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“Resurrection”

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“Fluffy clouds look sweet, do you think rain clouds taste sweet too? I hope they do.”

This has been a Rodeo appreciation post

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So if Bilbo was saying "He was... He was my..." is because of -cultural differences,- wouldn't that kinda imply that Bilbo's acknowledging that there was definitely a thing going on between them, but he didn't know what would be the most understandable word for it? Like... they may have been courting by Hobbit standards, but were they by Dwarf standards? Was that even a TALK that he and Thorin had?? A serious, sit-down, "we wanna marry but how do we go about it" kind of talk???

“…wouldn’t that kinda imply that Bilbo’s acknowledging that there was definitely a thing going on between them, but he didn’t know what would be the most understandable word for it?”

YES, i think so. unfortunately, i don’t think there was much discussion between Bilbo and Thorin about what was between them. if there was a sexual relationship i headcanon that it was of the “both parties think the other party is just here for the physical” variety. i think it’s just as likely though that they never had a sexual relationship, though i believe Thorin at least entertained romantic feelings for Bilbo before they reached the mountain. whether he acted on this romantic feelings is hard to say. there was no time for them to talk about them, not with everything else that was going on, and the fact that after entering the mountain, Thorin went mad.

“…they may have been courting by Hobbit standards, but were they by Dwarf standards?”

I don’t think they were courting by hobbit standards, but I DO think the mithril shirt was a courting gift, by dwarf standards. Thorin’s affection/romantic feelings for Bilbo were brought front and center by the dragon sickness; that’s not to say that Thorin considered Bilbo part of the hoard, but that the sickness lowered his inhibitions, clouded his judgment, and flooded him with delusions of grandeur - Thorin literally thought he and Bilbo were going to rule Erebor together, and that everything in the mountain was as much Bilbo’s as his. Thorin placed them on equal planes, both figuratively and literally (the throne dias). 

The sickness stripped Thorin of his ability to reason, to think rationally and critically. if Thorin held a secret desire in his heart for Bilbo to remain in Erebor after the quest, by his side as his consort, then the sickness allowed him to believe he had already achieved this/could achieve it without even consulting with Bilbo rationally on the subject. again, not to imply that the sickness made Thorin possessive of Bilbo - we saw no evidence for this. But his illness did make him act in ways that he never would otherwise, including treating Bilbo as if they had already decided his place was at Thorin’s side, elevated above the dwarves in a position of honor and authority.

Bilbo, on the other hand, didn’t realize the extent of Thorin’s feelings for him until Raven Hill. he might have guessed at it, he might have wondered, but i don’t believe he allowed himself to confront it until after Thorin died. Thorin’s behavior in the mountain would have only been strange ,erratic, and worrying for Bilbo - but he’s no fool, he would have wondered why Thorin didn’t order him to search for the Arkenstone, why Thorin never suspected he had taken it, why Thorin doubted all his kin, but never Bilbo. and i don’t believe Bilbo realized he loved Thorin romantically until Thorin was dying/died. 

With all of that, with everything that was there but unsaid, all that could have happened between them but never did, Bilbo struggled to classify his relationship with Thorin. More than a friend, but not in anything other than feelings and unspoken (but understood) affection. Thorin was his… his what? What’s Bilbo supposed to say about someone he loved, who loved him, that died too soon for them to acknowledge their mutual feelings. 

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Some more Out of context Something to Start With memes that nobody asked for *insert jazz hands*

Memes referring my Hobbit fic 'Something to Start With', linked here on AO3:

Something to Start With

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"Not all men"

You're right

Argonian dreamboat Scouts-Many-Marshes would never

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Oblivion Affirmations part 1

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finished all the flat colours on this piece and some of the details, now i just have to do all the shading and tiny details.

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Hircines ring for multifantober / tesinktober day 11 : artifact

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Aspect of Hircine

Art for The Elder Scrolls: Legends

*Artist Unknown* If anyone knows the artist comment below

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Moon-kissed child of Hircine: / Accept mine proffered blessing do / So thou wilt never flee or rue. / From faun to fear-bringer, / Nadir to night-singer / Even the odds and return those who huntest thou to basest parts / Hearts and all.

My Skyrim Dragonborn, Vakna True-Thunder shortly after turning an unlucky band of highwaymen into a three-course meal. Wanted to make an illustration alluding to her history with lycanthropy and the Daedric Prince of Prey over the course of a decade. After all, where is the sport in hunting an unarmed prisoner on the run--a young messenger for the Jarl of Windhelm himself who had yet to see even her sixteenth winter? The pursuing Dominion jailers and hounds never had any intention of playing fair, blood moon or not, so Hircine offered the desperate girl the power to even these odds and make his forest a proper hunting ground once more. And in years since, she has certainly never let this power go to waste.

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sketch of the brattiest man in the commonwealth

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This was rushed but i just HAD to draw them

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leave or join

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Meet chicharrón, my stinky little rat from path of titans!