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So, I think it's time for a break. I wasn't going to even say anything, but I do consider a lot of my mutuals friends and I know like if one of my internet friends just disappears, it does make me worried. I know it's probably just they've got something going on, but it is always nicer when they say something. So I wanted to come back to just say goodbye.

Everything is fine, like nothing's wrong. This isn't like my usual reactive thing where I'm in a bad mood or upset about something and I just am like, "I'M LEAVING." I've been thinking about this for a bit and I do think it's something that will be good for me. I spend entirely too much time on it. We were joking and one day appleatcha was saying like, every time I did something that she thought I shouldn't do (I think maybe it was apologizing, I don't remember though, honestly, but either way it wasn't like serious, to be clear) that she needed to find a way to restrict my Tumblr usage by like, so many minutes. It was in no way a serious suggestion or something she wanted to actually do, but just the idea of having my ability to post on Tumblr restricted like that made me cry. Like, that's too much.

I haven't really been super active on them lately, but maybe if I'm not spending y'know, 8+ hours a day posting on Tumblr I'll have more time to do other stuff, but I will still be maintaining my sideblogs for my poetry, pictures, quotes from books I'm reading, etc. I may end up making a new account and transferring ownership of those sideblogs to my new account, just so I don't have to come on and see my dashboard here and feel tempted to start using it again. I'm not sure yet, we'll see how it goes. Maybe in a couple of months or like a year or something, maybe I'll feel like I'm at a point where I can participate on here in a way that is healthier. But right now I can't and I really do just need to leave.

I love all of you. I'm sorry for all of the times I've been shitty to people here. I wish everyone the best in life. If you really want to stay in touch, my Discord is tussive and my Telegram is blasesaint and I'm tussive pretty much everywhere else. I'm not a hard person to find lol. Much love. <3<3<3

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Seeing people genuinely use the term clanker is so cringe.

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I love how blackpilled you are. 😍

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Ugh, my Chromecast stopped working. Oh well, I will fix it in a bit. I am going to take a nap, I think.

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Eric Dever - April 27th, 2020, oil on canvas, 45.7 × 61 cm

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I'm permafried.