turtleisnotmeanttobee

[turtleisnotmeanttobee]

When he said it, I couldn't breath.

I dont know how react. My tears was about to fall but i thought I have no right to cry.

I also dont want you to feel responsible of me hurting.

As soon as we part ways, I wanted to release the cracken and let there be flood of tears!, but nothing comes out. Just plain weakness. Staring at nowhere but feeling of being somewhere not in this world.

In a world were we are together.

I found my self feeling happy and sad while we were in the tube. I was holding your arm and you start holding my fingers then held my hand.

It felt nice and had the second feeling you're mine.

I also felt sad realising you're completely not mine anymore.

You said being with me it felt natural.

But Hey! That doesn't matter anymore.

Whatever Natural feeling is that, It will just be buried somewhere in my memory

[turtleisnotmeanttobee]

Its not your fault. Im not upset, im just sad.

Was it because it felt like i waited for you and you just said you have to run home?

Was it because i wanted to see you and you didnt even ask me to wait just 5 mns to see me?

Or was it because i expected already that we can have a little bit of time alone without worrying someone will knock at door ?

I probably expected .

i hope i can stay this way so i wont be wanting to see you.

Then we can avoid what need to be avoided.

Btw. Thanks for the good luck.

[turtleisnotmeanttobee]

How can it be possibly feels sooo good and perfect with you and not with anyone else.?

Its like my body feels soo comfortable with yours.

The way you touch me either gently or roughly makes me weak and slowly giving up my body for you to have.

My hands drop down I couldn't move them, its like they're saying "All yours".

I could hear your lips calling mine to land on yours.

Our tongue feels like dancing when we kiss.

Weird it may sound, this description so surreal,

Yet, that's the emotion, what I truly feel.