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G C Y C O U S I N .

❝ you want ME to lie to andrew. ❞ right now the word fear is an understatement for what he’s feeling. he’s already imagining what the other twin will do to him once he finds out cousin nicky here lied to him. he doesn’t even think andrew wouldn’t believe him. and if he did, he’d find out by himself eventually. nicky would just be prolonging him discovering the truth. 

a sigh before he finally agrees. ❝ yeah, okay, fine. and aaron, when i die, tell my boyfriend i love him. i’d appreciate it. but we should probably think of a better lie. uh…maybe i dared you to jump down the stairs and you messed up? dunno. ❞

❛   ━━━━   i’d  never  do  anything  you  ask  me .     he  knows  this .  ❜     is  nothing  ever  simple ?     apparently  fucking  not .     aaron  sighs ,     drops  the  ice - pack  from  his  face  with  irritation .     he  doesn’t  want  to  die  either ,    nicky ,     stop  being  so  selfish ,     damn .     you  know ,     punching  those  guys  felt  pretty  great  for  a  little  while ,     before  he  walked  into  the  dormitory  and  realised ,     oh  shit ,     andrew  lives  here  too  and  it’s  bad  enough  he  got  beaten  to  nearly  a  pulp ,     but  he  started  it .     andrew  will  smell  the  dishonesty  the  minute  he  walks  through  the  fucking  door .

❛   fuck  it .     fuck  it ,     nicky .     i’m  moving  to  canada  and  changing  my  name  to  ralph .   ❜

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ANGER TYPE TEST

F I R E . your anger burns like a fire, destroying everything in its path. your anger is ferocious but has no direction. once you are angry, anything and everything is your target. like when a bull sees red. your hot-headed thinking makes all logic and rational disappear. you flip out and what's done, is done. there will be no turning back.

tagged by @gcycousin (basically). tagging : @courtqueen ,  @pipesdream ,  @pipesbomb  & @irestruck .

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G C Y C O U S I N . 

fetches a new ice pack from the fridge. he has a stockpile in case, and they all end up needing one eventually. ❝ OHHH. now see, you probably could fight them all, but i’m glad you didn’t! ❞ nicky’s already made a bet with someone ( probably allison or renee. he forgets right now. ) that one of the twins or both of them would do that this year. butu he’s finding himself very happy that he hasn’t won that bet yet. ❝ you’d probably win too, but then you’d need way more ice packs than i have to offer. even my stockpile is limited, aaron. ❞

❝ football guys are DUMB anyway. they can shit talk us when they learn to play a better sport. …if they can learn? i heard they get concussions yearly. must not be good for their brains, yknow! ❞ in an attempt to diffuse the bomb that is a minyard’s anger he’s trying out humor. it’ll be a shocker if it actually works.

they  can’t  lose  what  they  never  fucking  had ,     he  thinks  bitterly  as  he  takes  the  newer ,     colder  ice - pack  and  presses it  to  his  face  with  a  hiss .     ❛   don’t  tell  andrew .   ❜     aaron  says ,     ignoring  nicky’s  awful  attempt  at  diffusion  and  instead  the  fear  that  lingers .     it’s  common  knowledge  to  all  of  the  team  that  andrew  would  likely  kill  aaron  if  he  found  out  he’d  been  in  a  fight ,    let  alone  instigated  it .

❛   ━━━━   say  i  fell  down  the  stairs  or  something .     if  he  asks .   ❜

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G C Y C O U S I N .

his cousin is nodding thoughtfully while also internally SIGHING at yet another fight. ( this time, with the twin that’s usually much calmer. ) ❝ so–to repeat your story: you fought the football team in the parking lot of a denny’s. i….. ❞ nicky’s actually sighing now. ❝ what did they to you again? and would you like a new icepack? ❞ maybe they thought he was andrew. whatever the reason, it made nicky extremely frustrated.

❛   no ,     i  didn’t  fight  the  entire  football  team   ━━━━   ❜     he  corrects ,     huffing  into  the  air  with  brows  furrowed  in  annoyance .     not  strictly  aimed  at  nicky ,     no ,     half  and  half  with  the  pain  in  his  cheek  that  somehow  worms  it’s  way  through  his  entire  body .     

❛   ━━━━  but  i  fucking  should’ve .     assholes .   ❜     he  bristles ,     nods  at  nicky’s  offer  for  a  new  ice - pack  and  drops  the  one  he’s  holding  onto  the  counter ;     this  one  is  warm  and  soppy ,     keeps  moving  around  and  threatening  to  fall  off  his  face .     ❛   they  started  talking  shit ,   i  don’t  know  what  about  but  i  heard  my  name  and  just .     lost  it .   ❜     in  truth ,     he  heard  nicky’s  name  too ,     along  with  andrew’s  and  low  and  behold ,     josten’s .     but  that’s  not  something  anyone  needs  to  know .

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angstmemes:

trigger warnings apply!

been cheated on | been bullied | told a horrible lie | stolen something of value | overdosed on drugs | been drunk | passed out | cheated | bullied | punched someone in the face | been beaten up | broken a bone | been admitted to hospital | had a near-death experience | been drugged | done drugs | smoked | kissed someone you weren’t attracted to | bled severely | killed someone | had an attempt on your life | made an attempt on your own life | lost someone | loved someone | gone without food for over three days | gone without sleep for over three days | been tortured | been slapped by a parent | been abused by someone who should have loved you | had a panic attack | been in a car accident | had sex | had sex with a stranger | been raped | felt raped | passed out from pain | cried yourself to sleep | spent a whole day in bed | hurt yourself | taken your anger out on yourself | taken your anger out on someone you love | been used | used | been terrified | played a cruel game on someone | been dominant | been submissive | been forced to smile | been misgendered | felt too many things at once | laughed when you felt like crying

have you ever...

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*pats cousins head* its okay!!

          ❛   hey ,     would  you   ━━━━   cut  it  out ,     nicky !     i’m  not  a  kid .   ❜

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❛   ━━━━   and  then  his  friend  was  all  like ,     bring  it ,     short - stack ,     so  i  punched  him .   ❜   as  exciting  as  the  story  is ,     it’s  told  through  hisses  and  grunts  as  he  presses  an  ice - pack  to  his  face ,     trying  to  numb  the  dull  ache  in  his  cheek .     it’s  not  something  this  twin  is  known  for ,     fighting ,     but  he’d  made  it  quite  clear  he  was  going  to  stand  his  ground  in  that  fucking  denny’s  parking  lot ,    and  he’d  have  never  lived  it  down  if  he’d  backed  away  when  the  douchebags  from  the  football  team  came  swinging .     //   @gcycousin​ !

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C O U R T Q U E E N .

❛   why it’s statistically impossible that   ━━━━   ❜     your loss, minyard !  kevin’s obligatory glower is cast ; aaron’s face is washed out by the flickering glow of the television screen , two pairs of thumbs on video game controllers , but the typical flat expression is an easy fill  -  in  -  the  -  blank . there’s a beat of silence , more specifically the sounds of button clicking and instant gratification  ;  anxiety rushes to fill the noise before his head takes the reins .     ❛  ━━━━   jeremy knox would not end up in the exy hall of fame .   ❜ 

❛   YOU THINK HE ISN’T ALREADY ?   ❜     aaron  certainly  isn’t  interested ,     but  his  little  avatar  keeps  dying  and  regenerating  with  the  help  of  thirteen year - olds  that  are  far  more  competent  at  this  game  than  he  is ,     and  it’s  starting  to  grate  on  his  last  nerve  (   though  that  would  imply  he  had  any  to  begin  with   ) .      he  swears  under  his  breath  and  pauses  the  screen ,     legs ,     numb  from  sitting  still  too  long  managing  to  keep  him  upright  as  he  makes  his  way  to  the  kitchen  and  opens  the  fridge ,      insisting  that  he’ll  need  a  drink  before  he  even  attempts  to  redeem  himself .     ❛   there’s  a  plaque  with  his  name  on  it ,      ‘ betcha .     do  you  want  anything  whilst  i’m  here  ?   ❜ 

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Andrew flicked him a cool look. “I told her what would happen if she raised her hand again. She had no right to act so surprised.”

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P I P E S D R E A M .

❝    YEAH ,    LIKE   ACTUALLY   PLAYING   EXY  .   ❞       each  taunt  was  delivered  close  to  stiffly ,     but  he  had  become  far  too  desensitised  with  andrew’s  frigid  decomposition  to  feel  at  unease  with  anyone  else’s  resentment       -      least  of  all  aaron .         ❝    take  it  easy  on  the  drills  there .    ❞

❛   THAT  WHAT  YOU’VE  BEEN  DOING ?    i  thought  you  were  here  just  sticking  your  burnt  sienna  head  into  other  people’s  business .   ❜     arms  crossed ,     gaze  hinted  with  spiritless  amusement   ━━━   the  kind  only  he’d  understand ,     he  almost  wills  himself  to  walk  away  and  do  the  dignified  thing .     but  that’s  never  been  something  minyards  have  been  known  for .     ❛   you  think  if  you  take  on  enough  charity  cases  it’ll  clear  your  dirty  conscience  ?   ❜

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❛   LOOK ,     KEV   ━━━━   ❜     come  on ,     he’s  been  gracious ,     offering  his  time  whilst  andrew  and  whatever - the - fuck - his - name - is - now  swan  off  to  do  something  he  doesn’t  even  want  to  spare  a  millisecond  thinking  about ,    (     nicky  keeps  telling  him ,     if  he  hasn’t  got  anything  nice  to  say ,     don’t say  it .     so  he  doesn’t .     most  of  the  time .     )     but  enough  is  enough .     ❛   ━━━━   i  don’t  care  about  your  theories  on ...  what  were  you  talking  about  again ?   ❜ 

/ /  @courtqueen ��♡’d .

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                           songs for brothers with ichor in their veins.                                                                         aaron  michael  minyard  &  andrew  joseph  minyard.

01 .     brother  ━━  matt  corby .

somebody  call  out  to  your  brother  /  he’s  calling  out  your  name  (  ooh  ooh  ooh  )  /  hiding  under  the  covers  /  with  no  one  else  to  blame  (  ooh  ooh  ooh  )  /  you  couldn’t  help  out  your  own  neighbour  /  couldn’t  tell  it  to  his  face  /  you  were  fucked  up  by  the  blame .

02 .     when  you  break  ━━ bear’s den .

when  you  break  it's  too  late  for  you  to  fall  apart  /  and  the  blame  that  you  claim  is  all  your  own  fault  /  and  you've  been  crying  out  for  forever  /  but  forever's  come  and  gone  /  you  keep  begging  for  forgiveness  /  but  you  don't  think  you've  done  wrong  /  you've  been  crying  out  for  forever  /  forever's  come  and  gone  /  my  bleeding  hands ,  my  shaking  head .

03 .     no  anwers  ━━  amber  run .

i  know  you  /  but  i  don’t  want  to  /  because  people  like  you  never  change  /  and  i  forgive  you ,  but  can’t  forget  you  /  because  the  things  you  said  are  etched  inside  my  brain  /  you  said  /  i  got  no  answers  /  oh  no ,  i  got  no  answers  /  oh  no ,  i  got  no  answers  for  you .

04 .     easier  ━━  mansionair .

face  up ,  i'll  lose  /  craving  for  some  feeling  /  game's  up ,  we're  nowhere  to  be  found  /  i'm  stuck ,  i'm  stuck,  i'm  stuck  here  in  my  skin  /  i'm  stuck ,  i'm  stuck ,  i'm  stuck  with  you .

05 .     killing  me  to  love  you  ━━  vancouver  sleep  clinic .

i  want  to  keep  faith ,  but  you’re  making  it  harder  (  but  it’s  killing  me  to  love  you  )  /  i’m  reaching  out  now  but  you’re  pulling  me  under  (  but  it’s  killing  me  to  love  you  )  /  i  give  you  my heart  just  to  watch  you  waste  it  (  but  it’s  killing  me  to  love  you  )  /  i  can’t  let  go  when  you  still  need  saving .

06 .     human  ━━  aquilo .

this  is  us ,  you  know  it  on  the  inside  /  this  is  us ,  so  you  should  show  it  on  the  outside  /  this  is  us ,  dust  the  dust  up  off  your  shoulders  /  feet  on  ground ,  you’ll  come  round  /  and  be  human  again .

07 .     fading through  ━━  wafia  ft  vancouver  sleep  clinic .

i  drown  in  the  oceans  /  that  keep  us  apart  /  mapping  distant  stars  /  oh  their  voices  call  me  /  to  the  shelter  of  your  skin  /  where  the  end  begins . i’d  climb  onto  rooftops  /  to  catch  a  glimpse  of  the  moon  /  a  fading  trail  of  you  /  a  mountain  of  effort  /  and  a  wall  of  prayer  /  but  this  war  is  to  the  death . oh  we’re  fading  through  /  oh  we’re  fading  through  /  nothing  left  to  do  /  and  can’t you  see  it  was  all  for  you ?

08 .     murder  song  (  5 , 4 , 3 , 2 , 1  )  ━━  aurora .

he  holds  the  gun  against  my  head  /  i  close  my  eyes  and  bang ,  i’m  dead  /  i  know  he  knows  he’s  killing  me  for  mercy . he  holds  my  body  in  his  arms  /  he  didn’t  mean  to  do  no  harm  /  he  holds  me  tight  /  oh  he  did  it  all  to  spare  me  from  the  awful  things  in  life  that  comes  /  and  he  cries ,  and  cries  /  i  know  he  he  knows  he’s  killing  me  for  mercy .

09 .     bayou  ━━  mountains  of  the  moon .

what  if  we  were  never  intertwined  /  forever  undefined  /  take  my  hand  /  now  or  not  at  all  /  sow  a  seed , grow  a  plant  /  watch  it  spire  tall . you  were  my  coming  down  /  my  solid  ground  /  paramount .

10 .     berlin  ━━  ry  x .

bedroom  floor  /  and  silence  in  my  blood  /  sorry  love  i’m  running  home  /  i’m  a  child  of  the  sun  and  the  stars  i  love .

11 .     drown  ━━  seafret .

what  doesn’t  destroy  you ,  leaves  you  broken  instead  /  got  a  hole  in  my  soul  growing  deeper  and  deeper  /  and  i  can’t  take  one  more  moment  of  this  silence  /  the  loneliness  is  killing  me  /  and  the  weight  of  the  world’s  getting  harder  to  hold  up . who  will  fix  me  now ?  /  dive  in  when  i  drown  /  save  me  from  myself  /  don’t  let  me  drown  /  i’m  not  okay  and  it’s  not  alright  /  won’t  you  drag  the  lake  and  bring  me  home  again .

12 .     looking  too  closely  ━━  fink .

put  your  arms  around  somebody  else  /  and  don’t  punish  yourself ,  punish  yourself  /  the  truth  is  like  blood  underneath  your  fingernails  /  and  you  don’t  want  to  hurt  yourself ,  hurt  yourself  . and  i  could  be  wrong  about  anybody  else  /  so  don’t  kid  yourself ,  kid  yourself  /  it’s  you  right  there ,  right  there  in  the  mirror  /  you  don’t  want  to  hurt  yourself ,  hurt  yourself  /  by  looking  too  closely .

13 .     through  the  eyes  of  a  child  ━━  aurora .

the  world  is  covered  by  our  trails  /  scars  we  cover  up  with  paint  /  watch  them  preach  in  sour  lies  /  i  would  rather  see  the  world  through  the  eyes  of  a  child . darker  times  will  come  and  go  /  times  you  need  to  see  her  smile  /  and  mother’s  hearts  are  warm  and  mild  /  i  would  rather  feel  this  world  through  the  skin  of  a  child  /  through  the  skin  of  a  child .

14 .    you’re  a  man  now ,  boy  ━━  raleigh  ritchie .

i  loved  jurassic  park  /   well  i  still  do  /  actually ,  i’m  the  same  except  that  now  i  take  a  pill  or  two . you’re  a  man  now ,  boy  /  i’m  not  growing  up ,  i’m ageing  /  my  mind’s  incarcerated  /  still  a  boy  /  you’re  a  man  now ,  boy  /  and  though  this  body’s  taller ,  sometimes  i  feel  smaller  /  just  a  boy  /  you’re  a  man  now ,  boy . i  smoke  too  many  cigarettes  and  drink  too  much  /  see  the  news  and  feel  the  blues ,  i’m  feeling  out  of  touch  /  i  was  an  astronaut  once  upon  a  time  /  now  i’m  tryna  stay  grounded ,  keep  some  order  in  my  life

15 .   bad blood  ━━  bear’s den .

sever  the  ties  /  cut  me  out  /  fill  up  the  hole  /  that  i  tried ,  that  i  tried  to  fill  /  oh ,  i  lied  and  i’ll  lie  at  will  /  just  to  keep  your  feet  on  the  floor  /  to  keep  my  wolves  from  your  door . well  i  slashed  your  tires  /  and  i  locked  your  doors  /  so  no  one  gets  out  /  but  there’s  a  rupture  to  the  structure  of  this  house  that  we  built  /  and  i  fucked  it ,  yeah  i  fucked  it  and  i  fucked  it  /  until  those  wolves  they  took  all  that  they  could .

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betsy voice: watch ur TONE young man,

              u don’t control me .     u change ur tone .

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right well .     now i can’t stop thinking about the gd pacific rim au.

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You know whos drift compatible? Andrew and Aaron.

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