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A Simple Favor (2018), dir. Paul Feig

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Amazing, Stefan had found someone maybe just as awkward as he was.  “It’s fine, let’s just, never talk about that again.”  He chuckled, pouring himself more bourbon than even he would normally drink at this time of day before glancing back at her.  “Do you drink bourbon?  I can grab something else if not.”  So his brother’s fiancé had seen him naked, that was nice.  Wonderful.  Great.  He’d probably definitely come in from the rain and so she’d not only seen him naked, she’d seen him wet.  Fiancé.  Fiancé.  He reminded himself, resisting the urge to go jump off a cliff.  No impure thoughts allowed about his brother’s fiancé. “So um, you’re a doctor–what’s your specialty?”  He was pretty sure he hadn’t said um this many times since he was a boy. 

“   right  .   i  would  appreciate  that  .   ”    never  talking  about  it  again  was  fine  and  great ,    but  god  was  it  going  to  keep  her  up  at  night  for  a  while .   she  was  mortified  .      “   bourbon  neat  would  be  fantastic , ”    she  nodded ,  not  being  one  to  need  ice  or  anything  else  watering  down  her  liquor  .    she  learned  all  too  young  that  the  good  stuff   wasn’t  fruity  or  masked  behind  a  ton  of  juice  and  mixers .   elena  may  have  looked  the  opposite ,    but  her  taste  in  alcohol  was  hardcore .     “  well ,   intern  technically .   i  wanna  be  a  surgeon .   pediatric ,  more  specifically ,  though  i  think  ortho  is  cool  too .   either  babies  or  bones .  ”    she  shrugged ,  as  if  that  weren’t  the  strangest  combination  ever  .    “   uh ,   you  must  be  real  busy  with  the  bar  though  .   it’s  nice  what  you’ve   done  with  it ,  i’ve  swung  by  a  few  times ,   though  never  when  you’re  around  oddly  enough .   we  kept  missing  each  other ,   huh ?  ”   she  smirked  before  bringing  the  cup  up  to  her  lips  ,   taking  a  sip  much  larger  than  she  probably  should  have . 

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Damon was perfectly prepared to be polite and to try not to be the sarcastic asshole Stefanbegged him not to be, but then she had to say…that?  Damon wasn’t modest by any means; did he run around naked on purpose?  No, he didn’t walk around naked unless he knew Stefan was either asleep for the night or out of the house, and the only time he was naked was when he was showering or changing or…jesus, why had she brought that up?  He didn’t mind anyone seeing him naked, but his brother’s fiancé?  Stefan had better give him a medal for dealing with this.  Damon blinked, holding up his hands.  “Uh yeah um.  Sorry about that?”  Jesus christ.  Stefan always thought he was being sneaky bringing Elena in after he’d gone to sleep; Damon knew the only reason he snuck her in was to keep Damon from making fun of him, but Damon couldn’t sleep through anything. He’d heard every time Elena had padded into the house.  At least they lived on opposite sides of the house.  What had she been doing to have seen him, camping in the living room?  He’d probably gone on a run in the rain and taken his clothes off at the door to keep from dripping.  “I probably went on a run in the rain or something.  Uh, anyway.”  Though that didn’t explain why he hadn’t had boxers on, he just didn’t likeboxers.  “Do you want a drink or something?”  God knows he needed one. 

fuck  .    fuck ,   fuck  ,  fuck  .   what  was  wrong  with  her ?!    there  were  ways  to  break  the  ice  like  a  normal  ,    decent  human  being  --    and  confessing  that  she  maybe  sort  of  peeked  as  he  made  his  way  to  the  stairs  while  she  grabbed  a  midnight  snack  for  herself  and  the  man  she  was  marrying  was  not  one  of  them  .   save  it  .   there  was  still  room  to  save  it  ,    right  ?       “  no !   no ,  god ,  sorry .  that  was  awkward  of  me  to  say  .   i ...   doctor --   i’m  a  doctor  .  unless  i’m  talking  about  someone’s  guts ,   i’m  kind  of  an  airhead  .   ”   so  they  went  from  nudity  to  human  organs .   brilliant  .    “  yes ,  alcohol .  alcohol  would  be  great .  ”   though  what  would  really  be  great   was  if  the  world  could  just  swallow  her  fucking  whole   right  then  and  there .     “   sorry  again ...  this  totally  wasn’t  the  way  i  wanted  to  meet  you .   ”    not  in  high  school  ,   not  ever  . 

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Stefan was usually on time, but he had a bad habit of getting busy at work and forgetting everything else.  He never stopped talking about how wonderful Elena was, but he seemed to cancel a fair amount of plans due to his ‘busy schedule.’  Damon pulled his phone out, dialing Stefan’s number and shaking his head at her question.  “No you’re fine, I have work tonight but you’re good, please sit.”  He was going to go on a run in a little bit, but that was besides the point.  Damon grimaced when his brother answered with a very distracted hello.   “Stefan, Elena’s here, where are you?”  He slid his fingers through the short hair at the nape of his neck rolling his eyes at Stefan’s hurried speech about being stuck at the office.  “Okay, do you want to talk to her or?”  Another long-winded ramble about having to go but insisting that Elena stay at the house so they could bond.  Stefan would be there later.  Damon opened his mouth to protest but just as quickly the younger Salvatore had hung up.  Damon turned his attention back to Elena, sliding his phone back into his pocket.  “He’s stuck at the office.  He says he’s sorry, that he’ll be here as soon as he can, but that you should stay here and wait and we should um. We should bond?” He cleared his throat–the things he did for his brother.  Damon closed the distance between them, extending his hand.  “Um, as polite as my brother is, I don’t think we’ve ever officially met.  It’s nice to actually meet you.”  He’d kill Stefan for this later; fucking asshole. 

it  was  about  as  awkward  as  awkward  could  get ,    standing  there  only  assuming  that  stefan  was  going  on  and  on  about  how  he  couldn’t  leave  work  because  of  something  or  another  .    his  work  ethic  was  one  of  the  things  she  respected  most  about  him  ,    but  it  didn’t  exactly  make  for  the  world’s  most  involved  boyfriend  .  still  ,   she  understood  more  than  anyone  what  being  swamped  felt  like  ,   and  she  tried  her  hardest  to  refrain  from  holding  it  against  him   .    she  actually  chuckled  as  damon  mentioned  stefan’s  recommendation  .   god  ,   if  only  caroline  could  be  there  to  see  what  was  happening  --     she’d  have  a  field  day  after  having  been  there  through  elena’s   whole   ‘   damon  is  the  man  of  my  dreams    ’    phase  .      “  sorry ,    uh  .   hi ,   ”   she  shook  her  head ,  begging  herself  to  stop  looking  like  such  an  idiot  .    “   it’s  nice  to  officially  meet  you  ,   too  .   though ,   i  have  seen  you  naked .   ”    she  stopped  right  there  .   wait --   what  was  she  doing  ?    “  i-i  mean .  not  really  ,    i  just  meant  it  was  the  middle  of  the  night  and  i  was  sleeping  over  and  you  kinda  just  ran  by ...   you  might’ve  been  wearing  boxers ?   i ...   i  really  wasn’t  looking  !   ”    she  totally  was  and  he  totally  wasn’t  .  so  much  for  not  looking  like  an  idiot  . 

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misc prompts for your feels

“ unique just means alone. ” “ i’m not afraid to die, just wish i could live a little first. ” “ i know i’m a monster, but you look at me like i’m a man. ” “ there’s nothing i wouldn’t do to keep you safe. ” “ we all have sins to pay penance for. ” “ don’t look at me like i’m a hero. you’ll only disappoint yourself. ” “ sometimes when you look at me it’s like…it’s like you’re staring straight past my flesh and into my soul. ” “ you make me want to live. ” “ i know i don’t deserve forgiveness, but i like the idea that some people think i might. ” “ i trust you with my life. ” “ you’re more like family to me than my own blood. ” “ i’ve never had any sort of family before. ” “ your life is far more precious than mine. ” “ i don’t care what happens to me. as long as you’re safe. ” “ i need you to live…cause if you’re gone then, i don’t know what the point of it all is anymore. ” “ i know i’m not the person you want, but i’m here. ” “ i love you, and i know you may never feel the same. but i’m okay with that. ” “ i couldn’t say no to you even if i wanted to. ” “ you’re worth more than this. ” “ why do you walk around as if you’re somehow less valuable than the rest of the world? ” “ please, let me help you. ” “ just let me do this for you. ” “ you do have something to live for. you have me. ” “ you’ll always have me. ” “ i see you. i know you feel so invisible all the time, but you’re not. not to me. ” “ it’s okay to be angry, you’re allowed to be upset about what happened to you. ” “ don’t you realize you deserve more than this? ” “ you’re not a machine or— or some thing. you’re a person, and i’m sorry anyone ever made you feel otherwise. ” “ please, just hold on a little longer. i can’t lose you too. ” “ this scar..what happened? ” “ if you won’t do it for yourself, then do it for me. ” “ you’re bleeding— how long have you been hiding this?! ” “ sometimes i realize one day i could die, i could just disappear and the world would be none the wiser. there’d be no one to miss me and that terrifies me more than death itself. ”  “ i’m not sure i know who i’m supposed to be anymore. ” “ my mind is so loud and i’m afraid it’ll never be quiet again. ” “ when i’m in a crowd i just want to melt away and yet, when i’m alone it’s somehow worse. ” “ loneliness is a poison and i’ve been drinking it for so long, i don’t there there’s an anecdote to save my soul. ” “ i don’t care if the world knows my name, i just want you to remember me. ” “ you deserve more than i could ever give you. ” “ i love you. i know that’s not enough, but i do. ” “ you’re safe with me, you always will be. ” “ you make me feel safe. like i’m allowed to be anything i want. ” “ i’d do anything to be the person you love again. ” “ i’ve got you, you’re safe. ” “ just rest, i’m here. ” “ you can stay with me tonight. ”

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Stefan was engaged and Damon was Damon; Stefan had his office job, Damon had the bar he owned.  He had only met the girl a handful of times, but according to Stefan, she walked on water.  Damon wondered what it said about his and Stefan’s relationship that he hadn’t spent more than 5 minutes at a time with the girl.  She was always coming to the house when he was going and vice versa.  Nevertheless, he was a tad surprised when there was a knock at his door and no Stefan in the house.  God, he couldn’t wait for the younger Salvatore to move out. Damon pushed up from the couch, opening the front door and raising an eyebrow at the sight of Elena.  “Hey, um, Stefan’s not here.”  How incredibly awkward.  “You can come in if you want, I’ll call and ask him where he is.”   

she  wasn’t  sure  how  ‘  engaged  life  ’    actually  suited  her .   elena  liked  to  be  in  the  middle  of  the  action ,  hence  her  going  to  med  school  and  starting  her  surgical  internship .   she  was  driven  by  purpose ,   by  knowing  she’d  be  doing  good  for  others  .     tasting  cakes  and  choosing  between  eggshell  and  off  white  china  plates  was  not  exactly  her  idea  of  a  great  time  .     but  stefan  .   stefan  was  an  angel ,     and  he  was  so  excited  by  the  idea  of  her  being  excited  .    how  could  she  not  play  along  ?     but ,   god  ,   he  could  at  least  be  on  time  for  the  appointments  he  made  for  them  .     “  oh ,  ”   she  blinked  ,   confused  at  first  before  realizing  he  had  no  real  idea  who  she  was  .  damon  salvatore ,   resident  bad  ass .   known  for  owning  a  bar  and  probably  drinking  most  of  its  inventory  itself  .    she  used  to  dream  of  him  paying  attention  to  her  when  she  was  a  dumb  teenager  --      funny  how  things  worked  out  .     “  sure  .   i’m  sure  he  won’t  be  long ,   it’s  not  like  him  to  be  late  when  we  have  plans  ,  ”   she  offered  him  a  smirk  before  stepping  into  the  house  ,  a  bit  awkward  even  though  she’d  been  in  the  house  a  billion  times  before  --    just  never  with  him  .      “  so ...  did  i  interrupt  something  important  ?   i  can  go  to  the  other  room ,   or  just  wait  in  my  car ,   it’s  fine  .   ”

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Do you want me to run?

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Well, what are you wearing?

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one year of elena gilbert ♡ day 10

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HAAAAAAA

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                                                          “ the  worst  feeling  is  the  moment  you  realize  you’ve  lost  yourself… ”