crowd 💜 thank you for always being there for me and helping me feel clean.

@taylorswift

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please read 💜

TRIGGER WARNING ⚠️ ‼️

Taylor,

I attended your show on October 31st, 2015 in Tampa, Florida. It was by far the most amazing night of my life but before I had the most magical night with you, I had the worst night of my life. I was raped by my cousin in a hotel we were staying at since we travelled up to see you. I have been haunted and traumatized and I was so overwhelmed but I fought to still make it through the day and come see you. I didn’t press charges. I wanted the night to go away. But then you had your sexual assault case. And you won for us Taylor. You fought and you won for me and from the bottom of my heart I owe you my life. You inspired me to report me my sexual assault case and now I get to come see you August 14 (one year from your sexual assault case) in Tampa again 💓I hope I get to hug you and tell you in person what you’ve done for me but if not, I’m happy to at least get to sing and dance with you in the crowd 💜 thank you for always being there for me and helping me feel clean.

@taylorswift

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*gets distracted psychoanalyzing myself*

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a weird thing about having developed mental illness at such a young age is i honestly don’t know sometimes how much of me is a symptom and how much is down to personality, like i honestly do not know my core self and it troubles me A Lot

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“Piece by piece, you stole me away and I didnt mind until you left and I had nothing. Not even myself.”

— 11.27.15

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It bothers me to see Freyja declawed.

Seriously bothers me. 

A lot!

Okay so… there are a lot of different neopagan and heavily christianized influences in modern international heathenry. These influences actually litter the greater heathen community to such a degree that there are a lot of little things that annoy me, but there are some things that just plain anger me to no end. 

One of these things is the declawing of Freyja. 

What I mean by that is that Freyja is often described primarily as a goddess of love and beauty and many of the images and icons created by and for heathens depict her as this gorgeous woman in a supple, soft, even gentle pose. 

I’ve even seen a statue of Freyja that looks a lot like a virgin mary statue with a fresh coat of paint. 

Freyja is associated with cats and cats are elegant and beautiful and soft little murder machines and this association is spot on. 

Freyja is described as incredibly beautiful, yes, but also as incredibly powerful (magic wise, and incredibly violent.  She is the leader of the valkyries, which aren’t just “sheild maidens” or women i fantasy-rpg-style armor cheering on the sidelines.  They choose who lives and who dies. They choose where you go when you die.  And they ride point into battle and Revel in the sheer bloodlust and carnage. 

If it was raining blood from the heavens, Freyja would dance and sing in the rain. 

This aspect of her is important. 

It’s an equal measure of everything she is. 

Beauty, power, wisdom, and fucking bloodlust. 

When we speak of her as a goddess of love it feels disingenuine.  She’s more to do with the raw, the carnal, lust.  She’s not found in a cute and harmless flirt with that cute person. She’s found in fingers reaching, grabbing, hot breath, wordless sounds of pleasure, two hearts beating hot, hard, and in tune with one another.  She has less to do with a kiss on a cheek, and more to do with an orgasm. 

But this too, this hunger is lost as her active role is downplayed, her sword and spear taken from her hand, her sensible armor and cloak of hawk’s feathers with which she can literally fly into battle, her battle chariot, her wild boar, everything stripped away from the fierce and proud goddess, and she’s declawed, and turned into something soft and sweet and gentle. 

It frustrates me to see her declawed and turned into a synonym for the virgin mother.  It angers me to see the female fury of my ancestors turned into a polite, christian, crush. 

And most of all, it angers me to see heathens use this watered down, declawed, christianized version, to explain how women should be. 

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Freyja + art

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“‘Be a Goddess among men,’ they told her. 'No,’ she smiled. 'I’ll be a Queen among Gods.’”

— freyja; goddess of beauty, sex, fertility, and war, death and sorcery.