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Oh, here we go again

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443 days

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cute relationship idea: you shut the fuck up and do what you're told like a good little cunt 🩷

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Drinking a drink that I used to have whenever I was in little space n I'm feeling ✨things ✨

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Another month later. Another month deeper into this darkness. This is gonna end me but I'll do it with a facade and a smile

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This is never gonna end

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Breaking the main foundation rule of you never let your guard down. You're always too much. Too much for anyone. They'll say you're not. But you are. You slowly erode their soul with your openness, and in doing so you erode your own. You should always be okay. be feeling better. be happy.

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Shatter glass snap plastic slice skin

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I feel like I'm sacrificing her childhood.

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It's been a while since I've been scared of how bad my mental health is.:(

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Too defeated to even make this into words :(

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When things feel crushing every couple of months. When do I eventually accept that something has to drastically change? When do I accept that just willing myself better isn't working. I scroll this blog and see those feelings every couple months and ? It's not gonna magically end?

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Everything has an expiration date and nothing is real and I'm so fucking tired to my core of feeling like this

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For now tho I want to drive off a bridge. So. Something to work on

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I have to get better, do better. For her. For her.

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The urge to sad post but also I want this to be a fucked up hot space. The dilemma

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I don't want to be equal. I will never ever doubt that You are above me, but kinda want every man you approve of to also be above me. Their ideas and opinions carrying just a little more weight than mine. Silly girls get so easily confused