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Crushing the little joy that I had

As a slightly pessimistic person/someone who likes to whine about a lot of things, I don’t find it easy to be joyful about many things. In the few times that I do find joy, I just hope that you can be happy with me or for me. It’s just really saddening for me since I wanted to be happy about this one thing and share it with you but you don’t even support me. I mean I get it. This is not the best option there is out there. Or you might just be joking. But my gosh am I trying to be happy with this simple thing so please just let me be. Why do you have to crush the little joy that I had and dampen the mood?

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Share ko lang naman sana. Nainvalidate pa ako haha. Goodnight

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Ughh I'm starting to feel suffocated in here. I want my own space. Like I want to exercise but I can't even do that because someone's always somewhere in this house. I just realized that my routine is highly affected by my family. Or maybe I'm just the problem. I can't seem to be productive when I'm around other people huhu I just want to have my own space sometimes😭

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Do I have to walk on eggshells around u. I don't fucking have the energy for this

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Bought new oven today wooh 💸💸💸

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Plans

This is just a reminder to myself to diligently save money!! This is so that I could quit being a corporate slave LOL and do what I want for a while. Maybe I could take a break for around 2-3 months to go volunteer somewhere. I would really really like to devote my time into helping with conservation efforts so note to self: SPEND. YOUR. MONEY. WISELY. !!!

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Instead of reading about things through books just to make myself feel something, wouldn't it be better to go out there and experience it myself? Sounds really easy to tell myself that but how difficult is it to actually do it lol. Go self!

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IDK what’s up with me but that guy will always have a special place in my mind, I guess. As much as I want to not mind him, the mention of his name is enough to make me feel conscious or like make me go strolling down memory lane. We had such a brief connection but I guess him being the first person I got close to really brought him a long way lol. If I stretch it a little bit, I guess I could call him my TOTGA. Given that I’m someone without much experience in the romantic aspect, now when I have time to look back, the what-ifs drive me just a lil’ bit crazy. Lol. Thoughts like ‘what happened to us?’ ‘why did it suddenly become that way?’ ‘Is it me who did something wrong’ Idk