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It makes me so angry to know that you can look at me and not feel a single bit of pain, when I’m over here screaming at the thought of you.

(via letters-from-alex)

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The real difficulty is to overcome how you think about yourself.

Maya Angelou (via psych2go)

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It hurts to wait for someone who’s never coming back again.

3 am thoughts (via suspend)

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“Make a wish,” They said. My first thought Was you Sitting by my side. So I wished For your body. I blew out the candles. I waited. And waited. And waited… You never came. Did you forget About me too? Did you forget When I was born? Are you unhappy That we met? Are you ungrateful That I exist? Nothing would’ve made My special day more special, Like seeing your face One more time…

Happy Birthday to Me (via letters-from-alex)

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H.M.D ❣️

I remember the first day I seen you December 18, 2011,it was a quick glance and you disappeared. Even though the meeting was brief I knew I loved you. January 9,2012 was our second encounter, it was touching and heart breaking. We knew we wouldn't be reunited til August. So I had no choice but to wait, it made me excited and sad. I tried to avoid the thought you for a while, act like you didn't exist. March 7,2012 I worked up the courage to see you again but when I did I was speechless. You looked amazing, breathtaking. I decided I wouldn't wait til August to speak with you. Our conversation were awesome, even though sometimes I didn't understand what you were trying to say. I began to count down each day how close we were. Then April 20 I got really sick, didn't think I'd make it to our date. I wasn't able to eat and all I did was sleep. I went to the hospital my sugar had dropped, but was told not to worry. I was doing just fine. The Alabama summer heat was some time impossible to deal with. July 31, 2012 I start getting pain. Once again I'm in the hospital worried. I was told to relax because you were coming. I wanted hours for you,i started to become skeptical. Nobody knew what they were talking about you weren't going to show up. Laid in bed for hours hoping, wishing,& praying you'll show. Then August 1,2012 at 12:04 P.M you decided to make your grand entrance. You were so we're so tiny and gorgeous. That day I found out what it was like to fall in love.

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Love Letter ?

Thank you for being you. showing that I am not perfect and even tho I grew some, I still have a long way to go. Thank you for showing me that even tho I am happy with a person I shouldn't have to wonder if they love me. I give my love and all of my love even when I'm not really happy with the person. Thank you constantly making me feel stupid for loving you, but it's okay to be a little stupid as long as you're not stupid forever. Thank you I truly appreciate you showing me that regardless of how much a mess up you'll remind me of how stupid I can be when I fall in love. How sometimes I do just a little too much & accept a how lot more. Thank you for telling little lies and keeping stuff from me. Allowing me to learn to always pay attention. Thank you for showing me that when you aren't in the right with me, you'll shut us out. Now I'm not just talking about me I'm talking about my daughter now. Thank you for reminding me that she comes first and I should never have to explain to her why yet another man may not be around. It's okay to love a man but I need to be more cautious on who I allow my daughter to love. Thank you for breaking me just a little bit more. Thank you for allowing me to feel love again, reminding of how good it feel. By no means am I blaming you for anything because am far from perfect and I know that. I've done things and certain ways when I shouldn't. Just know I am thankful for every moment we had together.

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Love Letter 💋

I love you, I've told you countless times I love you a lot. I love you the point it changes my mood when we speak. I want to with you physically as much as I can, don't even have to speak or touch just to be in our presence is enough. I become sick if we don't talk, physically and mentally sick. I get scared at the thought of us not being together. I speak of you 24/7, I look for ways to bring you up in a conversation (don't judge me). I just think of you all the time and I want everybody to know how great you. I be counting down the time til I'll be able to see or speak to you. I love you so much I've gone and willing to go out my comfort zone to show you how I feel for you.

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Love Letter💋

I love you because you make me happy. Hearing your voice, seeing your face, your scent makes my heart swell. You are one of the best things that ever happened to be for multiple reasons. You showed me that it's okay to let somebody in. You make me feel comfortable, I am able to be myself 100%, whether that's me sad, happy, mad, frustrated, and empty. Excepting all my flaws and not judging me one bit. You make me feel beautiful all the time regardless of what I look like. I've never felt so confident in how looked before. There's nothing like being loved by a man who makes you feel like you are perfect. You helped remember that there's a possibility of finding love after being hurt. Not all ends are really just an end, it's a beginning to something better. I love you because you trust me no questions asked. You believe my heart is yours and nobody else can have it. I love you because you showed me what a relationship should be like. Without communication then you have nothing. As a single mother you loved me, there are men who accept females who are a packaged deal. I don't have worry about not being able to find a relationship that won't last because a man doesn't want to deal with the "baggage". Thank you for loving me as I am, but also helping grow into a better woman. I love you for making me want to have a future with somebody. Making wish one day I will get married, have more children, and beautiful home. Those are things I haven't wanted in a very long time for multiple reason. You are truly an amazing man, I give you my heart & all I want is a promise that you won't break it. XoXoXo

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you weren’t right for me but god, you could’ve been.

you were right for me in all the wrong ways. (via uhnsaids)

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Everybody has a battle they fight

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Thin Line Between Love & Hate ?

Have you ever loved someone with all your heart ? Have you ever hated someone with every bone in your body ? Have you ever had that be the same person ? The thought of them makes you cringe The sight of them gives you butterflies You want to yell and scream Fight and curse their name Then your see their smile They say you name they touch you ...you melt And you fall in love all over again Your brain pushing Your heart pulling An internal war Eating you alive A confused pain Not knowing which way to turn Does the hate consume you Or does love truly conquer all ?

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Two minutes before New Year’s Day. ‘I will kiss you later,’ he said, As his hands slipped away from mine. When the clock struck 12, I watched him get kissed by Someone Else. He looked at me with tired eyes. ‘I’m sorry,’ he said. I forgave him. I felt like a second choice. Three days later. We had sex for the first time. He looked at me, Then whispered in my ear, ‘I love you.’ I looked at him, With a smile, And whispered, ‘I love you too.’ I was finally his. I finally felt like a first choice. Two days later. The Someone Else told me, ‘We have sex almost every day, We did it this morning, We did it yesterday too.’ The day after our first time… Did I mean nothing to him? I felt like a second choice again. I confronted him, Cried on his shoulder. Asked, ‘Why?’ No answer. Just a frown, And an ‘I’m sorry.’ ‘It won’t happen again,’ he promised. ‘I love you. I never meant to hurt you.’ I forgave him. I felt like a first choice once more. The next day. We held hands. We cuddled. We kissed. We made love. I opened up to him. I gave him my soul. I gave him my heart. I made him feel like a first choice. The same night. He let go of me. He walked away from me, And ran toward Him. He left me for his first choice. He abandoned me for Him. I felt like a second choice over and over. Three months later. They’ve been together ever since. They’ve been living happily ever after. They’ve been each other’s happiness. I can’t find happiness, Because he took a part of me with him. I thought I was his first choice, Because he was mine. I loved him, And I thought he loved me too.

Always a Second Choice (via letters-from-alex)

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"Right guy,wrong time"

JoJo- I Hate Love So this goes back to after I graduated high school, but before I had my daughter. After my first heart break, but before my happily ever after. This guy was older by four years to be exact. He was definitely out of the norm of what I dated age wise. He was a cute, tall, chocolate, with glasses, and the cutest smile ever. I met during what I use to call my down fall. My uncle just died and I found out that I have PCOS, so my chances of having children were slim. So I was very anti-commitment, I wanted no emotional connection to nothing. I met him through my sister at a party and we clicked. We hung out and talked about everything, he was explained to me about him job and his life path. I don't know what it was about him but something in me wanted him. I think it was because he was different then most guys I attracted. He had a plan and he refused to let anything stop him. He also listened to what I had to say and conversed with me as if I was a human. He was genuinely interested in me not just for sex. After our time, I disappeared to the New York, for a while I wondered what if. He was definitely an awesome man, might even say he was perfect. At the time I was too scared to stay. I wasn't ready to fall for somebody who might leave me or l would eventually let down. He became an example for traits I want in a man. I feel anything less then that would be me settling.