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Finally, I am 21 years old. I can finally move out of my parents home at least that’s what I thought. It turns out that I need Social Security an order for me to go in the Pacific apartment but for some reason, they thought I am faking my disability I really am not yet. This is happening. I was planning on moving out during the summer but that never happened. I guess I’m stuck with my parents for a while until things get situated. But ever since BloodyYandere6667 block to me for three years, I no longer see her as a big sister nor as a friend anymore, now I see her either as my boss or my enemy I already got one at school who is once my friends now an enemy I don’t need another one. It hurts me to say the least. Me and her had not been talking to each other for over three years and you know what I’m done with her if she wants to go talk to me she might as well talk to a wall because I’m not there anymore She says that she thought of me as a friend, but in reality, she thought of me as a thief, and a piece of liar. I might as well make a list of what I’ve done to see if this is true.

1. I was planning on doing an ask blog for Just A Normal (Killer) Doll. False: it means I’m stealing the character. True: no, this is not true I think she completely forgotten about Yami Rabbit since she was doing her characters on her own ask blog on her tumblr but she never pacifically, said about Yami Rabbit so I was planning to actually do an ask blog for Yami Rabbit.

2. I’ve asked her if she wants to go on my live stream on YouTube, and she said no. False: she thinks that me reading Just A Normal (Killer) Doll is violating her privileges. True: I was only asking her for my live stream; if she said yes, we would’ve done a Q&A not about her self but about the story. Plus I have respected her when she said no I only asked her if she can join and I respected her when she said no so instead I use this live stream to read her story since I completely forgot where I stopped when I was reading it and parts so this one was a lot easier and plus she did say to do whatever makes me feel comfortable I have proof of this, including my pinky promised on crediting her for her story.

3. In my “introduced the artist” I said that I hate myself. This is somewhat true, but not in the way she thought it was it’s not because of being fat and all that sort of thing I still love myself for that, but I hated myself from the past that I didn’t stand up for myself against my aunt if I were to just tell my mom, how horrible my aunt was if my aunt didn’t threaten me, my aunt was a abusive person back then and I couldn’t actually say to myself it’s also the same with my love life I had three boyfriends one of them want to do inappropriate things, and want us to be a thing, even though we’re still elementary schoolers, the second was very manipulated and very clinging to me, and I couldn’t fight him but in the end, he got what he deserved without me, fighting him and the third one let’s just say he was more let’s just say touching my thighs even though I tell him to stop not me that he had cheated me multiple times, even after I moved to Thermopolis in the end we no longer a thing. And they all lead up to my past to even now right now I am even seen a shadow of my past, and I am no longer wanting to see it anymore

4. I said that she is like an older sister to me. This one I believe, had been the last straw for her, and she had to tell me that we’re not blood related, and that, even though we have autism we’re two different people. She had forgotten that in Hawaii. Everyone is called a sister or a brother as a form of respect after all “Ohana means family and family means no one gets left behind or forgotten” said by Lilo and Nani from Lilo and stitch. And even though she said that she may be younger, I have guessed, because in fact, she has been here on the Internet longer than me, and even though she never gives her age, I have a friend, who has the same birthday as she does and my friend is older than me.

Sure she has proven some of it, but if she would allow me to explain instead of making a rational decisions we would’ve have gone along but then again, if she hadn’t blocked me, I wouldn’t have my friends by my side so even if I were to make a new account for Tumblr because I am thinking about it I don’t think I would be talking to her show how to make that decision all by herself. But her therapy was wrong. About one thing it is OK to let go of friends, but it is OK to remember those days and maybe one day you may actually meet them again that is some thing I wish she learned about it. And to be honest, I’m happy to having the friends that I have now.

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Dave hadn’t contact me back I think Dave had died I don’t know I can’t really continue the RP and I’m starting to miss him very much I don’t even know what to do anymore and I maybe should leave this account or anything I don’t know what to do I don’t know where Dave or if he’s OK I don’t know anymore

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Is Dave’s Minecraft account still broken or something because I wanted to play Minecraft with him but maybe he didn’t want to I don’t know but then again he likes RP maybe I’m boring I don’t know but when he finds out I’m not playing RP maybe he’ll get mad I think I shouldn’t ask him if he wants to play Minecraft I think that’s for the best usually I always ask him if he wants to but then again he always says maybe later despite role-playing that we can do it anytime if he keeps forgetting he could’ve just put it in a note or in Google Docs then he can natural your number I wish I now But I can’t ask him anymore i’m fearing that he will get so angry at me that he might actually leave like her….. well that’s enough of that I think I should go play Minecraft just to get my mind at ease I doubt @dave-and-friends-is-official would notice…. Would he?

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Hi it’s…. It’s been a while since I posted my diary but…. I’m thinking about never talking to @davetheskullminion again not that I blame him but…. After his master said I stole his art…. I don’t know maybe I should stop doing fanart and comics but…. Maybe people would leave me alone…. But if it keeps worse what now delete my profile everything, change my name, my identity, my ocs, I don’t know anymore…. I don’t know.

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I know Dave didn’t mean to hurt me I’m glad we’re still friends

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Dave just yelled at me he just yelled at me I was right he hates me he really hates me I’m not going to show him the tree in Minecraft ever I not going to play Minecraft with him ever again he’s on his own on Minecraft now

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Today Dave blocked @BloodyYandere6667 and I’m impressed but he is more down then ever I’m worried that he would hurt himself or worse I just hope he doesn’t do ether of those things I don’t want to loose my close friend.

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We got this for Halloween

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I shouldn’t use my demonic powers now Dave’s scared of me for good. why am I born like this?

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I was planning on making soy sauce ramen when all the sudden I get a second pack of seasoning ether one I hit the jackpot or it’s a curse 

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After a lot of thinking I have four choices ether to keep her but she can’t be Cora and Dark Rabbit’s Daughter, to abandon Yami, give her up to adoptionor, to keep her and let @BloodyYandere6667 to decide her fate.

I understand what people are thinking but why I rather not the reason as to why I’m already having mental and emotional health problems with my parents and the not taking to @BloodyYandere6667. But she’s not important anymore and even if she said to go to a therapist is true I know when I get better I’ll go back to the problem when I get back home because the air is colder and my parents are not talking to each other or when they do they start a argument on something I’ll not understand  I started to think that @BloodyYandere6667 thought my life is perfect in reality it is not my parents argues a lot they even decided to not share a room they might think of divorce which I don’t mind as it would help my mental and emotional heath not only that I wanted to get away from my mom because she said the word fat which it’s a big no no also I’m actually average. I’m just worried about my two young sisters because they got used to having mom and dad together I think they’ll be happy if their giving a divorce and I’m trying my best to make them happy and keep them away from our parents arguments. In fact the @BloodyYandere6667 told me how she felt before decided to not talk to me again was the day my parents were arguing.

That’s all I have to say I this was a long time since I brought Yami in the picture and the reason why I don’t act right with my friend. Please don’t judge or anything Yami is just a open table of possibility ether she’ll be in the end, or middle part of the story.

I was thinking what would it look like if Dark Rabbit and Cora Shell got married and have a child I only made one but I’m not sure if they are or not but maybe in a timeline or maybe an AU (Alternate Universe) I couldn’t draw this but here’s are some examples. Her name is Yami Rabbit. ( Yami means Dark in Japanese)

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I went to clean my sisters bedroom because my dad told me to so I move the bunk bed and no I have my own room but I see this;

I’m surprised that they didn’t have Mice, Rats, and/or bugs in their room.

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Last night and at 12AM I forgot to say good night to Dave when I check the text message he asked me if my internet is slow because he gave me a message I was a little stunned for a second before I thought that he forgot I have work on the weekend at 9AM not only that I strangely also fall asleep in the middle of the RP so I don’t think he was prepared and right now I felt pretty bad for sleeping on him and I felt sorry for it.

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I made Dave mad again I shouldn’t say Dim

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Zim

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From Twitter

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I just woke up this morning but I forgot I have these pictures

This one was taken at August 15 1:33 PM I was doing the dishes when I finished cleaning out a container that had this strawberry jelly tip and I took a picture of this because I reminds me of blood from horror movies.

This one way taken on the same Day at 3:34 PM me and dad were getting some food when we bump into the very weird mix between a Dr Pepper and Baked Beans and I love Dr Pepper and beans just not together but I thought they try something new.