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Oh, yeah! I included this as an edit on the previous post at the last second, but just in case, I wanted to add that I will be answering asks on this account when I can!

But in the meantime, I've been on my personal blog manicpixiedreamtwink a lot more, so it'll be easier to get ahold of me there!

***(But heads up, there isn't any voice work posted there, it's kind of just a personal update/aesthetic/meme/poetry/literature/art inspiration sort of mashup! I try not to romanticize anything dire in terms of mental health, but I discuss my own experiences with BPD, OCD, trauma, etc., so fair warnings for that!)

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Hiiiiiii! I don't know how to title this, so I'm just going to get into it. I know I've talked about going through University and how that's kept me from doing any voice work for the past couple years (and that's true, but I mean... I've been in University for a long time now, and I wanted to get into the reasons for that).

I've mentioned this before on this account, but I've been struggling with borderline personality disorder (BPD), social phobia, PTSD, constant nightmares, and related hard drug and alcohol addictions since around 2014. Sometimes things got better, oftentimes they got worse. I quit cocaine in 2016 and crystal meth in early-mid 2017, but never quite kicked alcohol (the worst one imo, because it's dangerous to quit it cold turkey -- that one can kill you).

So I'm writing this from a detox centre right now, pumped full of valium and clonidine so I don't die from liquor withdrawal seizures or sudden cardiac death.

Everyone here complains about it (and the food does totally suck lmao), but the centre is actually pretty great! At least compared to the first one I went to in Alberta back in 2016, and I'm only here for a week. Detox is different from rehab -- it's basically a short term medical thing where they have nurses and doctors on staff to make sure alcohol withdrawals don't kill you. I've had several related seizures in the past, and every time you have one of those, your risk of having another rises, so I'm at high risk and they're monitoring me carefully.

So yeah, that's why I haven't been around much. Going through a lot. I'll get more into the reasons for it all sometime, as well as the follow-up steps I'll be taking for mental health and addiction maintenance.

Also, during my more stable/good days, I will be getting back into voice acting. It's one of my favourite art forms and it means a lot to me! I miss that part of myself and getting to share it with people!

***EDIT: Oh, yeah, and in the meantime, I've been spending more time on my personal blog manicpixiedreamtwink.

(There isn't any voice work over there, it's kind of just a personal update/aesthetic/meme/poetry/art inspiration sort of place! I try not to romanticize anything dire in terms of mental health, but I do discuss my own experiences with BPD, OCD, trauma, etc., so fair warnings for that!)

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is this relatable to everyone or just me

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Because my comics have gone around the internet, many people have asked if I’ve “gotten better yet”. The answer is a firm NO because that’s not how post-viral illness triggered by an infection that causes organ and brain damage works. Please consider your behavior and who you are leaving behind.

Check out the People’s CDC here where they provide weekly updates on the COVID situation in the U.S.

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Year of the tiger getting ready to hand things off to year of the rabbit! 🐯🐰 明けましておめでとうございます!

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Sorry but if we want tumblr to hit the big time again one of us has to take the fall and steal human remains.

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this might be because I’m a family law lawyer and also an old crone who remembers when marriage equality wasn’t a thing (as in, marriage equality only became nation-wide two months before I went to law school), but I have Strong Feelings about the right to marry and all the legal benefits that come with it

like I’m all for living in sin until someone says they don’t want to get married because it’s ~too permanent~ and in the same breath start talking about having kids or buying a house with their significant other. then I turn into a 90-year-old passive-aggressive church grandma who keeps pointedly asking when the wedding is. “yes, a divorce is very sad and stressful, but so is BEING HOMELESS BECAUSE YOU’RE NOT ENTITLED TO EQUITABLE DISTRIBUTION OF MARITAL PROPERTY, CAROLINE!”

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I drew these while thinking about that Cats trailer. It IS Caturday. We still do Caturday, right? Here’s some classic cats.. as Cats.

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alcohol enjoyers are like i lovee things that taste so so bad

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the horrors are returning everyone!!!! clap if you’re excited for the horrors

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I'm not easy to love!!

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This is how I decided to come out as non binary btw

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Claude Monet, Edge of the Cliff at Pourville x I Saw Water, Tigers Jaw

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Reblog to make the tummy not hurt of the person you reblogged from.

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Universities love to make their websites a fucking maze

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Nicknames: when you shorten someone’s name affectionately

Nicholasnames: when you elongate someone’s name affectionately