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My happy place 🐶💕 (at Pawsome Dog Cafe)

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Finding paradise wherever I go. 🏝🌊 (at Samal Island, Davao)

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My happy place 🐶💕 (at Pawsome Dog Cafe)

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Why do you still have a hold on me? 😔Akala ko I'm doing good at moving on. Akala ko I'm feeling better. Pero two nights ago I found myself crying for the same reason. Two nights ago I started having fever, I started vomiting. I didn't know what to do all I know is I wanted to call you. I just needed someone to be there for me at ikaw pa rin yung nasa isip ko. 😥 Yung feeling ko unti-unti na akong nakakarecover pero just one thought of you napaisip ako ulit "What did I do wrong?" "Bakit napagod ka at bigla na lang hindi naging masaya?" Bakit nandito pa rin ako? Kailangan na talaga kitang kalimutan. I should let go of you which will mean letting go of the pain and memories as well. This will be the last time I'll be crying over you. Mahal pa rin kita at sobrang sakit na. 😞

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ik mis je 😬

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If I have to read this everyday, again and again.

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Ohana ✨

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One day I will be able to think of you without getting sad anymore. I will be able to look at you without getting hurt anymore. I will be able to talk to you and not missing you anymore. Even though we did not end up together, even though we did not end up well, please know that I am not angry. Please know that I’m sorry for everything. I hope one day I will be able to know the answers to my questions “Why are you mad at me? Why do you hate me so much?” And I hope one day we will meet again, we will talk again with the new version of ourselves and we will remain as good friends.

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You were my favorite. Our story is my favorite.

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We both love adventures. :( How could I possibly forget all of these? As I went over our photos, I realized that in a span of 1 year, we had so many memories together. We’ve been to many places together. There were so many “firsts” with you. As I look back, I still smile remembering how happy you made me, remembering how happy we were during those moments. 

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I remember this. I remember your surprises. I remember you coming home every weekend to be with me. :(

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I am just simple but I have flaws. I have lots of them. But I know there will be a person who will understand me, who will accept me, who will love me completely. I hope there will be a person who will not give up on me.

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I hope the if the next one comes he will love me unconditionally and will accept for who I am especially my flaws. I hope he will not leave me every night thinking if I'm hard to love, if I'm not worthy to be loved. I hope when then next one comes, he will treat me with respect in every way. Because I'm that kind of person. Because when I choose to love a person I don't just love the good parts, I choose to love the bad parts too. And I will stay. No matter how hard it could be. I will stay. I think that's the reason why It's so painful when people choose to leave me.

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I still miss you. I still think of you when I wake up in the morning. 😞

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July 31, 2016.

Exactly a year ago today was our first date. I can still remember everything. I remember you fetched me in my tita’s house at 3:30 pm. I remember the moment I went inside the car you offered me ice cream to cool down my mood because I had a fight with my sister. I remember I picked Mcflurry over choco sundae. I remember you asked me “ready ka na ba sa first date natin?” and I was surprised because I didn’t expect it to be a date since you only asked me to go to church at St. Joseph with you. I remember you whispered saying you wanted to show me your Sunday best. I remember we held hands. I remember that was the first time I attended mass on a Sunday not with a family member. I remember I asked you “saan na tayo pupunta?” I remember you answered “ako na ang bahala basta sama ka lang sa akin"I remember we lit candles at Fort Pilar. I remember you bought me a balloon which I hesitated to hold at first but then I realized it was a sweet gesture. It was something to be appreciated. I remember we went to the mall you bought your stuff for the travel. I remember you were cracking jokes on me and we were enjoying each other’s company. I remember I couldn’t hide the smile on my face. I remember you brought me to a Japanese restaurant. I remember I told you I don’t know how to use chop sticks and I remember you saying eating Japanese food with spoon and fork is fine. I remember things were getting more awkward that night but we both liked the awkwardness so much. I remember I started to see the other version of you. I started to open my eyes on you. I remember you had to bring me home on time so you could ask me out on a date again. I remember our first date became a Sunday routine. 💭✨

And I miss everything now. I miss you.