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Persecutor showed up

Living here with the host's ex is becoming worse and more stressful

A lot of us are ready to call it quits we're all consistantly at our limits

This isn't fun

This isnt a game

This is stressful and exhausting and dear god we keep splitting

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me: i really need to talk this out with someone 

my anxiety: ur coming off needy. isolate urself and handle it. all u need is U!

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“Moody Alpine Forests“ by | Zach Nichols

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We want more system friends!!

And it would be even cooler if you RPed because that's like a lot of our favourite pastimes!!

The body is 21 so no one who's body is under 18 sorry

We're an OSDD system with a severely autistic host so a lot of us are fictives! You can ask more in PMs

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Im gonna go feral oh my god

In the HEADSPACE alters can hurt other alters physically and shit

Its not fun shit

Not all interactions in the headspace are nice

Especially when an alter starts becoming a persecutor

Talking about shit going on between alters in the headspace doesnt make us fucking fake we have a lot of SHIT to deal with right now and are splitting a lot because of it

Can people just back off

Because "Oh well that didnt REALLY happen its just in your head youre not hurt youre fine"

Like the BODY might be fine but I AM NOT and that might be hard to understand but I am AT MY LIMIT

WE ALL FUCKING ARE

Please someone just give me some seretonin im so exhausted and upset

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For me, one of the saddest parts of having DID is when you switch in and your first instinct is to apologize for the behavior of another alter even if they're only being themselves and have done nothing wrong.

Clingy little? Sorry for being weird. Flamboyant alter? Sorry for being hyper. Sullen and sad boy? Sorry for being a downer.

It leaves us with a faint sense of "sorry the alter you want isn't present and sorry we can't be them :/" feeling. It sucks that even when we don't remember, for most of us our instinct is to apologize. For simply being.

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Systems super dead silent feeling fucking fake as hell haha what if i just made all this shit up

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Dino Icons for @babybottlez !

Like and reblog if used/saved. Credit tinypawprints

-Devin 🦇

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stop telling people who have abusive parents to “just leave” after they turn 18!!!!!!! it’s not that fucking simple!!!!!!!!!

i’ve been an adult for two years now and i STILL live in this hell hole. you know why? CONTROL. you can’t just walk out of the house and never look back like they do on tv. it doesn’t work that way. you take documents with you (that, if your parents are anything like mine, are locked up tight in a safe), you have to have enough money and a stable job and a place to go (which most victims are unable to get jobs due to mental/physical health or parent control), you have to move all your things out of their name (phone, car, etc). the list goes on. don’t you dare tell an adult victim that they’re just “not helping themselves”. i’m tired of hearing it.

adult victims of abusive parents: your abuse is still valid and i promise you there are those of us who understand and care.

(and before you try and pull the “here’s some suggestions” shit, my doctor has already met with a social worker with me. i’m stuck here for the time being. thanks for your concern but fuck off.)

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Please i want out if this house I just want out I don't want to live here anymore

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i need to become me // 3.24.2017

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peripheral // 5.27.2018

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dissociation.

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