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coloured in version of Dirge!!

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ive accidentally given him the type of sadness you only see in eastern european gay porn which well. considering his whole existence as a mourning actor is from the fumbling of the century (gopher wood doing the fumbling)

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[picrew] Woe Dirge be upon ye! In reality his hair is a little lighter, closer to a pale white green but this was the closest option the picrew had lol. Also he has those wings behind his ears like all halovians, and his halos missing.

I'll have to draw this beautiful bastard next but for now I have what his combat kit would be to share!! Basically I thought about what I think would be the most annoying yet to useful to skip kit ever and made him that way, bc he's a mourning actor and lives for misery.

Also combat wise he's Nihility Lightning.

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okay people hear me out on this. are you ready?

beautiful genderfluid blade and also beautiful transwoman ratio

thank you for coming to my ted talk

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named my enigmata emanator, their name is Fallere Historia 👍 means deceive history or history is misleading also yes this is in part bc i ship them w ratio and i thought matching names would be cute but also neither of them remember what their original names were so they named themself something they werent likely to forget

gonna change their ship name to truth in the lie

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Who's your OC's lover? im ignoring a question list wip for this one lmaooo

Dirge: Exs with Gopher Wood hes currently single Pythonicus: Anaxagoras bc i think its funny for him to be w a Kremnoan follower of Mnestia Kamlo: Argenti! They r very cute together in my mind 🤗 Stellaron Hunter: unnamed rn but hes heavily flirting w Sunday 😏 chicken and the fox vibes w these two (cause hes a foxian 🤭) Fallere Historia: Dr Ratio bc again i think its funny. does this count as poly when the emanator is two people inhabiting the same body 🤔 three of these were bc i thought itd be funny then they consumed my mind sighs

the others r all single or i have no clue who theyd go w lol

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*heavy sigh* I'd like you to visit my library in another life.

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was about to write up a pythonicus x anaxagoras post now that ive finished 3.2 and called them pythagoras in my mind and now im loosing it w laughter like ahh yess ill name their ship after the guy who invited a way of math and also advanced music thats hilariously perfect on complete accident

unfortunately this made me completely forget my train of thought so no pythonaxa today

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just listened to the song "the bird song" for the first time and ouwgahagh it fits dirge and gopher wood so well, the toxic old man yaoi is a disease and i am INFLICTED just???

warnings: penacony spoilers, toxicity should be obvious when im calling it toxic old man yaoi but yk, uhhh manipulation, mentioned gaslighting(?), mention of self sacrifice(?)

"Cause I'm a giver, and a giver is a bad, bad thing to be. He's a killer, and a killer's even worse for folks like me"

OUWGAHAGH IT FITS PRE-STELLARON Dirge so WELL he gave and gave and gave to make people happy and Gopher Wood kept taking it all from him until Dirge shattered at the stellaron reveal and left penacony as a mourning actor

"I'm in love with the idea of dyin' with you in my arms. But not like this"

Dirge wanted to grow old and adopt some kids w Gopher Wood before GW told him about the stellaron, then Dirge just wasnt able to comprehend how GW would ever think Dirge would be okay with it. but also Dirge knew that if GW had known hed run at finding out then Dirge wouldnt have found out about it until that charmony festival which would have been even worse after a life spent at his lovers side

"We can't really help who we are, Damned to the end from the start"

they really cant 😭😭 pre-stellaron Dirge was like Robin in wanting to help everyone but way worse in the way he didnt know how to put his foot down and say no. if someone wanted his help w smth hed help even if it hurt him or ran him ragged but he loved to much for him to be able to agree w GW about the stellaron. while also loving TOO much to be able to tell anyone what GW was doing bc he knew it would end in GW being either incarcerated or executed and even as a mourning actor that wasn't an agony he could encourage

meanwhile GW knew exactly what he was doing, knew that if the order was revived there would be no more thinking just playing out a script without any awareness of the script existed. he even originally intended to use Dirge how he ended up using Robin & Sunday its just that he found himself in love w Dirge before realising it but still he was going to use Dirge, he was simply intending to lie that someone else would usher in the new age for ena to Dirge bc GW is selfish and doesnt care even though he knew the lies would hurt Dirge he just hadnt expected how much the stellaron reveal would affect Dirge. like he loved Dirge but in his mind hed moved his plan to far forward already to stop, so he may as well enjoy the little bit of time w Dirge he had before using him to revive the Order

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pretty boy Kamlo!! my shitty handwriting is typed below

text on the left: mirrors hooked onto his coat, when they fill up he launches a follow-up ATK -> similar to path resonance in simulated universe

text on the right: sephiroth ahh hair, not set of this outfit but ¯\_(ツ)_/¯, what his eyes look like

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doodle of pythonicus' casual wear, ignore the misdrawn facial porportions i did that part in pen without sketching it first 😔

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What does your amphoreus oc’s statue looks like that indicates their demise?

Pythonicus: pinned to the ground with a great sword through his throat, hundreds of little cuts spread across his body and a smile on his face because he already knew this is how it would end for him

What would your oc be cancelled for? (included some unnamed ocs I have)

Dirge: he tweeted "the ipc is basically just another gondola of mourning actors" bc they cause so many people misery lmao

Pythonicus: hes actually gonna get cancelled in his canon for being so loyal to aglaea 😔 the council puts a smear campaign on his ass bc he makes things significantly easier for her

Kamlo: accidentally cut argenti's hair short when they were sparring

Enigmata Emanator: it got revealed that they were a heliobus possesing a human, nobody believes that its a mutual agreement to coexist in their body

Stellaron Hunter: the ipc is very mad hes the one thing standing between them and being able to get whatever the irs department in hsr is to tell them where the SH's base is (context is hes their accountant and has to do everyones taxes besides blades so the hsr irs dont get them 🙄)

Masked Fool: she talks like its opposite day 24/7 except for when she doesn't teehee

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if hoyoverse wont give me toxic old man yaoi i will simply make it myself with an oc and a man whos only appearance was a portrait. Dirge is like 45~55 and bitter exes w Gopher Wood bc i think its funny (what wasnt funny was that this fleeting thought then held my brain hostage for three hours ruminating on the Toxic Old Man Yaoi)

Some Dirge Voice Lines

About Sunday: So this is the one who took my place? For a moment I had thought... but no, it is irrelevant. Perhaps in another life.

About Robin: That girl... somehow she found out about who I used to be, now she regularly hunts me down for "family bonding". I am not her father, that man died on a grand stage with an unknowing audience of one.

About Gopher Wood: Aha my dearly beloved, my author of torment, my morning star. Even now your actions cause this viscera of mine to writhe, your words akin to a gaping wound in my chest... let us speak of him no more.

About Sparkle: Is that women truly a Masked Fool? I do not know what she looks like, what with her always wearing his face around me. Aha have you forced a mask upon an actor?

Added to Team With Sunday: A journey can only begin upon taking a step... but is this step one you will regret?

Added to Team With Robin: Aha... so the prodigal daughter seeks me out again. My answer will not change.

Added to Team With Sparkle: That form again... are you really a Masked Fool, pretender?

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Lore for the newly named Mourning Actor Dirge!

Originally he was a hardworking actor of the Iris Family of Penacony, determined to bring even more joy to the blissful dreamscape. On and off the stage he was a picture perfect display of happiness, that caught the gaze of even the dreammaster.

This was the start of his unfortunate descent into despair, having caught the interest of Gopher Wood the man extended an invitation to see the best stage of them all. Penacony Grand Theatre. Oblivious to the dreammaster's true intentions he blindly went, only to learn the bitter truth that the sweet dream was nothing more than a lie being powered by the Cancer of All Worlds.

The newly mourning actor quickly spun on a cheerful facade for the dreammaster, tricking Gopher Wood into letting him go by making the man believe that he'd indoctrinated another onto the path of the Order. This however was as much a lie as the sweet dream, and the mourning actor quickly slipped free of the dream before the dreammaster could realise his act.

The sweet dream being all a lie shook his world, forced him to acknowledge his memories of those that were never truly happy within the dream. Made him realise that he had only become an actor because of other people's expectations, he had never found joy in it.

That is when he decided. If joy cannot be found through a person's real face, if people can not do what brings them joy freely without being scorned, then isn't joy just another sweet lie sold to the masses?

Upon this epiphany he discarded his original name, and the mourning actor rechristened himself Dirge. Leaving the planet of festivities behind to start his melancholic journey across the stars.

also when i said he wears the wedding attire he designed in the last post i also meant the dresses ☝️ he flips a coin in the morning to pick if hes wearing a suit of dress that day. also also he is unaware of it but he has an almost cult like following on cosmogram (what i call hsr instagram), if he knew he caused so many people so much joy hed probably have an aneurysm and use it as evidence that joy can only cause you disappointment and pain in life

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NEVER STOP BEING OBSESSED WITH YOUR OCS 🫵

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first time posting oc stuff in two years but uh heyyyyy hsr got me in a vice grip, pls come ask me question about these guys im begging for an excuse to talk to other people about them 🙏

Pythonicus

He's an amphoreus oc! Works directly for Aglaea and is a follower of Mnestia, actually the one out of these I have the most lore for rn believe or not by this shitty intro for him 💀. Also the only one to currently have art.

Kamlo An Avgin that is now a mirror holder, he doesn't recognise himself when he looks at his own image (per canon). He knows who and what he is, but because of his incapability to recognise his own features he doesn't consciously register that he's one of the only two left of his race even if some part of him is constantly weeping in grief. Has his eyes closed near constantly to avoid the headache he gets upon catching a glance of a reflective surface, so his status as an Avgin isn't known.

Currently Unnamed Mourning Actor A halovian Mourning Actor that travels alone as a freelance tailor spreading his diatribe against the Elation, even though his pessimistic view on life disturbs most they can't help but clamour for his work. He wears nothing but various different wedding outfits that he himself designed, after all if joy was worthwhile then why is it that a person's happiest moment is limited to the day their life is bound to another's?

Currently Unnamed Emanator of Enigmata A strange symbiotic duo, they are. The Emanator a Heliobus, and the human that is their willing host. It seems this heliobi's status as Emanator has frozen it's hosts lifespan, while the power their status gave them removing their need to feast on their host's emotion. Neither of them remember why they agreed to such a coexistence, the vessel's human mind making their memories dissipate as the decades crawl by. If someone were to ask how this relationship had come about, they would simply make a story based off of whatever their current earliest memory is.

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