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[traveler54]

When I find home...

I want to heal my heart so I can pursue my dream of helping others heal. Because there's so much pain out there. Too much. And too many abhorrent creatures that condone abuse and abuse themselves. Boils my arteries. No one should ever be called disgusting names, told harmful language. Tossed around. And anyone that ever victim blames should feel every ounce of shame that they deserve. Feel it. Soak it alll in. Like a sponge. Although we are not our actions, you better believe they can be incredibly damaging to our existence and others. So really think before you talk, really think about it. Is calling someone an a**hole or b*tch worth it? Flipping that driver off? Being rude to your spouse? And if it is, how? Is it benefitting your 401k somehow? Or your steam account? Or your family? Although people are capable of possessing the qualities of a b*tch or an a**hole, don't say it. The trophy of their actions will come to them in the perfect time. And I understand it hurts to restrain yourself, believe me, I know. I get mistreatment everywhere. Work, at the grocery store, on the road, in my extended family, the house I'm told I'm supposed to call home. The more you train yourself to restrain those vicious, nasty words and privately cope through the abuse they caused whether intentional or not in a healthy manner, the stronger you will be. Of course, escape the abuse and protect yourself at all cost if you can. Try to be the best, healthiest, strongest person you know, because you need it and others do, too. Let those who refuse to change the error of their way, suffer, and those who just need to be corrected and change, grow. we're fallible.

Try to do your best today. Because every moment matters.

[traveler54]

Traveler54 2.o

*Opens door*

Traveler54: Hello, PartnerInSicknessAndInHealth. My heart appears to be bleeding out. I suspect the cause might be the bullet hole in my chest. Could you help me get some towels? Also, where did that firearm come from that's in your hand?

PartnerInSicknessAndInHealth: Shut up and stuff your feelings until you can gain composure. I can't help you emotionally. I'm done. Figure it out on your own. Also, if you hum and ho with your feelings spilling out and shed tears, expecting me to ask you what's wrong, don't respond unless you're okay. Because those tears, or whatever you call those foolish things, make my blood boil. So get to the mess yourself. *Tosses towel*

Traveler54: Yes, master. I'll clean this mess up right away. I'll also start programming Traveler54 2.o. They'll never shed another tear for you, causing such inconvenience.

Try to have a beautiful day. Beauty's out there.

[traveler54]

Behind closed door #54.

*Knock* *Knock*... *Opens door* Hi.

I don't know anyone on here, just joined today. Trying to find a platform where no one finds me. Every soul around me believes me when I say that I'm okay and I'd like to keep it that way. But I'm really not. For now, as I continue to chameleon my way through the flames of narcissism and abuse, this is going to be an avenue to confide in absolutely no one. For me. I deplete myself for the others, so. Hi. Come on in. It's just me... Traveler54. Have a good day to any soul out there who reads this. I'm sure you need good. We all do.