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Midnight therapy

LEVI X READER FLUFF

You laid alone in your bed, the silence keeping you awake. Usually when you couldn't sleep you would sneak into the captains room or he would join you until you fell asleep in his arms but you were unable to spend time together tonight due to the corporal having a late meeting with Erwin.

You and levi never got much free time together. You both had hard training most days and when you weren't learning new tactics or fighting titans you were cleaning, looking after your horses, doing chorses or had your head buried in a endless tower of paperwork. On top of that, you and Levi agreed to keep your relationship a secret so you had to deal with Levi treating you like he treated everyone else, you didn't mind though. After all, that was the man you fell hard for. Sometimes it was frustrating not being able to show the world how much he meant to you or show how proud you were to call him yours but Levi never was a lovey person and hated being spoken about so it was for the best that it stayed a secret.

Sighing, you threw your legs over the edge of the mattress and pulled yourself out of bed, hoping a little stroll would make you feel more relaxed. You grabbed the gray jumper that was laying at the end of your bed and pulled it on, the soft material instantly making you feel more settled. The jumper actually belonged to Levi, it was a small gift you brought him as a Christmas present and he'd worn it every time he spent hours sitting up late at his desk and the rare occasions you two got to just hold each other and relax. Grabbing a hair tie, you pulled your soft h/c hair up into a messy bun before tuning your doorknob and walking out.

The hallways were silent, dimly lit by the flames of the torches evenly spread out on the wall. The stone floor was sharp on your bare feet, pinching at your skin with every step as you made your way to the kitchen, tucking your hands into the baggy hoodie to stop them from getting cold.

You passed a few doors to the other cadets rooms, a small smile tugging at your lips as you realised they were all peacefully sleeping with full bellies and warm blankets. Since dating Levi, you've learnt to appreciate the small things alot more. You were even greatful for the air you breathed.

while you took the final corner, you noticed a dark figure sitting on the floor. A frown of confusion appeard on your face as you stepped closer, trying to make see any sort of outline of what was leaning against the wall. The orange flickers on the wall were just bright enough to catch two steal eyes and a sword that was clearly dropped to the side.

"Levi?" Your frown softened as you crouched down next to the male, worry soon taking over any confusion you had. "Whats wrong?" You questioned, noticing the sorrow in your boyfriends eyes. His face remained expressionless like always but that look in his eyes broke your heart.

Gently caressing your captains cheek, he leaned into your touch, his grey eyes not leaving the wall infront of him. Levi let out a sigh, his chest heavy and his heart aching. It took a few slow minutes before the raven haired finally spoke up.

"Its my fault..." he spoke quietly, his voice filled with guilt. You sat yourself down beside the male, crossing your legs as you gently rubbed your boyfriends soft cheek.

"Whats your fault?" You asked in a soft and patient tone. This wasn't the first time you'd seen Levi breaking down but it was the first time you've found him sat alone outside his office looking utterly broken.

"Their deaths... everyone's deaths..." he answered, the guilt in his voice growing stronger. "All of these people, they wouldn't be hurting so much if I did a better job at protecting them!" Levis voice started to raise as his fists clenched, his face now wearing a deep frown as he fought back a sob. "All these deaths, all these tears, all this pain... all of this because I ordered them to fight..."

Your e/c eyes widened as you listened closely to every word that left your boyfriends lips.

He was blaming himself...

Your heart tensed as your eyes shifted down to his balled fists. You could tell he was angry at himself for letting his soldiers die but deep down everyone knew it wasn't anyones fault. As much as it hurt, it was part of the war...

Frowning softly, you cupped both his cheeks in your hands and gently tilted his head so he was facing you, your e/c orbs locking with his darkened ones.

"Levi, listen to me..." you ordered in a quiet whisper, pushing yourself off the floor with your legs and moving your smaller body onto the captains, gently sitting yourself down on his lap. Levi looked at you with saddened eyes, just waiting for you to keep talking. "This. None of this is your fault. " moving your face a little closer to his, he gently rested his forehead against yours, his eyes closing as you held his face. "Everyone that died, died fighting, just like you and I are... even if you told them not to, even if you ordered everyone to stay underground, they would have been by your side fighting for their lives and their lost ones." You reminded him, every word gentle and comforting to the males ears. "Don't beat yourself up over things you can't control." You whispered, tucking Levis bangs behind his ears.

Letting out a defeated sigh, your boyfriends eyes slowly opened, revealing the beautiful gray orbs you loved staring into.

"Thank you..." he mumbled quietly, glancing into your eyes and taking a moment to admire the way the flickers from the flames made them shine. The corners of your lips turned up into a small smile as you let yourself get lost in your boyfriends eyes, both of you enjoying the comfortable silence.

You were glad you managed to cheer the boy up but that wasn't enough for you. You wanted Levi to feel like he was in control of something.

The smile on your face grew as you reached for his hand, holding it firmly and standing up. Levi's eyebrow raised at your sudden actions, his eyes watching as you raised from his lap and lightly tugged his hand for him to do the same.

Levi didn't argue as stood up, picking his sword up from the floor before giving your hand a firm squeeze. The males small action made your heart flutter, it wasn't often he showed affection outside the walls of your rooms or his office, it was the only place the two of you got any privacy. You never minded though, it was the only place you saw the real Levi. The Levi that didn't always need a strong front, the Levi that wasn't just "the captain" or "humanities strongest soldier." Just Levi Ackerman.

Dragging your boyfriend behind you, you headed back to your room, smiling to yourself as you felt the captains eyes on you. The walk back to your door was slower than before, taking in every second with your boyfriend. Levi was silent as he secretly admired you in the dim lighting. He hadn't failed to notice you were wearing the jumper you'd brought for him or the way your h/l, h/t hair was pulled up into a messy bun with shorter pieces pulled out at the front, shaping your face perfectly.

Arriving outside your room, you twisted the knob before opening the door and stepping inside with Levi close behind. Levi expected you to drag him to the bed like you usually did so you could fall asleep in ea hothers eyes but his eyebrow furrowed as he watched you head straight to your bathroom with a happy hum.

You came out a minute later with your box of cleaning supplies and a broom, a cheery grin on your face. Your room was dark but you could see the confusion on the corporals face as he watched you with a questioning frown.

"Turn the light on, Levi" you chuckled, placing the box of supplies on your unmade bed as the room lit up. Levis steal eyes widened as he scanned the room. Bed messy, clothes everywhere, shampoo bottles randomly dropped to the side, the bedside table draw half open and overflowing with more clothes.

Levi stood speechless, how did Levi Ackerman end up with a messy girlfriend?

"Cadet, you have a room inspection tomorrow." He stated coldly, his eyes shifting over to meet yours, your innocent smile earning a small scowl.

You couldn't stop the small chuckle that slipped past your lips at his seriousness. The captain side of him was starting to show and you adored it. Levi was alot softer when you were alone and he treated you like an equal but there were a few times he were unable to control it. After all, he was your captain and it was his job to make sure you looked after yourself and got all your chores done, that including your room.

"Well then I guess you'll just have to help me clean" you grinned, holding a cloth out to the older male. You hadn't planned to be cleaning at almost 1am but you worked out long before you and Levi started dating that he liked everything immaculate because it made him feel like he had some control in this messed up world. From starving outside completely alone to watching his friends lives get taken from them, watching others lose their loved ones only to be in that position a day after made Levi feel many emotions that he's now learned keep deep inside him. Levi spent most of his life feeling like everything around him owned him, controlled him, life went out of its way to hurt the boy as the years slowly worsened. Only after he earned the respect of others and his living situations got a little better did he realise he could control one thing- how everything looked. Was placed. Was dusted. He had spent years in dirt, watching the world slowly crumble but as soon as he walked though his office door to find everything exactly how he left it his shattered heart got reminded not everything was out of control and if he kept fighting the world could eventually go back to how it once was.

The captain gave you a "tch.", snatching the cloth and shoving it into his pocket. "You should know dusting comes last, brat. You have clothes all over the floor" he scolded as he pushed his sleeves up to his elbows. You rolled your eyes playfully, copying his actions before lightly falling to your knees and starting to pick up the clothes scattered all over your floor.

Levi crouched down beside you, picking up your shirts and laying them down on your bed. Not saying a word, Levi started to neatly fold each one, completely unaware you were watching his lips as a small smile threatened them. You smiled to yourself and continued picking up the items of clothing, placing them next to the neatly folded material. Levi glanced over at you, his smile soon disappearing. "Really?" The male sighed, realising just how much he had to fold. "When was the last time you tidied your room?" He questioned, his eyes narrowing making you look away from his intimidating glare.

"Last time you came here..." you admitted quietly, pulling the sleeves of your boyfriends hoodie back down and sinking into it as much as you could.

Levi rolled his eyes, giving you another 'tch' as his eyes went back to folding your shirts and trousers. "That was almost two weeks ago." He spoke in his normal cold tone, adding another shirt to the pile. You stayed silent, feeling a little guilty as you watched his hands work. Everyone knew how much of a clean freak Levi was, was it selfish of you to let your room get this filthy?

Noticing your sudden silence, the raven haired rolled his eyes and pulled you closer so you could wrap your arms around his waist while he worked. "Maybe ill just need to come over more often to make sure you're actually doing your chores" he whispered in a much softer tone before placing a gentle kiss to the top of your head. Smiling, you wrapped your arms around your boyfriends torso as he went back to folding, slowly working his way though the mountain of clothes you'd dumped on the bed. Your eyes fell shut as your head gently rested against his arm, a soft blush spreading across your cheek as your stomach filled with butterflies. Many people saw you as a strong, independent soldier with little to no weakness but just like levi, you were different around him. Levi made you feel safe and warm, he made you feel smaller and always reminded you not to have your walls up around him. He reminded you that better days were coming and it was okay to break down when needed, he reminded you how much he loved you with his whole heart. Even though your relationship was a secret and you didnt have much alone time together, he always left subtle gifts for you, took extra time to make sure your tea was perfect, he was always willing to stay up late just to make sure you went to sleep feeling loved. Ever since he asked you to be his girlfriend, he's always made sure your ODM gear was working before checking his own, made sure you went to bed with a full stomach and even brought you expensive shampoo on special occasions.

Once the final shirt was folded and added to the pile, Levi looked down at you half asleep on his arm. the small smile slowly came back as he carefully moved out of your grip, gently shaking you awake. "If im going to clean your room youre going to be keeping me company" he hummed, amused by the big yawn that left your lips followed by a tired whine.

"bu-" you started protesting but quickly got cut off by the handsome male "no buts. You're lucky i'm not making you clean." he stated simply, earning a huff from you as you plopped down onto the bed, crossing your legs with a tired smile "I'm very lucky, i have you." you mumbled under your breath, smiling to yourself.

Levi heard your comment but decided to ignore it as he picked up the pile of clothing and neatly put them away, his heart feelng warm. Levi wasnt one to make comments like that but he still appreciated yours, it was one of your cute little ways to show how much he ment to you. once your clothers were finally where they should be Levi started picking up the two random shampoo bottles you had clearly thrown to the side and a wash cloth, taking them to the bathroom and placing them uder your sink.

You heard more bottles being moved followed by the sound of scrubbing. Leaning over to peek around the doorframe, you saw your boyfriend scrubbing the counter, a smile spreading across your face as you noticed his content expression. Your eyes admired him happily, your chin resting comfortably in your palm as you sat there peacefully watching your captain work.

"what are you looking at, brat?" Levi spoke suddenly, cathing you off guard and causing your entire face to turn a dark shade of red.

"N-nothing!" you stuttered, looking away embarassed, your ears heating up.

Levi rolled his eyes playfully, letting out a rare chuckle as he folded the cloth and placed it next to the bottles before walking over to you, his body standing next to the bed.

"are you sure about that, Y/N?" he questioned, leaning down to whisper in your ear. "i could feel your eyes on me, brat" he whispered teasingly, a smirk tugging at the males lips as he felt the heat coming from your cheeks.

leaning back on the bed, you playfully pushed the boy away and shook your head. your e/e eyes locked with Levis grey ones, your blush slowly fading as you gave him a loving smile. The usually intimidating man returned your smile, leaning down and pressing his soft lips against your forehead.

you felt your heart warm as soon as his lips touched your skin, the butterflies now alot stronger.

Levi placed one more kiss on your face, this time on your nose before pulling away, earning himself a cute pout from you. "Leviiii come to bed" you whined, propping yourself up on one elbow as we went back to cleaning, now tackling your bedside table.

"if you weren't so messy id be able to" he replied, stripping the draw from all the items that were carelessly stuffed inside. letting out a huff, you sat up properly and watched, slightly embarassed by the state of everything. Levi had no complaints as he carefully oraginsed everything, taking the extra clothes and neatly putting them away, re-organising the paperwork you had been assigned and neatly placing it back into the draw before putting your hair brush, a few hairbands and a book he had brought you next to the pile of papers ready for you to just reach over and grab in the morning.

The male gave a small nod of approval at the now tidy draw before cloing it and scanning the room. Everything had been put back where it belongs, the only thing that needed to be done was the dusting.

you sat quietly watching Levi. You were glad he was feeling better, the captain had a habbit of blaming himself alot and you were the only one awear of it so whenever Levi would blame himself you made it your personal mission to cheer him up.

It wasnt long before evrything was dusted, everything freshly wiped down just the way Levi liked it. A smile pulled at your lips as Levi finally finished. Leaning back, you held your arms out for Levi to lay in. Turning his head to face you, Levi flicked the light switch before heading to the bed and collapsing in your arms.

You wrapped your arms around yoour boyfiend, feeling him lay his head on your chest as you gently stroked his hair.

"Thank you, y/n" he mumbled gently, tiredness finally hitting him. Your heart fluttered at his words, him confirming you managed to help the poor boy.

"youre welcome" you ehispered, just holding Levi close to you as you placed a small kiss to his forehead.

only 3 minutes passed before you heard the boys gentle breath pass his lips, his eyes closed and his whole body relaxing as he drifted off intoa peaceful slumber. You stayed awake for a while, just taking in the night you had with Levi. You were truly inlove with this man and just like him, you were willing to stay up extra late just to run your fingers through his hair or place small kisses over his face.

"I love you, Levi." were your final words, gentle and full of truth as you let your eyes close, falling asleep almost immediatly.

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