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4x03 // 6x18

#who wore it better?

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How selfish, how fundamentally silly, that he should start wanting to live right when he ought to die.

Starling house

Alix E. Harrow

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Joseph Maclise (1815 - 1880)

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sam & dean are like the circus performers where one person throws knives at another person standing in front of a board

dean is the thrower and he’s like “why are you flinching” and sam is like “because you’re throwing knives at me” “so you don’t trust me not to hit you” “no i do i promise” and then dean hits sam with the knife and sam is crying and starts to walk away and dean is like “why are you leaving. do you hate me. i’m trying my best” and sam is like “of course not but you promise not to hit me yet you keep doing it. i don’t want to do this anymore it’s not safe” “we’re a duo i can’t do this without you. it’s the only thing i know how to do. if you didn’t flinch so much you wouldn’t move to where i’m throwing the knife” “okay you’re right i’m sorry” and then dean straps sam down so he can’t move and he still hits him and dean is like “i’m the worst thrower ever” and sam is bleeding out like “no you’re really good. sorry that i got blood on your knives” and dean reserves the right to nick sam if he pulls at the restraints

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''I got one thing, one thing, keeping me going.'' ↳ Sam Winchester

Supernatural | S5 EP17 : 99 Problems

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im getting really sick of people saying sam puts on a "mask" and beneath it is stone-cold apathetic vile and evil calculating mastermind. do you not have the capacity to understand not everything is a mask. that hes really just That empathetic and forgiving while also simultaneously scarily stoic

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supernatural, 2.21 "all hell breaks loose: part 1" | supernatural, 4.04 "metamorphosis" | big thief, "shoulders"

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Sylvia Plath, aged 18, journal entry #49, from "The Unabridged Journals of Sylvia Plath" (c. January-February 1951)

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— words from an untitled poem i found in a random poetry collection at a library book sale.

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Supernatural 12.04 American Nightmare

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(You’ve chosen to not remember this part.)

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the moment the teacup shattered

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some Sam side profile studies

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Pour one out for #sammy torture.