Lenny- Nonbinary Butch Lesbian - Autistic - They/He Hi I’m Lenny and I'm too old for this
Don't wanna be here? Send us removal request.
Text

ok this chewable pencil topper is kind of what I'm talking about?? I want like. a comfortable ball shaped thing lol. but like not as a pencil topper
ok idk if this is going to sound weird or not and is kind of embarrassing for me to admit to BUT I really wish there was like. some kind of adult version of something with a similar function to a pacifier without actually being a pacifier. I know there's chewelry but it doesn't really satisfy the exact same urge simce most aren't really built for sucking specifically and even though I do get some kind of residual sucking urge the level of infantalization that comes with a pacifier just really isn't my thing and the idea of using one at all makes me recoil to the point that even mentioning the concept is something I don't want to do. even though I experience involuntary age regression that kind of stuff is a bit too baby-ish for me especially as I still consider myself an adult. that being said sucking on my fingers definitely isn't ideal or really sanitary so I kinda wish there was a necklace similar to how chewelry works but that's meant to be sucked on rather than chewed on to help adults with that residual urge. I kinda feel like...ok have you ever seen or had a cat who was weaned too early so they nurse on soft fabric LOL that's how I feel and I want something more subtle to satisfy that urge
13 notes
·
View notes
Text
ok idk if this is going to sound weird or not and is kind of embarrassing for me to admit to BUT I really wish there was like. some kind of adult version of something with a similar function to a pacifier without actually being a pacifier. I know there's chewelry but it doesn't really satisfy the exact same urge simce most aren't really built for sucking specifically and even though I do get some kind of residual sucking urge the level of infantalization that comes with a pacifier just really isn't my thing and the idea of using one at all makes me recoil to the point that even mentioning the concept is something I don't want to do. even though I experience involuntary age regression that kind of stuff is a bit too baby-ish for me especially as I still consider myself an adult. that being said sucking on my fingers definitely isn't ideal or really sanitary so I kinda wish there was a necklace similar to how chewelry works but that's meant to be sucked on rather than chewed on to help adults with that residual urge. I kinda feel like...ok have you ever seen or had a cat who was weaned too early so they nurse on soft fabric LOL that's how I feel and I want something more subtle to satisfy that urge
#txt#autism#agere#i think it goes without saying that theres A LOT of stigma that comes with being an adult who uses a pacifier too and like#i know some people are able to move past that but uh. not me LOL#also the uh. nipple bit feels to big LOL it looks uncomfortable. also i heard theyre bad for your teeth?#size and mouth feel is an issue for me with chewelry too i havent really found one that satisfies the urge im talking about
13 notes
·
View notes
Text

my cute sanrio pill organizer i got at daiso back in december ^__^
5 notes
·
View notes
Text
a lot of the time when I get in what I think would be considered a regressed state of mind I struggle to feed myself or do basic tasks without assistance from my partner ;__; which can make life difficult...its especially hard when I'm working a job and I lose a lot of my adult functioning and can barely even put together sentences
#txt#agere#i feel bad relying on people but i struggle to care for myself sometimes#one of those things where its hard to tell whats autism and whats age regression and if theres even a difference in my mind
0 notes
Text
my little pony cartoons give me comfort. my little pony cartoons exist because ronald reagan reduced regulations on advertising to children and companies like hasbro took advantage of that to manipulate kids into watching children's media that was designed to make them want toys. my brain is comforted by toy advertisements. my life is an existential crisis
I struggle so hard with being an anticapitalist while also having my biggest childhood comforts being inherently capitalistic in nature 😭😭😭 wtf am I supposed to do...
#txt#my loyalty to brands like pokemon and sonic because of my childhood with them are part of a businesses financial plan#this feels very bad
11 notes
·
View notes