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Credit purrt4sticly just need the links with name in the signs

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wisteria lilies

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Rick and Morty divider for the TISM

Icons aren’t mine but reblogs are still appreciated

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Ranting again

Today wasn't great again, but ranting here makes me feel better so that's what I'm doing. My friend who passed awhile ago, their having her memoration party today. Not only did I find out it was today, I can't go. And several other people I knew also weren't really invited or put into the google doc and I just feel so useless, I feel like a bad friend. She was such an incredibly sweet person and not being there almost feels like I'm not there for her. I'm probably going to do something separately but still. She was such an amazing person and at our age she had so much ahead of her. To that friend, I'm sorry. You deserved better than a party, better than that you deserved to live all together, and although I never met your mother I've heard so much about her. She was so proud of you, we all were. I still am. You did so much for only being 15. And I'm so sorry that this February you'll stay 15. I really am. I wanted to go to the school library for a bit to distract myself but they wouldn't let me, they said since this is a real class they couldn't just send me. That just made me feel worse.

I do want to dedicate part of this to a few people who've been really supportive of me when I haven't felt well. One obviously is someone too sweet for their own good. But I don't mean that in a backhanded way, with care like that I don't doubt they'll really get somewhere in life.

To my dear genderfluid buddy, you have been so supportive of any panic attacks or issues i've had. you've also been really understanding and I appreciate what you do so so so so much.

And too, one of my closest friends, you hugged me after reading my last rant. That was so sweet, it meant so much to me you have no clue.

and lastly, if the school lunch ladies keep giving me less food cause I look like a skinny cis woman, i'm probably going to starve to death cause its hardly filling and I will protest.

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So I have no one to talk to so I’m gonna vent out my problems on social media like a loser.

Today was not really a great day for me I guess so like,

First,, ate hardly anything due to a delay and the school lunch being pretty much inedible and making my stomach feel weird.

Spanish class was kinda just not fun,, kid who sits next to me was like being a huge bitch like usual. He talked over me when I was answering the teacher even after I pointed out how he was shouting out every answer I kid you not I was almost finished saying the answer when he repeated it faster and louder than me, and when I yelled his name he just started laughing. Then the Spanish teacher made me change something that was OBVIOUS because I finished so fast which pissed me off. Geez sorry for understanding the material I guess?

And then my history period the two boys I sit with and their friend were just being dicks. Purposely misgendering me because I had my pronoun pin on, and talking extremely loudly even when I asked them to stop (I sit in the middle and we were working on ASSESSMENT PREP THAT PERIOD.) I told them that it was giving me a headache and I was already nauseous because one was going on about how he watched a detail bottom surgery video and was giving the other kid the details when I’m very easily nauseous and right next to them. So they were repeatedly misgendering me, continuously making me overstimulated. Then after study hall,, which I was thrilled to go to my art club because it’s one of the only things I look forward to every week as a student plus I wanted to have the teacher print me a sburb poster and guess what? It’s cancelled! They cancelled the club without telling Google classroom! They left a note on the door and OF COURSE by the time I get back outside all the busses already left, and I’m stuck outside freezing because there’s snow everywhere for the next 30ish minutes. And then I decided I finally wanted to log into Netflix and then I try and it doesn’t work, so I told them it didn’t work

And they said THAT I WAS DOING IT WRONG. Even though I copied and pasted it, and I told them that,, screen recorded me trying too,, and then my mom starts going on about why I was trying to long in at school. NOT ONLY AM I OUTSIDE FREEZING ITS 30 MINUTES PAST SCHOOL HOURS? for someone who’s always yelling at ME to use common sense I guess she isn’t so fucking bright herself. And then my friend (love him) encouraged me to tell this person I like them, so I did. And you know what I got? Rejection. That’s what I fucking got, I got rejected. Saw that coming but still kinda hurts,, and even worse I come home from my grandparents to find my family got my comfort food without me even though they KNOW it makes me upset when they get it without me. And ontop of all that my friend who passed aways birthday is coming up so between all of this I’m dealing with the grief from her loss,, I just I’m really tired and upset. Plus I have so much work to do tomorrow.

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School field trip core

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Editing homestuck sprites to be my friends, he looks so silly

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I love my cat