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[traumagirl16]

i fixed fucking everything just to ruin it all

I CANT GET OVER IT

I can’t stop thinking about the past

i can’t i can’t i can’t

HOW DO I MOVE ON

how do i get better

how do i get over it

i hate everything i hate it so fucking much

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my life was finally good again

how did i end up in an even worse place

WHY DID I MESS UP EVERY THING

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i wish this was about a fucking girl

i wish this was about my brother

i wish this was about something

i just hate life i hate breathing i hate being i hate everything

everybody’s moving on and i’m stuck in this place i can’t get out of i can’t get over my past i can’t get over my mistakes i can’t picture a good future

there’s nothing that can change my mind

facts are facts

i’ve ruined my fucking life

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I JUST WANNA BE DEAD

That’s all i want

i hate this fucking life

i ruined everything

IM A WASTE OF FUCKING AIR I FUCKING HATE BEING HERE I HATE IT SO MUCH IDK WHY I CANT FUCKIJG KILL MYSELD I HAte myself so much

i hate looking in the mirror

I HATEEEEEE BRITNEY ASHLEY RODRIGUEZ

i can’t stand her i don’t want to be here

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why why why why why

WHY AM I STILL ALIVE

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i just ust want to dieeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee

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why tf did i text her mom

why tf did i knock on her door

why tf did i text her ex

WHY THE FUCK CANT I REMEMBER DOING THESE THINGs

WHO THE FUCJ DOES THEEE CRAZY THINFS

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how the fuck am i supposed to put the past behind me when it’s all i think about when it’s the reason im in the position i am now

i can’t get over it

WHY THE FUCK WAS I SO CRAZY

never in a million years would i say the shit i said sooooo why did i …..

it’s like a fucking demon was inside me

i want to fucking kill myself i hate myself so fucking much i can’t get over the fucking past no matter how hard i try i just fucking can’t

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i should’ve been put in a mental hospital for those 3 months

i should’ve been locked in a room or something

i was so fucking CRAZY what the fuck

why was my mind not working why didn’t i realize it

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what the fuck was i on????

why the fuck did i say those things

i don’t remember sending all these things

i was so fucking crazy it’s terrifying me

it’s so scary WHO WAS I

WHY DID I DO ALL THOSE THINGS WHY

that wasn’t me but i can’t take it back i cant fix any of it i ruined so many friendships i ruined myself

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every day i want to kill my self more

every day is harder than the last

i don’t know what to do

i ruined my entire future .

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i want to vomit every time i think about what i did

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august- november is a dream like who was that why’d i do that what the fuck was in me

i can’t even remember half the texts i sent, the people i met, the things i did

it’s all a scary nightmare but a dream at the same time

so many regrets so many BAD DECISIONS

who was i .

i wish i could take it all back

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WHAT THE FUCK DID I TO MY LIFEEE

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not sad not happy nothing i feel NOTHINGG

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yeah im depressed again reality has hit

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it’s so insane to me that most of the people you meet in life are just passing moments. you’ll know them for a brief period of time before they’re a stranger again and there’s absolutely nothing you can do about it because that is just how it’s meant to be..