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reblog this and put in the tags something you watched that terrified you as a child. i was so scared of the hot sauce in spongebob that i refused to be in the room when it was on

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~Happy Yuri Day~

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My body.....feels different....

It feels.....used.....

No longer lonely and yearning.....

Her touch lingers on my skin.....The goosebumps I still feel, on every area that was blessed by her.....The remnants of my pleasure slowly being washed away....

I look at myself, as I sit in the bath, my heart still racing.....My mind is clouded by warmth and fog....Still catching up to the present, replaying memories of what happened over and over.....The feelings, the sensations, I'd felt all over......I don't wanna come down from this high.....

I'd always wondered what it was like, but I never sought it out. I'd thought I could live without it....That it was a luxury someone like me didn't need. But, it actually happened to me......and by a being so beautiful, powerful, and perfect as her....

To think, there was a time I'd thought she'd always be out of my reach, and that merely serving her was enough.....I don't know what happened. I don't know exactly what I did that made her look at me that way.....Everything fell into place so perfectly, and I'm none the wiser as to why.....Why did I earn this......?

I exhale loudly as I lean back, letting my body soak in the water. My dough is still flushed and sweaty....I'm so exhausted, yet.....so, so happy......I can't believe it.....I'm happy.....yet, there's a lingering worry over what will follow. Now that I've experienced such a thing, I don't know if I'll be able to act the same as before......She took something from me, that I'll never get back....Was this only a one-time thing.....? It if is, I should cherish it.....but, what if I start longing for more....? Ugh....I've become so greedy.....

I close my eyes, and see her face......the way she looked at me, as she'd pinned me down.....She really has a way of making me feel helpless, yet safe at the same time....Her power seeped through her, even in her gentlest touches.....yet, I never felt any danger. Is that how it always feels....? Is that a normal part of the experience.....? Or.....is that because she's a god.....?

I'd let my mind go blank.....I remember everything feeling fuzzy.....I remember I couldn't speak.....I remember her voice, guiding me.....I remember a wave of overwhelming warmth pulse through me, and everything going white....I'd felt so weak, and she'd praised me for it....It's so wild to think about....Me, being praised for not thinking.....

If that will happen again, will I be able to prepare for it....? Is that something that can be gotten used to....or, will it always feel like a blur......? I wanna hold on to every detail.....every small blessing....

I look over my body, as I slowly start to wash myself. As I do, it starts to come back to me.....the way her warm hands had expertly explored me.....

My neck.....my shoulders....my breasts.....my belly......my thighs....my....

My face flushes as I remember every single step.....

Gentle, yet powerful.....Just firm enough to let me know that power.....

Oh, cheeses.....!

When I see her next.....will I even be able to look her in the eye....? I know she wants me to, so....I'll have to try.....

I don't know what awaits me next, when it comes to her and I.....How much will be the same.....? How much....will change.....?

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I like being reminded of all the ways I matter.....

Not just in the amount of work I do, but in all the little moments, as well......Little moments that mean so much.....Just being able to be a good girl in more ways that traditional work....

My strength lies in my loyalty. That's how I matter....

When I surprise my Queen with a meal I made for her while she was working, and I see her pretty eyes light up.....

When she summons me to her throne, simply wanting to have me at her side for no reason than to hold me.....

When I get into an accident and receive even just the smallest cut, and she scolds me and keeps me in my room afterward so that I can't be stupid for a while....

When I present her with a gift, and she accepts it with a comment on how she sees "two treasures" before her....Before beckoning me to her once more.....

When she allows me to cling to her when I'm feeling down, feeling no shame in carrying me to my room....

When she suddenly steals a kiss or two from me when simply passing by me in the hall....Or when she purposefully brushes against me in a way that makes me needier by the time we meet next....

When she lets me pick stuff off her wings when she's idling....

When she hears about me having a disagreement with Smoked Cheese and comes to check on me to make sure what he said didn't hurt me....

When she congratulates me on standing up to him, and tells me she's so, so proud of me....

When she'll invite me into her chambers for the night, with that glint in her eye that makes my heart race....

When she compliments my body as I expose all of myself to her, with a smirk on her face that lets me know she's about to reward me for my worship.....

When she looks at me with a greediness that rivals my own, as I'm pinned beneath her....

When she urges me to give her more and more and more, as she touches, caresses, and uses me for her own.....As I cry and whimper for her, she tells me to be louder, as if it's my voice that fuels her greed.....

When she kisses and marks my dough as if it's her who craves me....

When I see the way she looks at me after we've both achieved our afterglow, and she brings me back into her arms.....Covering me with her wings....That satisfied, affectionate look in her eyes, and a smile much more soft than the one she usually wears.....

Little moments that let me know my feelings for her are reciprocated, despite what my mind wants to let me believe.....I am worthy, and I am loved by her....

I'm her treasure.....and she loves me....

I do matter.

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WAIT, IT'S YURI DAY?

THERE'S A YURI DAY?

D-dang it, I find this out when I'm about to do something-

I-I'll be back later with a post for the occasion! Either a drabble (if I can think of one on short notice) or a Picrew! I-I'm already in a good mood from the Golden Cheese letter on Twitter earlier, so I think I can whip something up! ^///////^

B-before that, uh.....h-happy yuri day, fellow sapphics! <3

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I-it's days like these that I'm happy I check the CRK Twitter account......

.....thdhjdrhyjdryh >////////<

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"Did you know people are masturbating to your smut fics-- 🤢" I hope they get twice as wet as I did writing it, mind your fucking business.

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White Lily Cookie animations. 2/2

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White lily Cookie animations. 1/2

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At least the Helluva Boss criticdom/hatedom isn't the only one who will treat intentional character flaws as bad writing.....ugh....

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I need sex so soft and so healing. sweet, slow, all-devouring sex that leaves me so empty headed and so full hearted. completely consumed with each other type sex. fused tight together. clinging to one another. soft giggles, hitched breaths, mindless nibbling, starved kisses…

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God, I just......r-really love finally having my plushie here. She's so soft, and so well-made and I can finally confirm that, indeed, she doesn't wear anything under her top-

I mean, wait what- o////////o

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Finally, they meet! Couldn’t do this sooner cuz Vani was at another house, but I’m there now, hehe! He’s so teeny next to her….

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Awakened and newly appeared cookies💓

Which do you like better, the old form vs the awakened form?

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if you're writing and find yourself thinking 'this is too weird/gross/offputting/esoteric/ambitious/catered to my specific interests + sure to push away a broader audience' that is the devil speaking and it is a lie. you are already firmly on the right path and you need to double down

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I-I can't help but feel like TADC is trying to purposefully lull us into a false sense of security in regards to Jax. This newest episode was trying REALLY REALLY REALLY hard to make him likable all of a sudden (bonding with Pomni, sympathetic backstory crumbs, actually giving his reason for hating Ragatha and having HER be the one who needed to learn the episode's lesson rather than him). On one hand, I'm happy he's getting more depth while not changing his tune, but.....

I-I can't help but remember how, back when the show first started, Goose gave that warning that "Jax will do something that will make people HATE him". And how much of a scene was made after the second episode about how he was "just" a jerk with no heart of gold and "I like terrible characters". Him being given more depth doesn't mean he's losing his edge, and I get the feeling that he's gonna let us down big time soon.

Considering his episode's next....I-I dunno, we'll see....

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Sins 🔥🔥🔥