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Inshallah they find him.

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He would. He absolutely would

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I thought I had something

But it quickly fell apart...

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Undertale x Hazbin hotel

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Yo mr white a romulan warbird just decloaked off the port bow

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The Guilt

In the back of my mind, it's always there

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useless ray of goddamn sunshine

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Mouthwashing if Anya told Swansea instead of Curly

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think my favorite part of mouthwashing is how it captures the feeling of crushing, unavoidable, unproductive guilt that comes with schizophrenia. like yeah jimmy's classically crazy and has delusions and wants to fuck the horse that he is also hallucinating. but also he feels so much guilt that he cant actually take any real responsibility because that necessitates taking some responsibility for everything he did and acknowledging he was doing bad things on purpose.

he can't differentiate between the guilt he should be feeling because of what he has done and the guilt he has constructed for himself in his deluded reality where this is all curly's and anya's fault.

it's just an extremely good parallel to (at least my own personal) experiences with schizophrenic guilt changing everything that i experience into something that seems inescapable and inevitable when i get stuck in an episode

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Sorry but can I talk about how realistic Jimmy is as an abuser?? Like the scene at the birthday party where he's yelling at curly.

Jimmy can never accept anything, he can't accept the idea of losing his job, or getting a new one (SAing a woman and getting her pregnant because of it, injuring his only friend, fucking over everyone else in the ship, ect.) so instead of thinking of his future or making plans or LITERALLY ANYTHING ELSE he simply lashes out at curly.

He shames him and degrades him like he had any part in the situation and because he's deeply insecure he convinces himself curly is an arrogant man with an Inflated ego (tho i feel there is some truth to that) and up-turned nose at the "working class". When in reality curly is simply a human trying to make his way in the world. Thus absolving himself of any guilt for what he did and adding in more to the "take responsibility" aspect of the game.

And like a real abuser he attacks the people around himself to feel better, because his life is shit. He's surrounded by people who have had hardship and struggles but still try and live their life (anya still trying to be the best coworker she can be on the ship despite living with her abuser, Swansea being a sober man who puts in the work of bettering himself and being a productive member of society, diasuke finally taking up an internship and trying his hand at a trade) and he is so mad about it.

Because he simply cannot accept his life as his own, he wants to view all hardships as unavoidable and out of his hands. Much like the ship, he steers himself into danger and when others around try and help he turns off the auto pilot. It doesn't matter that he's affecting everyone else because he only cares about his own feelings. No one is allowed to try and be better because it makes him feel bad. He feels inadequate so he has to pull everyone down to his level, if he cant be happy then no one can, and that's what truly makes him an awful person, he's rotten from the inside out.

I truly hate this man so much someone help