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so nervous about this flight that i accidentally came here two hours early! so now i'm in the terminal trying to be normal while i am, in fact, not normal (and very sweaty) about this experience!

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Eek so super excited about the zarry fic 😇

oh boy, it's a painful one! i wrote it four years ago and have been sitting on it ever since, but i think that was a good choice. sensitive topics require nuance that i don't think i had a proper grasp on back then

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You’re not in your flop era! And you never have been, I’ve never read something from you and thought “hm that could’ve been better”. Absolutely love your work!

that's such a nice compliment, thank you so so much 🩵 i certainly go back to reread fics and think "hm that could've been better, also this is shit", but idk we're always more critical of ourselves

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Absolutely LOVE your headcanons! 🩵

thank you!!! 🩵

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i'm flying out to go to pride with a friend this weekend, but i haven't been on a plane in seven years and i've never flown alone before and i'm really nervous because i really hate planes! but i really love my friend! but i really fucking hate planes! and i have to take four of them! by my fucking self!

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I’d love to hear more of ur hl caretaking headcanons 🥰

ooh absolutely. these are a little more domestic caretaking and less sickfic-related, but hopefully they work for you!

louis falls asleep in uncomfortable positions. sitting up on the sofa, lying on the floor, crammed against the wall in the corner of a dressing room...he's an expert at taking sleep when he can get it after years of constant denial. even as an adult, at home with his bed less than a minute away, he still falls asleep in odd places. h might find him sitting up with a guitar in his lap, his neck at an odd position from where he lolled his head back to rest his eyes for a moment. he's found his husband asleep at the kitchen table with his head on his arms, back hunched in a way that couldn't possibly feel good. h would effortlessly scoop louis up and carry him to bed every time, and louis would wake to find a soft pillow underneath his head - or even better, harry's steady heartbeat beneath his ear.

the boys struggled with the stress of the band, though it manifested in different ways. lashing out with misdirected frustration, pulling away and isolating, crying...they all had their own ways of coping, healthy or otherwise. h, during his most stressful moments, was prone to a more physical manifestation of his symptoms - psychogenic fevers. during a meeting about a new stunt relationship, louis might look up to see his boy's cheeks had suddenly developed a distinct flush that didn't fade with the end of the discussion. on a day of back-to-back interviews where h's reputation as a flirt was persistently targeted, he would be tugged away more than once by the makeup artist who wanted to camouflage the persistent pink tint on his cheeks. the moment he could, h would tuck himself into louis' safe arms, his body alarmingly hot to the touch as he begged louis to take him home while tears threatened to spill over. he wasn't feeling well, he wanted to go to bed, he just couldn't take it anymore. for years, these episodes had louis in panic mode. he would fuss all night long only to find that h often (though not always) woke up feeling completely fine. it was only after years of these startling occurrences that louis noticed a pattern. the mystery fevers didn't come often, but they appeared alongside some of their most taxing experiences. louis knew his boy wasn't actually ill. he knew the fever would fade within a matter of hours, but it didn't matter why h was burning up, achy, and desperately fatigued. louis would look after him just the same.

louis is a bit forgetful, by his own admission. he also gets cold very easily, also something he won't deny. even if he knows the weather is a bit chilly and reminds himself to bring a hoodie, he often leaves it behind. a gust of wind that blows past the band might leave only louis' spine shivering, but even though h isn't showing any signs of chilliness, he's usually not willing to ask for his jacket. he's too proud for his own good, and he wouldn't dare risk his babygirl getting cold just because he forgot his stupid clothes again. h is attuned to every last part of louis' being, so he can't miss the little shiver that quakes louis' shoulders. he eventually gives up on asking whether louis wants to borrow his jacket, as he knows the answer will be a stubborn no, so he doesn't say a word. he just slips it off and hands it over. though he wishes louis would remember his fucking jacket for once, h loves the soft sigh that louis lets out when he feels his boy's body heat envelop him.

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Just saw your posts saying you’re planning on writing again, I’m super excited to read more of your work!!

i promise i'll stop writing my cringe hobama fic and actually get something done this month!!

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jk she was in the bag i already checked six times

now where the fuck did my laptop charger go

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now where the fuck did my laptop charger go

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Really looking forward to the mental health/emotional h/c requests you’ve gotten!

me too! do i feel a bit guilty putting characters in distress? yes! but do i love to do it?

…unfortunately for them, also yes

in terms of emotional h/c, there’s a platonic zarry oneshot that i would consider posting if there are no objections to a non-larry fic

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Super excited about the baby boyfriend’s ideas you’re working on!!

ahh me too! i should seriously stop working on those and get back to the updates, but when has my writing process ever been logical

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Super excited about pins and screws!! I love all of your WIPs so I’m excited to see one of them get updated (hoping for honey I’m yours or the Christmas one next!! 🤞)

pins and screws update has been stuck in the ‘diabolically horny’ stage, so i’m trying to make it a little more…cohesive with the rest of the story

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I reread some of my fav fics of yours recently and they’re always just as fun to read as they were the very first time! Super excited to hopefully get to read more from you, too!!

that’s so kind, thank you so much 🩵 i’m glad they hold up at least decently well after all these years

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Reading your fics has inspired me to get back into writing, so thank you for that!

i’m so glad you’ve been able to reconnect with writing! it’s such a wonderful outlet, and i hope you’ve been having fun 🩵

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Were you planning on finishing more than you could ever know it’s okay if not I just reread it ik it’s not anywhere near Christmas but it be fun to read 😭🥹

i will definitely finish it because leaving fics unfinished haunts me! i’ve been tortured by “chapters 4/?” since march 2023! i think i need to accept that not everything can or will be perfect before i post it and just get it over with

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I hope things have been good for you! Missing when you were more active on here, but hope all is well!

things are actually going well still! thank you 🩵 a friend got married last weekend, this weekend i’m flying out for a pride festival in new york, the next i have two friends coming to visit for pride in my town, so it’s going to be a busy (and fun) month

i have so many dumb thoughts i could share, so maybe i can get rid of my self-restraint and shitpost a little…

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Really looking forward to your TMHT Louis chest infection fic!

ahh that one is a huge undertaking because i did a lot of research and need to make sure i’m getting the story down right, but i’m excited to work more on it