moldcursed:
ethan used to fight back. he used to yell and kick and scream, used to do anything he could to try and prevent their ‘ experiments ’. it never worked, but it was always worth a shot ; it proved that the connections hadn’t broken him yet. nowadays, he can’t be bothered. it’ll happen either way, no matter what he does. what’s the fucking point? brought to the brink of death over and over again with cruel yet effective methods, only to heal and start the cycle once more. it’s never-ending. ethan’s own personal hell.
how long have they been at this this time? ethan can’t keep up with it. he knows that hands have been wrapped around his neck, cutting off his air supply over and over again. so close to death he comes every time, only for the researcher to quit just before he can actually die. is regeneration a blessing or a curse at this point?
still, ethan isn’t frightened anymore. this is just … the new normal. his fucked-up version of a life nowadays. at least shinya TRIES to make it easier on him, tries to make it TOLERABLE. would any of the other researchers be GENTLE with him afterwards? no. ethan knows that they wouldn’t. every single time. every single time that he tortures him, every single time that he hurts him, he cleans him up afterwards. cruel beatings turn into tender touches. it’s a ROUTINE. it’s EXPECTED. it makes things so much … BETTER, in a twisted sort of way.
the room’s pristine white walls are tainted with black decay, the spread of the mold. ethan doesn’t know how to control it ; he couldn’t get rid of it even if he wanted to. ethan is barely even aware of the fact that he’s creating the spread, even when he’s being hurt. it’s a defense mechanism. a subconscious thing.
currently, he’s leaning against one of said walls for support, his skin pale, and watching with a blank expression as the other man gently scrapes away at the mold covering his skin. he used to care about this shit — now, it’s NORMAL. he doesn’t resist. doesn’t fight back. not anymore.
it takes a moment for the question to properly register, and even then all ethan does is slowly nod his head. he doesn’t care which one it is. he just feels FILTHY, covered in the decay as he is. the cleanup attempt only does so much, after all. “ either one. i don’t care, ” he manages, wincing afterwards. he’s still in the process of healing, and after however many hours that hands had squeezed his neck, talking hurts just a bit more than it should.
ethan knows he probably shouldn’t. he knows that they’re being watched, but it doesn’t stop him from slumping forward, forehead coming to rest against shinya’s shoulder. he’s just TIRED … so fucking tired …
“ we’re done for today, right? i get a break now? ”
“Yeah,” Shinya says quietly, “we’re done for today.”
Turned so that his back obscures Ethan from the cameras, he brings his hand up to stroke gently through the man’s blond hair. Some Mold’s gotten into it; they’ll have to scrub that, too.
“You don’t have to talk any more, Ethan.”
The speakers crackle, something’s said about the rest of them going ahead to their lunch breaks, and Shinya uses his free hand to wave them off. All the better-- it makes it a lot easier to heft Ethan up, his arm hooked around his middle while he ensures Ethan’s own arm is slung over his shoulders.
On particularly bad days, he’ll carry Ethan himself. He’s not sure if he needs it this time, but he’ll keep an eye out.
The experimentation room is connected to Ethan’s living quarters through a passage with sterilisation chambers on either end. The rapid whoosh of air and the distinct scent of disinfectant hits them both, but still Shinya makes the rest of the trek to Ethan’s cell so he can take him to the bathroom in it.
While Ethan isn’t allowed a separate room for his hygiene, per se, a session or two after Shinya had been taken onto the Winters Project he’d insisted on dividers being placed to give him a sense of privacy in his nudity. The things are translucent-- enough to allow Ethan’s silhouette to show through for monitoring and ensuring he doesn’t harm himself-- but it’s still better than nothing.
Once Ethan’s seated on the covered toilet, Shinya carefully undoes the buttons of his shirt, its white fabric stained with black Mold. It’s heavy and gross when he pushes it off his shoulders, but Shinya’s stopped noticing such things ages ago.
“I’ll run a bath for you,” he says, tearing his eyes from Ethan’s pale chest to his face instead. “They let me bring bubble bath in” -- in exchange for Shinya giving a worse session later in the week, just to see if allowing the asset some niceties makes the cruel treatment produce more -- “if you want to use that.”
He doesn’t expect more than a nod or a shake of the head, but either way, he’ll get to work according to Ethan’s preferences.
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this is an independent rp blog for shinya murakami, an unaffiliated serial killer OC. writer is 21+ and will not write with minors.
no rules, just don’t be an asshole and remember that there’s a line between fiction and reality. smut and shipping (m/m, m/f, m/nb, m/*) is fine, but please take note that there is something very wrong with shinya’s brain and relationships are most likely going to be unhealthy to some degree. he can love, sure, but his priorities aren’t all there. i also won’t write him bottoming.
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name: shinya murakami
age: thirty-one
goes by: he/him
sexuality: demi
work: university professor, biochem researcher
origins: japan
languages: japanese, french, english, mandarin chinese, korean
vices: smoking, drinking
biography
CW: MENTIONS OF ABUSE, SUICIDE, MURDER
When Shinya was eight years old, a banker had denied his father's small town factory a loan to support the manufacture of a product that was meant to bring them fame and fortune. In a month, his father's company went bankrupt, and along with the loss of his business came the loss of his family ties. The Murakami household became violent under his father's hand, and though time and again Shinya's mother tried to escape with him, they never succeeded. From a young age Shinya learned how to grit his teeth and bare it— his mother, meanwhile, had other plans.
To this day, Shinya isn't sure why he didn't just die with her when she left the gas going in their sealed home. But by the time the ambulance got there after he ran all the way to hospital, she was gone.
Shinya was left alone with his father from the age of ten onwards, and at nineteen his father told him to help kill the man that ruined their lives. They tracked that banker down, retired now over a decade later, with every intention of killing him in his own home. In the end, however, it was Shinya who stabbed the man over and over when his father froze in the middle of it, even if his father took responsibility to serve a life sentence in prison after.
Weeks before his 22nd birthday, Shinya's father killed himself in his cell, and then he was truly alone.
Shinya can't pinpoint what drives him to keep killing even after all the blood already shed in his life. For all intents and purposes, he's an upstanding citizen with a well-paying job helping the youth of the world grow and develop, and by most standards he's set for life. But the power he held over that banker at age nineteen had been addicting, and after being powerless for so long he imagines indulging is only to be expected. Still, in the end there isn't any deeper meaning to why Shinya kills: he likes making other people hurt, likes making them cry and sob and beg, and much as he knows it's wrong the fact that it's fun outweighs everything else.
Above all else, Shinya isn't sorry. And if he's caught one day, he won't be sorry then, either.
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@moldcursed // LET’S DO THIS
As far as the research states, the more you hurt him, the more Mold the asset produces. That said, Shinya has been a good researcher-- he’s cut him, burned him, whipped him, electrocuted him, hit him with all manner of blunt weapons, and every time without fail the asset has been able to heal himself to perfection after. It’s a miraculous thing, they say: Ethan Winters is the most stable combination of mutamycete and human genetics the Connections has ever seen. After all the times Shinya’s sat with him and helped him heal, though, he knows they aren’t wrong.
It’s the end of another torture session, this time with Shinya’s gloved hands having been wrapped around the asset’s throat on and off for a good two hours. Time and again he’d squeezed his neck, and time and again the asset had nearly died only for Shinya to wait for that regenerative factor to kick in again. Given their excursion, the Mold that covers the walls of the room is immense; since they’d discovered a vaccine against it (all because of this incredible research), though, Shinya’s been able to enter the room in just his work clothes and his labcoat, sans all the heavy gear.
Seeing the asset without the barrier of his helmet and its respirator is an experience, even if it’s been over three months now of twice a week sessions. The asset doesn’t seem scared any more, but that’s to be expected; everyone adapts eventually, even prey.
Still, Shinya finds himself touching him tenderly once he’s gotten his restraints off. Even when their sessions end and he’s told to leave the room, he cleans the asset up himself each time without fail. The hands that had been inflicting pain become gentle quickly, just as they do now as he carefully scrapes the Mold off of the asset’s hands and forearms so they drop to the floor with the rest of it. His bosses will never tell him to be this kind, but he isn’t doing it for them.
“Ethan,” Shinya says gently, quietly, his voice low so the people watching them don’t hear him calling the asset by name, “do you want a bath or a shower today?”
Regardless of the answer, he knows the asset won’t be capable of doing it himself. And with the routine of their work together at this point, he knows the man won’t resist him any more, either.
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…blood is dripping on us,
We are standing somewhere between earth and stars,
Not knowing if we are alive or dead.
Conrad Aiken, from Nocturne of Remembered Spring, and Other Poems; “The Trenches”
(via theoptia)
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A soft grunt leaves him as he felt the gruff bite to his neck, smirking faintly as he grinds his hips back down to meet his as best they can.
The blood beginning to seep through his layers is still surprisingly warm, leaving him to wonder just how long he had played with the coworker before he had arrived.
His eyes flicker to her pale form for a moment, silently claiming victory. Whether it was true or not, Daisuke had always had a suspicion she wanted Shinya.
Eat shit, bitch.
Fingers running through faintly disheveled locks, he turns his face to look at his husband as best he can.
“She was? What else was she like? Did she beg? Cry? Fight back?” Fuck, does Daisuke love hearing about them fighting back. He’s well aware of how fit his partner is, but there’s next to nothing that gets him as hard as hearing Shinya describe in detail how he overpowers the ones with a little vigor.
He laughs, lips against Daisuke’s bruising skin. “You’re so fucking weird, always asking shit like that.”
Still, he’s pulling Daisuke’s shirt open and throwing it haphazardly to the side. The blood’s already made it unsalvageable, he’s sure, and Shinya can always get him a new one.
“She thought I wanted to come over as a date,” he murmurs. “It was almost too easy getting her close.
“She screamed real pretty when I banged her head on the counter, though.”
And it hadn’t been enough to do more than concuss her, either. “She asked me what was wrong, you know.” Shinya’s fingers undo the fastenings to Daisuke’s trousers. “I picked up her kitchen knife and she started to cry because she didn’t understand.
“Think she got the picture when I cracked her femur under my shoe, though.”
His hand curls around Daisuke’s cock over his underwear, squeezing. “Are you happy to hear she cried while trying to crawl away, Dai-chan?”
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What words Shinya might’ve spoken die in his throat, preoccupied as he is by the warmth of Daisuke’s tongue. He’d called him, as he always does, after draining his poor, former co-worker’s body of blood, and as he sits on a stool by the kitchen island he grips Daisuke’s slim waist with dirty, dirty gloves.
The blood seeps into his clothes, smearing over his buttons as Shinya undoes them. “Is that how you’re cleaning me up today?”
His teeth dig into the younger man’s lip, his cock a firm line under Daisuke’s thigh. Shinya only releases his flesh so he can bite down Daisuke’s neck instead as he rocks up against him.
“Ah... Daisuke, she was so fucking soft.” And his knife had moved through her torso like butter.
@toxicboyfriend
Daisuke straddles his partner’s waist, soft smirk on his lips as he leans in and flicks his tongue out to rub along the tip of his nose. “You had a little something there,” he purrs before leaning in and pressing a firm kiss to his lips.
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